Hey everyone. I'm still here too! Just so much going on with the end of the school year and all the volunteer stuff I do.
I try to check in everyday, but I don't have much to say.
We have been dealing with our 8 year old's anxiety and it sure has taken alot out of me! She was recently diagnosed with "Panic Disorder" but she has been suffering since she was very young with panic attacks & general anxiety. It had become so out of control that she was getting sent home from school and nearly suspended for hitting a teacher. She gets like a crazed animal when she gets scared. The Dr explained that her "Fight or Flight" response is broken so she tries to fight or flee in very inappropriate moments. Something as simple as too many people in a room or a change in schedule was enough to send her into a rage. We really thought she was just very stubborn and defiant. The truth was she was scared to death, literally, and thought she was fighting for her life. She had even got to the point where she would cry and say "I don't want to be like this anymore. I want to die so I don't have to be scared anymore". That is a scary thing to hear an 8 year old say.
A few months ago (after 2 years of counseling and attempts with behavioral modifiication) I finally relented and decided to let her try meds.
I don't know if it was the stigma of "mental illness" or the worry of it being a lifetime sentance but I was really reluctant to put her on medication.
So after about 9 weeks of meds she is a totally different kid. Outgoing, fun loving and social again. I feel guilty now that I was so against it. The doctor said something that really made sense to me though. If she had a broken pancreas then we would want her to take insulin, why wouldn't we want to help if her brain was broken?
The plan is to have her take the meds through summer while she works on her calming techniques then slowly wean her from the meds after school starts next year. So it's not a life sentance (hopefully) after all.
So here's hoping that we are doing the right thing for her and that she won't have to suffer her whole life with this. It's so painful to watch your baby suffer like this.
Meanwhile, DS had his IEP and they are denying OT evals and services so we will have to play hardball with the school. I hate having to be mean to get what he needs. We will have to spend hundreds of $$ for an advocate and write strongly worded letters. I hate being that person but this is something I think will truly benefit him.
Being a parent is hard work!
