Cam's New Lease on Life Journal (comments welcome!)

[MIdanceMom]

Hey Cam,

I'm glad you are feeling better, just don't overdo it please.

The gowns are gorgeous. I like the 1st ones pictured on page 10 and 12. Please include me on the PMs because I can't wait to see you in them.

Take care,
Beth

 

[traceycooper]

Thanks for the link cam i'm gonna read the whole thing when i get time
I liked dress number 1 on page 10 & the 1st one on pg 12 is stunning
have you tried a lace up back, i felt more 'pulled in' with that & wasnt so worried about getting into it after 2 weeks eating in wdw
i still wear my tiara

 

[toystoryduo]

Hope you're having a great week so far, Cam!

 

[postesf]

Hi Cam. Just checkin in to see how you are! Definately put me on the list of PMs when you try your dress on!

Stacie

 

[keenercam]

Good morning, everyone! Thank you all for your very kind notes!
My friends Judy (honeibee) and Kathy (Valentine) are coming next weekend to go gown shopping with me. I am really excited because I never got to do that the first time around, and I really value their opinions so it will be great to get advice on the various gowns!

Tracey -- I thought about the corset back, but am worried about having a "muffin top" around the back of my dress! Certainly something I'll have to focus on during my workouts this year.

Nothing else is new on the fitness/weight loss front. I am still up and down within the same three pounds. I seem to have this whole "maintaining" thing down pat -- LONG before I have reached the number where I should be maintaining!

I know exactly what the problem is. Late night eating in volume. Last night, I did move upstairs with a good book as soon as I'd finished what I'd planned for dinner and dessert. It's funny --there were girl scout cookies and 2 kinds of chocolates and reese's peanut butter cups all on the counter and I splurged on pretzels. I am convinced that if I could re-program myself to eat a very reasonable, filling dinner and nothing after that, I'd really see the scale drop.

Okay, this is my challenge to myself. When I get home from the gym tonight, I'll eat a lean cuisine and some veggies and nothing else. I'll be curious to see how many days I can sustain this behavior.

 

[traceycooper]

Thats my downfall too cam!!
If you can resist i will try to aswell...i'lll have to get the weekend over with
1st though!!
Please take pics when you go shopping

 

[toystoryduo]

Hope you had a great weekend, Cam!

 

[keenercam]

Thank you, Tracy! It was a crazy busy weekend, starting wtih a 16+ hour workday Friday. Howard was so sweet and brought me dinner around 8:30 and stayed with me until I was finished, which was after midnight and drove me home.

I am really driving myself crazy with the uncontrolled eating. This is definitely "mental". Friday, it was because I was so stressed and "deserved" junk food. Saturday, it was "well, the farmers' market is only open Fridays and Saturdays and I won't get back here for at least 2 weeks, and I really want jambalaya AND gumbo, so why shouldn't I have it?" Yesterday, it was "well, we are with friends and they have all this food prepared for us, so I am just going to enjoy it and worry about the scale later." Last night at the chinese buffet with friends, it was "I've never been here and look at all these foods I've never tried before. yum. I'll get back on track tomorrow." I am so mad at myself and all I can do is get back on track today. I really can't figure out why I am being so compulsive. Even when I am doing it, it isn't mindless eating. I am very aware of being out of control and yet, I am not pulling myself back. I know it is all a matter of willpower. I just HAVE to get myself under control.

I packed food for lunch and pre-gym dinner today. The only thing I can try to plan is NOT to eat at all after the gym. I'll let you know how it goes.

Tracey, shall we commit to each other to be totally controlled tonight? I'm pretty competitive, but not so much that I can't abundantly rejoice when I and my co-challenger both succeed. Are you with me on this? Here we go -- day 1.

 

[goldcupmom]

I hear you, Cam! Food is such a controlling substance!!!

That was sweet of Howard to come drive you home. He's such a dear!!

Total control......Wow!! If you can achieve that, you really are a Goddess!!!

Have a great week!! Did you WI for BL last week? I never saw a post & was wondering how my 'bud' did!

 

[traceycooper]

Ok Cam your on!
day 1
salad for lunch
chk faghitas for dinner ...bakewell tart & custard for dessert - but it is
-8 tonight!!!
dessert was at 6pm so not got to have anything else tonight...DH is out grittting & thats when i eat cos i think it doesnt count if he cant see me eat it
Hope your doing ok - its like reading about myself reading about your will power issues - we will have will power together
Howard is just an absalute gem your one lucky lady

 

[keenercam]

Julie and Tracey-- Thank you for the sweet compliments to Howard. He really is just incredibly wonderful. I just can't believe that after more than 25 years I love him more every day.

Tracey -- I hope you were able to sustain your good behavior last night. I didn't have time to eat before I left the office, so after the gym I ate an apple. When I got home I made salad for today and also cooked steamed mushrooms & onions, barley, whole wheat couscous, and 2 tiny sweet potatoes. I ate the 2 baby sweet potatoes and steamed mushrooms & onions over whole wheat couscous. No other snacks! So, I think we count Monday as a victory for both of us, right?

