Cam's New Lease on Life Journal (comments welcome!)

[Blueeyes101817]

Cam-you are doing amazing!! Keep it up, youre doing great!!!

 

[traceycooper]

Well done Cam
You are doing a fantastic job
Can i ask advice on running shoes? should they be light weight, have certain types of soles? I'm wearing sketchers at the moment very comfortable but as i'm starting to jog more i wondered if i should buy some especially for jogging!!

 

[keenercam]

cross-posted from the weight loss while training thread:

Well, today I am the poster child for a weekend’s eating gone seriously wrong! What an utter disaster from the time my salad was served Saturday night until I finally grounded myself and sent myself on time-out to my room last night. In between was a food fest the likes of which I haven’t seen in a long time. It is hard to even confess to all the food I ate. I am back on track today, though. I can see where I went wrong. Saturday night I ordered a plain garden salad and did not turn away the monstruous salad they brought me that had egg, bacon bits, shredded cheddar and croutons. It was delicious. My weight watchers teriyaki steak and shrimp skewers were delicious and satisfying, but I just HAD to have some of DS’s french fries. UGH!

Yesterday, I tried a new recipe for oat cakes (like pancakes but made with oats) and they weren’t very yummy (though my furbaby thought they were! ), and I didn’t eat something else for breakfast. I also didn’t prepare something for lunch. Instead I found myself constantly “tasting” the beef stew I was making. Now, the veggies, of which I ate a ton, weren’t bad for me, but the beef certainly was. I also did not restrain myself from eating too much whole wheat couscous and barley that I was cooking for the fridge for the week. THEN, after dinner when I should have just left the area, I continued to nibble – 3 pepperidge farm cookies, one girl scout thin mint, a handful of mixed nuts, about 8 reduced fat wheat thins, some pretzel crisps, a slice of regular cheese and a slice of fat free cheese. All of that is what happens when you eat dinner around 5:00 and then hang around near the kitchen for the next 6 hours or so, wrangle with bill-paying, deal with the stress of tax preparation, etc. No excuse, but it helps me to realize what the situation was so I can avoid it in the future.

As you can probably guess, I journaled every bite – painfully so, I might add. I am surprised I didn’t get an email from sparkpeople terminating my membership for eating nearly 2000 calories in one day!!!! My only consolations are: (1) I was well within my calorie targets Wednesday through Friday; (2) I wasn’t too bad Saturday, once you consider the extra 350 calories I burned that day beyond my requirements; (3) I did journal every bite; and (4) I am back on track today.

I know I wouldn’t let any of my WISH friends beat themselves up about such a dismal showing, so I am not going to beat myself up either. Just getting back to the job at hand. (Of course, I may not weigh in tomorrow night if the scale screeches in the morning!

 

[keenercam]

Today's food:
B: coffee w/skim milk; banana
L: broccoli; beef stew over barley

HEG/Core requirements:
non-fat dairy (2):
healthy oils (2):
water (64 oz): 48 oz by 5:00 pm
fruits/vegetables (5):
multi-vitamin:

Sparkpeople guidelines:
Today's sparkpeople recommendations/actual
calories -- 1200-1550/
carbs -- 135-252/
fat 27-60/
protein 30-136/

 

[CaroleD]

Glad your not beating yourself up. It happens. I visited a friend tonight who is a GREAT cook and she makes the best Indian food. I ate more than usual but I have to say enjoyed every bite. You may even lose weight. I remember in WW being told when I platauted (sp) to eat more then go back to regular WW amts in order to lose weight again. It did work.
BTW I did my first 4 miles today and I feel fine.
Tomorrow you can start all over again.

 

[toystoryduo]

Wow! I just went back and read my journal entry from two years ago today. I remember so vividly feeling the things I wrote, and I want to remind myself of how far I've come.

Quote:
Originally Posted by keenercam
Well, here I am 8 weeks post-surgery. Hard to believe 8 weeks ago, I was barely conscious at this time and definitely did NOT believe the doctor as he told me I was cured. I can't even believe now the person I was then. Sure, I am still fat. But my outlook has changed. I can do something about it and I am. I have hope again. It's been about 10 years since I felt hopeful. There were more times than I can count including through the three previous surgeries, when I really wondered whether I would live to see my daughter graduate high school. I couldn't even imagine living long enough to see my son graduate-- I was diagnosed and rushed to a hospital when he was just 19 months old. I hadn't realized until recently that I wasn't taking very good care of the body that I am in partly because I didn't really expect to need it too long. Besides all of that, I am really lazy, and my "illness" was good enough reason to not exert myself. After all, if the doctors were concerned about me exerting myself, I definitely shouldn't do it, right? And the food? Heck, life is short! Eat dessert first and often. After all, it's not as if anything I could have done would have changed the very serious flaw in my heart. Why not feel sorry for myself and indulge myself?
So, there is where I was.
Here is where I am. Taking a day at a time, sure, but always now with my eye on a long-term and somewhat ambitious goal. Once in a while, I take a real good look at this body and know it has such a long, long way to go. But, tonight, I have no doubt at all it will be here for the "long run." Who knows, maybe someday I will "wog" the half! After all, Mickey is there! What more motivation could this girl ask for?

