I just started typing a long thing and it went poof!

Thankfully I had really just started typing but still.
Can we stop this life I want to get off.
This is going to be long and rambly and a lot will be stuff I've said before so you can pass over it...but if I don't get it out I may just explode or worse.
With the girls hitting such large (and old) milestones this past week...I've come to the realization that I am probably not going to have more kids which put me in a funk as it is. As my friend put it though "At least you didn't have a bunch with Jim before you came to your senses."
Then the relatively new keyboard went out and after 2 days of messing around with it I got all but about 8 keys to work. That is why I am not putting commas anywhere.
This is all complicated by the fact that Jim is still doing things and then telling or asking about them later when I can't do anything about it. The first thing I am going to do is open a checking account in my name only. It always comes down to money doesn't it?
After Cassidy woke up not feeling well we cancelled Water World again...and it's wicked hot....so I went and took the last of some money I earned doing the sounds board and paid for Sonic drinks...on the way home the engine light came on

We have to go up to Pueblo next Saturday...with what money I still don't know as some other crap hit the fan last week too...mainly Jim doing what he seems to do best...screw with my life.
So it's not very long and I don't feel much better...I see alcohol in my future.