Last night I didn't have much time at the gym. I did TM 60 mins 4.19 miles (447 calories). Speed was an issue but I did gradually raise the incline for the last 20 minutes from 3.0 to 4.0 to 5.0. The calorie burn increased significantly with each increase in incline. I also did 25 minutes on the bike 4.35 miles (136 calories)
Total since Friday -- 85 minutes; 8.53 miles

This Saturday is wedding gown shopping at the Demetrios salon. I am so excited!!

 

[postesf]

Hey Cam! You did great at the gym last night!!! Way to go girl!!!

Did I read on the events portion that you had a PR??? I think I missed something??? If so... yay!!! Sorry I missed it!

Hope you have a great time this weekend gown shopping! You DID add me to your PM list for pics right!?!?!?!

Stacie

 

[traceycooper]

Cam i need you!!
I'm craving!! DH has gone gritting & i have chocolate in the fridge
I dont know if i can resist its soooo cold here & a cup of tea & some chocolate is a perfect curl up in the warmth remedy!!!

Yesterday was definatly a victory

You have good motivation - keep thinking about all those gorgeous gowns your going to be trying on

Thats it!!! I will renew my vows & that might motivate me
Can you renew them after a year & a half??

I will try to resist.....

 

[caryndisneydiva]

hi cam! i'm venturing over from the wedding boards to read your marathon tr from this year! you are truly my inspiration, i hope we can meet in january at the 1/2!!! your description of the marathon brought me to tears, you have such a great support group, you're one lucky woman!

are you pm'ing people picks of you in the dresses? can you include me? i'd love love LOVE to see them!!!!! can't wait actually!

have a GREAT night!!!!!

 

[keenercam]

Oh, Tracey, sweetie! I am so sorry I wasn't here to support you!! I had a MAJOR crisis at work. I mean MAJOR!! I am just dreading going in there tomorrow knowing it is still hanging over my head. But you poor thing! Chocolate? I am going to go check out your journal and see if you got past the craving. Sending you huge hugs, hon!

Caryn -- Thank you for coming to visit here! I know I am so lucky to be part of the WISH team. I just don't know what I would without my journal buddies and the WISH race team. They've gotten me through a 70 pound weight loss, 2 full marathons, 3 half marathons, 2 15ks and many 5ks. They also keep me motivated to train year-round!

You should check out the events/competition board here and check in on the weekly training thread. You'll love it there -- everyone is so warm and welcoming!

Not much time for the gym tonight -- work crisis meant Andrew and I didn't get to the gym until 7:45. UGH!

30 minutes elliptical - levels 3 & 4 -- 2.32 miles -- 305 calories
30 minutes bike --levels 5 & 6 -- 5.1 miles -- 169 calories

Food today:
B: coffee w/skim milk
S; apple, WW yogurt
L: whole wheat couscous w/steamed veggies; green salad
S: apple
D: steamed mushrooms & onions over whole wheat couscous and a green salad with some shredded turkey breast; 3 oz baked cod (unbreaded) (I was craving protein)

I am not eating anything else tonight and calling night 2 a victory.

 

[goldcupmom]

Hope the crisis has passed, Cam. NOT FUN!!!!!

Good job getting to the gym & staying controlled...no matter what!!

Have a great Wednesday!!!

 

[keenercam]

Thanks, Julie. Unfortunately, the fallout from the crisis will be huge and around for a long time. I am so fried and so sick of dealing with problems created by others.

I am totally needed comfort food today. So outrageously stressed. Needing to find my happy place. I just wish there were something I could do for our DFTW vow renewal to distract myself, but alas, must work instead.

Food today:
B: coffee w/skim milk; pear
L: salmon fillet, whole wheat couscous
S: 10 pistachios; 94% FF popcorn; banana
D: 2 vegan patties w/fat free cheese on lite multigrain english muffins; whole wheat couscous; 1 svg fat free mini pretzels

Howard is taking DS home from school today which means I should be able to get to the gym tonight. I think I really need that stress reliever, especially if I am going to keep up with you, Tracey & Julie, on the no late night or volume eating challenge. So far, I am 2 for 2. I am hoping today/tonight doesn't do me in!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hey Cam,

I wanted to thank you for the kind words on my journal. My WISH sisters are the absolute best!

I can totally relate with the compulsive eating that you are now controlling. Wayt to go for being 2/2. Can I join you on the challenge. I struggle with night time snacking.

I hope the fallout from the crisis isn't too horrible. Remember, you are only one person. There is a limit to what you can accomplish in a day.


Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Cam,

Sorry to hear about the situation at work....I hope things get worked out and get better soon!

Great job on the challenge! Keep up the good work!

 

[keenercam]

Thank you so much, Beth & Tracy! I really appreciate the support here!

Well, I only got to the gym for an hour, but it was 60 minutes of movement and NOT 60 minutes of tv or computer or eating! LOL!

30 minutes elliptical -- 2.16 miles -- 285 calories
30 minutes bike --5.2 miles -- 140 calories

Dinner was 2 vegan patties on lite EMs with fat free cheese; a little whole wheat couscous & a serving of fat free mini pretzels.

I am done eating for the night and calling it another victorious day!

Three out of 3! Good start.