Cam,

I have said it before, but I want to say it again.... I am so proud of you! You have accomplished so much in the past two years. In this post, you were talking about doing the half... Cam, not only did you do the half, but you finished a complete marathon! That is an amazing accomplishment!

I know that you said that the weekend was a tough one foodwise. Try not to focus on that. Today is a new day with new choices... You CAN do this!

You have been such a wonderful source of support, encouragement, and inspiration to me. Thank you Cam!

Have a wonderful day!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Cam
Glad you are having a positive attitude to your teeny weeny slip up
I think sometimes our bodies just need the extra calories as a boost, you've done all the right things - positive attitude & getting back on track!
Have a great disney day

 

[hockeygirl]

Cam-I am so glad you kept a positive attitude about this weekend's eating. Everyone has bad days once in awhile, don't let it get you down.

I also have to say, reading your post from two years ago, really inspired me. It is so amazing to see how far you have come. You are awesome and you are such an inspiration to many people on this board.

Keep up the good work!!!

 

[goldcupmom]

I had a BAD food weekend, too, Cam, and yours was WONDERFUL in comparison. I'm just glad that we've both come far enough that we can pick up and move on!

I hope you're having a good week!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Cam,

I have said it before, but I want to say it again.... I am so proud of you! You have accomplished so much in the past two years. In this post, you were talking about doing the half... Cam, not only did you do the half, but you finished a complete marathon! That is an amazing accomplishment!

I know that you said that the weekend was a tough one foodwise. Try not to focus on that. Today is a new day with new choices... You CAN do this!

You have been such a wonderful source of support, encouragement, and inspiration to me. Thank you Cam!

Have a wonderful day!

I just want to agree with all of this..i am proud of you cam--keep it up!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Cam,

You are such an amazing women who has come a very long way. I too know that I have said this before but I am very proud of you for everything that you have done.

Keep up the great work!!!!

Have a wonderful day

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Cam-hope you had a good week!

ENJOY your weekend!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Cam... Hope all is well with you and your family. Have a great weekend!

 

[keenercam]

Thank you, my dear WISH friends for keeping my journal active. I had a disappointment Tuesday night that triggered a couple of "off" days, but I'm back and re-focused.
At WI Tuesday, I was down only .4, still 1.2 away from my 70 pound star. I was so disappionted that I didnt' stay for the meeting, but instead picked my son up and took him to the chinese buffet for dinner. Wednesday was similarly a self-pity fest and Thursday was fine until we took DD18 out to dinner and I ate garlic mashed potatoes and glazed carrots with my broiled crab cakes. UGH! Friday, I had a bagel with lunch. Obviously, my carb addiction was rearing its ugly head.
I've had to remind myself that my weight loss goal isn't something I can pursue 75 or even 90% of the time. It is the times I don't stay focused that do more damage than the good that is done when I am focused.

Back on track today:
B: lean ham steak
S: quaker 90 calorie buttered popcorn pack
L: veggie soup; extra lean ground beef w/mushrooms & onions; leftover eggbeaters w/spinach
D: veggie soup

Gym time: 6 miles (Minnie training is back on track!) -
Total time 1 hour 19 minutes 35 seconds (overall pace 13:16);
Splits – after mile 2—26:26
After mile 4 – 52:52
At one hour – 4.55 miles (avg pace 13:11)
That puts me about 11 minutes ahead of the sweepers at the 2/3 point. That is very reassuring. I can only get faster from here and improve my endurance to run further.

Oh, and we told DD18 about the Port Orleans French Quarter/Wonder 4 day cruise we booked for her and DH and me for this summer and she is very excited. It is so great for us to have that trip to look forward to. Still haven't told DS13 that we'll be going while he is away at camp, but I think he'll be okay with it since we took him to Disneyland in September.

 

[goldcupmom]

Glad you're back & back on track, Cam! I've missed you!

Have an AWESOME week next week!

 

[keenercam]

Thanks, Julie! I really can't wait to go visit other journals and see how my WISH buddies have been! How awesome for you that you are down 7.4 so far this year!

Food today:
B: fat free yogurt w/frozen cherries & berries
L: veggie soup; banana
D: small piece grilled chicken breast; whole wheat couscous; corn; broiled steak

 

[traceycooper]

Hey Cam, we missed you!
Glad to see your back on track
& you still lost when you werent on track!!!
You'd be proud of me - i jogged for 13 mins on the tm today my longest jog ever
How long did it take to do 6 miles? longer than 13 mins i guess

 

[keenercam]

woohoo, Tracy!!!
Okay, that's it! I've been away from my WISH buddies' journals wayyy too long. Off to visit now. I've missed you guys!

 

[CaroleD]

I've been wondering how you were doing. Glad to see your times. I've been finding since I started walking outside that my times have slowed down. Partly I think I'm self concious walking really fast which is weird. I'm hoping I'll get over it doing my 10 K clinic in April.
That 70 pound pin is coming....just keep working. The good things in life are worth the wait.

 

[toystoryduo]

I've missed you, Cam! Glad you're back!

You are doing such a wonderful job! Keep up the good work!

Your summer Disney trip sounds like a lot of fun! I hope you'll do a trip report when you get back.

Have a great week ahead!