can't sleep, anxiety for tomorrow, woman thing

[fizz13]

am writing this at silly o'clock as I just can't sleep. tomorrow I am going to hospital to have a coloscopy.... no I didn't know what that was either till I researched.
basically about 2 years ago I had a borderline result on a smear test, I have had 2 since at 6 month intervals and the result has remained borderline, so now they are investigating with a coloscopy, tomorrow at 10am.
I have only told Colin and my mum. Colin offered to stay tonight and I was trying to be all brave, I'm fine, so sent him home. now I'm worrying all alone, such a clever girl.
anyway, this is all quite common apparently, it is not cancer, most often these cell changes do not lead to cancer so I'm not even worried about that. it's the fact that if they find too much change going on tomorrow then I will need a biopsy and cell removal. I won't go into details of what is happening tomorrow except to say that it is indignities and lasts for 30 minutes, and I may be uncomfortable after :-(. Colin has offered to pick me up if I can't drive or need him but it shouldn't be that bad.
I guess I just needed to get it out somewhere and as usual the DIS is a safe place to vent, thanks for reading. and fingers crossed I get some sleep soon.
I just hate the uncertainty of it all :-(

 

[fizz13]

meant to write undignified not indignities, stupid predictive txt on iPhone!

 

[Muscateer]

Oh everything always seems more scary in the middle of the night. I am such a night worrier.

Hope you eventually managed to get some sleep and best wishes for today, be thinking of you

 

[kristieuk]

Sending you a big Hope you managed to get some rest. I too join you in the land of the night worriers, but I am sure everything will be fine. Good luck today

 

[mandymouse]

Sending you a big hug Claire I hope it all goes well for you today

Take care

 

[jjk]

for you, hope all goes well today

 

[florida sun]

Hope all goes well Claire

 

[higgy66]

Hope it all goes well and the results mean no further treatment

 

[Pinky166]

Thinking of you today hun.

 

[Tinks1984]

Hope all goes well for you today

 

[fizz13]

Thank you all of you, I did get some sleep though probably not enough, and i have the butterflies, thankfully not all day to wait as my appt is at 10. I'm taking earphones for my iphone so I shall distract myself with wishes/fantasmic I think.
fingers crossed x

 

[TotallyAngelic]

Wishing you all the best for the test and the result Claire. Thinking of you and sending and

 

[strawberry blonde]

Only just seen this Claire so I may have missed you. I had one done when I was 25 and it was a little uncomfortable ( like a smear) but nothing major. It turned out I had an erosion of the cevix (doesn't lead to cancer) and had laser treatment at a later date under anaesthetic.

Working in the Doctor's surgery now, part of my job is scanning letters onto patient's notes and please be assured that lots of ladies have this procedure


Claire pm me if you want to.

 

[T16GEM]

Claire I hope everything goes well today.

 

[buzz for boys]

Hope everything goes ok hunny x x x

 

[fizz13]

thankyou, I'm home now. they took a biopsy which let's be honest, isn't pleasant and I am stinging and crampy, going to curl up on the sofa with a DVD, have to wait 4 to 6 weeks for results now. I had a legion so they may have to remove it depending on the result.
I am a bit teary and wish Colin wasn't at work, could do with hugs.
thankyou for your nice messages x

 

[Netty]

thankyou, I'm home now. they took a biopsy which let's be honest, isn't pleasant and I am stinging and crampy, going to curl up on the sofa with a DVD, have to wait 4 to 6 weeks for results now. I had a legion so they may have to remove it depending on the result.
I am a bit teary and wish Colin wasn't at work, could do with hugs.
thankyou for your nice messages x

sorry i have only just seen this thread, I have had one so I know how you are feeling now, sending you lots of hugs

 

[BethEJo]

Lots of hugs for you Claire
(Sorry it's late).

 

[Chilly]

sending you lots of love and hugs

 

[T16GEM]

Hope you ae feeling better today Claire.