Hey guys, well, it’s been quite a while since I’ve been here. Truth is I’ve been reluctant to come back and write a doom and gloom post, but I miss checking in with you guys. I hope you are all doing OK (no, I didn't read the 20 pages I missed). And this post isn’t particularly cheerful, so please don’t feel obligated to read.
I expect everybody is stressed these days, but I’m certainly feeling that way. Besides the social distancing lock down, I’ve got some other things weighing on my mind.
Some of you may remember that I work in Oil & Gas. Yeah, that’s a pretty scary place to be right now. I have kept working from home over the past few weeks. But I don’t expect to be working much longer. We’ve been told that layoffs are coming and they will be significant. I will be surprised if I survive the cuts.
My wife has been struggling with this whole situation. First, she was laid off from her job earlier this month. She worked in a retail shop and wasn’t making a six figure salary, but it certainly helped. Of course the shop was closed. But in the last week, the owner has hired her back (after the Canadian government announced the emergency wage subsidy for small business) and the shop plans to do on line/pick up sales for now. So that much is good, if a bit uncertain. I have never mentioned before, but she suffers from both depression and anxiety, a bad combination. Therapy and medication has helped over the last couple years. But her anxiety is kicked into overdrive now. She finds it hard going out in public at all, even just a weekly trip to the supermarket. She hasn’t had to go back into the shop yet, but I’m not sure how she is going to be when she has to work there, even if it’s just handing out merchandise at the door.
My oldest daughter is finishing her 2nd year of university online and she’ll be done by the end of the month. She had been offered a summer research job, but that’s a bit up in the air now too. They may have her work form home and do journal research. She’s not interested in that, but I told her if they are going to pay her, just be thankful to have something.
For our youngest daughter, we’ve been trying to keep up with school work at home, but mainly focused on math. To be honest, it’s the only thing I am most concerned about. It’s not been that easy because she has zero interest. I’m just hoping she doesn’t fall too far behind.
Ironically, a couple months ago I was actually thinking of going back to Florida later this year. That won’t be happening for a while, if at all. If I get laid off, I have no idea how long it will be before I’m back on my feet. I have a pretty good job now, but it’s very specialized, so it will be hard to find something else, I expect. I’m afraid the money just won’t be there for any trips.
Sorry about the negative post guys. I really just wanted to come back and touch base. I’m trying to look at the positives, but it’s hard. I’m sure there are people worse off than me. I just feel like the tunnel is pretty dark right now.