Wow this thread has been moving so fast I cant keep up.

(that one was for Rose

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Kathy- I am so sorry to hear about Michael...how scary I would have been freaking out too. You handled it all so well. Im so glad they got you in tomorrow at least you will get the answers you need and not have to ponder and worry about what is going on. This is what I can say about them getting you in so soon. At least from my experience here are the reasons. 1. This is a new thing...usually the peds neuro's keep openings for such. 2. You called a handful of times so Im sure they sensed your concern and worries. So dont worry about that. Please keep us posted and I will be praying that all is ok and this was just some freak one time thing.
Nancy- You seriously had me laughing so hard with your grandpops sayings about the accident.

oh and the cousin johnny story too.
Rose- I love that you gave it to the tire guy. I would have said the same thing. I am the bill payer in the house and I hate when others make assumptions that my husband is the one who makes the decisions. I mean we mostly make them together ahead of time but there is still that thought that most have....mostly men that the man makes the decisions. I want to tell them....."I make alot more money than my husband does" so there


Ok sorry the whole ''girl power" thing gets me going.
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So my real intentions were to come on here and vent but I think I feel better already.
PMS has arrived as will TOM any day now so I have been in quite a mood....it could be the weather too.
The 5 or 6 big projects I am working on at work all kind of blew up today with all sorts of issues. I was completely overwhelmed and wanted to come home, get in bed, and pull the covers over my head. I didnt........
Then I get home and there is a message from Ryans teacher. I called and it basically was her just giving an FYI on some issues he is having. He is behaving well but not paying attention or focusing. He had to miss some recess yesterday and today to finish his classwork. I just knew this was going to be an issue this year. She seems really great and has some ideas of how she is going to try to help him. I just feel so helpless at home. Im not sure what I can do to get him to pay attention or focus. Its so frustrating and it really worries me. (Kathy I almost didnt want to post this after reading what happened to Michael because I feel like this is so lame compared to what in reality is something to really worry about

) But after getting off the phone I just cried. Part of it is I have such high expectations for my boys and I want them to do good and do there best and I know he can do so much better. It is just so frustrating.
So then after the long day I had I topped it off with attending the PTA meeting where I was asked to volunteer for a million different things. Sure why not.
I promise this is my last thing......
At the meeting 2 of my relay teammates were there and I got my shirt that we are wearing. Its a nice aqua color running singlet. I tried it on when I got home and I am so disgusted at myself for gaining weight back. I feel gross and I feel like I look gross. There is an entire school competition based on this and the kids are voting on who they think will win the mommies or the teachers. I just feel that slow rolly polly me is going to loose it for our team. I couldnt help to think that when they announced tonight at the meeting who was racing that the other moms were wondering how the hell I was going to run 5.5 miles. I am just so down on myself right now.

I have that urge to quickly want to fix it and loose 15lbs in 2 wks. Well we all know that is not how it works.
I dont know hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. I have a full day of all kinds of meetings so will see.
Oh and thanks for all of the great comments about my eval. The only area for improvement he felt I needed was to be patient about getting my salary increased and know that eventually if I keep on the path I am going I will be making more. Ummm Ok so what do I get for all the extra I am doing now? He said the ideal employee does the work and does it the best they can because they want to and not because they want to get paid more.

I wanted to ask him what world he lives in but most people I know want to get paid what they are worth.

I told him I understood and honestly it was the first time I ever "asked" for more and I gave him the run down of my past and how I was doing alot of this work but not getting any more money or the recognition. He said he understood but I should try to unravel some of the bitterness I have. and the funnier part is at the end of it I thought he just forgot to tell me what my increase would be...so I asked if I will be receiving an increase.

He said well I just wanted to mention again patience.

I really just thought he forgot to tell me but apparently he likes to wait until evals are over and then he makes his decision on what he gives to each of his employees. oops...hopefully i didnt ding myself for that one.
Ok sorry I turned into a chatty kathy tonight. Thanks for listening!!!!!!!! I feel much better.