I got finished reading all the pages of the thread and realized it was time for me to stand up and introduce myself. It was as though I was at one of the AA meetings you see on TV. I would have to say my name and admit I had a problem. It almost brings tears to my eyes.
My name is Lynne (and I am an aunt). I'm 48 years old. Single, never married. Never dated much, either. Realized the other day that the last date I had was 11 years ago. Not much before that, either.
I am a stay-at-home daughter to an 80 yo dad. Mother passed away this spring after several years of early Alzheimer's; her death was actually a surprise. Never thought she would go first. For her last six months, we got pretty house-bound and sedentary. Amazing how 20 pounds just crept on. And dad has a clear mind but an arthritic body with an S-shaped spine, so movement is difficult and painful. So, here we go again with sedentary. The difference is that I can leave him to go to the gym. But I don't. And the Y is 5 minutes down the hill. Need that nudge - mother and I used to go together; maybe that's part of the problem.
I have been on an uphill weight gain all my life, with only 2 times of significant/noticeable loss: high school freshman, didn't eat lunch (not the healthy way - but it was less calories - and not intentionally for weight loss) and mid-20s by walking at lunch (and probably hormone-related nausea). And I was the skinny child in the family until I was 7. All I wanted to eat was half a grilled cheese sandwich. Now I'll eat my sandwich and half of yours, too, if you are not going to finish that.
Someone else was feeling bad for not losing weight in a prior session and was reminded that they could be heavier? It's true. Over the past 6 years while living with/taking care of my parents, I realized I could have lost one pound per month and be at least 72 pounds lighter, rather than the 40 pounds heavier that I am now.
You know the question people always ask, "How did they get so heavy?" Yep, one pound at a time. It goes off the same way, just seems a lot slower.
Eventually, I'll have to go back work - uggh! Never wanted to work; find it to be a rat race in every job I've had - why can't people play together nicely? The last job I had was hard because I was carrying so much extra weight - and now, at 280, I am basically the healthy weight of 2 women my height (5'9"). People don't believe me when I tell them that; but I see it in photos (not in the mirror).
Anyway, positive side - I am going on a bunch of Disney cruises over the next year and a half -
DCL April 2010 EB Transatlantic (14 nights) back-to-back with an 11- night Med; Jan 2011 Panama Canal 15-night repo to LA; Disney Dream and then Jun 2011 Alaska for my 50th b'day. I want to be healthier by that mid-century mark. Slow and steady. Time to change my life to what I want it to be, not the routine I've fallen into - I am still breathing.
Years (years!) ago I attended an Outward Bound course, where we stated five things we "couldn't" do. Then we replaced "couldn't" with "wouldn't" and found that was truly the case for most; we are our own self-limitations.
...Was there someone who said she would share so much? I think I have found a soulmate.