And just like that, I'm out of work and on bedrest. It's not strict, I'm allowed being up in small spurts for a couple hours each day, but I'm at home for the most part and off of my feet 90% of the time. And again, not working. For a girl who counted down to her last day for the last 8 weeks, I certainly wasn't ready for that! In fact, despite my letter saying "should cease working effective 04/16/08", I'm going in tomorrow for a few hours. I need to, just for me. I had JUST made a list today to start paring down over the next 2 weeks. While I know I won't be able to get any of it done in the few hours I'll be there tomorrow, I will feel better knowing I at least was able to hand it off to someone and explain where things are. I feel bad for my regional manager, too, who will likely be on the first plane to Cincinnati tomorrow since there is nobody else prepared just yet. *sigh* It really just boils down to my own emotional coping. If you know me in real life, you would know I am NOT the type that likes being told I can't do something, or need to rest.
Maybe I'm in denial, but I'm not even all that worried about the babies coming just yet. My OB seems to think I should be here for several more weeks, just that I need to stop working and lie around in order to accomplish that. I mostly just wanted a few weeks to do things on my own terms!
Please send a few good thoughts my way tomorrow at 1, if you can. I have a ******l u/s to see my cervical length (at this point, it feels closed but very thin, just in the last week -- sorry about TMI!). If it is markedly short or funneling, it's off to Hotel Hospital until these babies make their appearance. If I make it past that hurdle and get to stay home for a while longer, I think I will be much better and will be able to adjust to the idea of bedrest HERE, considering it's much better than the hospital!
In other (positive) news, the babies are continuing to grow (2.25lb and 2.5lbs the other day, about the 25th and 40th percentiles). I didn't gain any weight, but I didn't lose this week -- so I'm heading in the right direction

and my BP is still low. I'm measuring 38 weeks (which is likely why they are thinking my uterus is ready to kick these babies out!), so things are progressing nicely. Just hopefully not for at least a few more weeks!