Good morning, everyone! Sounds like there have been some big successes this weekend. My week and weekend have gone pretty well. The biggest change has been that I decided to bite the bullet and give up my soda habit. It wasn't a huge one - usually one large diet from McDonald's every day or two, okay mostly everyday and sometimes twice, but it still needs to be tamed. My craving is pretty specific - it has to be a fountain soda, and McDs calms it best - so hopefully it will be easier to kick then if I had to avoid drinking the stuff that's in the house. Man, I crave those bubbles though.
Move to my house and you would give up that habit quickly.... I live 30 minutes from the nearest McDonalds (or any fast food other than Dunkin Donuts). I suppose there are some good things about living out in the boondocks!!
Glad you are making the effort to kick that habit!
Good Morning Everyone,
Had a good, OP day yesterday. Did drink wine for the first time in probably a year or more, but used some of my WPA and was fine with it. I slept for almost 12 hours last night and when I finally woke up couldn't get into exercising. It's very cold here in CT, but I'm thinking of taking a walk later anyway. Just a quick one to increase my step total for the day. I've planned most of my menu for the day and it looks like I'm unlikely to go over my minimum points today.
QOTD: I seem to hit a road block when I get under 140 pounds, which puts me less than 10 pounds from the upper extreme of a healthy weight. My fear is getting to a healthy weight. Of course, my fear should be maintaining because my idea of a healthy weight is just under 120. Last week I lost so much that I went under 140 and this week I gained a tiny bit, less than half a pound, but still a gain. All I do is yo-yo between 136 and 142. I'm determined to get under 135.
That being said, it's time to write out my rewards for achieving weight loss goals. I've been thinking a lot about them and trying to avoid food rewards, but I am on a budget, so I had to come up with some cheap ones. Here goes nothing. Sorry this is such a long post.
Reaching 135 pounds- 4 points worth of hot chocolate at Starbucks
Reaching 35 pounds lost- WATP DVD
Reaching 130 pounds- small box of Junior Mints
Reaching 40 pounds lost- new gym shorts
Reaching 125 pounds- WATP DVD
Reaching 45 pounds lots- new gym socks
Reaching 120 pounds- 4 points worth of hot chocolate at Starbucks
Reaching Goal/50 pounds lost- going shopping for new pants
Have a great OP day everyone! And, thanks for listening!
You've got some great specific rewards lined up!
Okay my answer is kind of deep and very personal and I think I really need some pushing from a Jillian to help me with this. My weight has been my protection. For whatever reason I have always had a huge dark fear of rape, I don't know why. I remember a video they showed us in 6th grade - a mom put her kids on the school bus, waved goodbye to her hubby and went back inside without locking the door and a man came in a raped her. Lovely for a 10 year old to watch right? Maybe I read way more into it, but anyway, 35 years later...when I was thin people "noticed" me. Extra pounds = invisibility. I really really need to work through this, I have tears in my eyes as I'm typing this. So I'll do what I do best and change the subject...
DD has a cheer competition in Ft. Wayne today, her squad is against 3 others. Go Flames!!
That's a 2 hour drive, so I'm off to get ready. Have a great day everyone!
Thanks for being brave enough to share that with us.
Maybe now that you have put it out there, you can find a positive way to deal with the fear. I love the idea of some self-defense classes, as others have mentioned.
I want to sign up for the DLR Half also!!
That is a hard thing to share. Rape is a very real fear though; maybe you can take some self defense classes to help you combat the fear. If you go the martial arts route, it can be exercise and education at the same time.
The saving grace is that most of the weekends have not been really cold.
QOTD: I don't think I'm afraid of losing the weight. I don't have a huge amount to lose, and the weight gain that prompted me to really put forth an effort to get rid of it was recent. (I moved and my lifestyle changed in the process - MUCH less walking - not much mass transit here.) I just want to fit into my clothes that are about 2 sizes smaller than what I'm wearing now, as well as to complete that half marathon.
You were the first to mention the self-defense classes for jennz... GREAT idea! And it is probably excellent exercise to boot! Good thinking!
Pjlla--the cards were stacked against us last time with the Holidays...This will be much better this time, and we know now how hard it is to dump that extra 5 pounds that seem so harmless....
What I'm most afraid of right now is cleaning out my food stores. I will not waste food and I am determined to save money so donating is out but making healthy meals has been a real creativity challenge using up stuff in the cupboards and freezer. So far so good though. I made cookies last night but I have a huge carrot dangling at the end of this week-- it's possible Crazy Heart might be showing then at our art theater. If not I'm going to have to figure out some kind of monumental reward instead of that...lol.
Yup.... I am DEFINITELY finding a different way to handle holiday eating. I've been doing well with the one/two day holidays... Easter, T.giving, etc. But Christmas/New Years ends up being kind of a week long holiday for us (we celebrate over multiple days with different parts of the family) and it is SO hard to keep on track all those days. But I am so disgusted that here it is almost Feb. 1st and I am still trying to get back to my Christmas Eve weight. NOTHING I ate during those days was worth this frustration (well.... maybe the lemon meringue pie...
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How did you end up with the New Year's pantry challenge? I splurged today and stopped for rotisserie chicken. We were heading home from yet another swim meet, it was late, we were tired, and nothing at home was defrosted enough to cook (Yes, I realize that I should have planned ahead better and put something in the crock pot... oh well). I figured a $7 chicken was a good compromise versus bringing home pizza or Chinese (plus it was a lot healthier!). Well... it actually ended up being $11 because DS is allergic to chicken so I bought a box of fish sticks for him for a treat. But still cheaper than pizza or chinese!! We had cauliflower and a box of whole wheat couscous (from the pantry) with dinner, so I kind of stuck with my plan.
Hi all!
I can't believe I actually caught up on all of the posts. I enjoy reading them so much that I get bummed when I fall behind.
I am SOOOO happy! Last weekend, I booked my first trip to Disneyworld for this December!!
This is what is keeping me going on my weight loss journey, why I CAN'T stop. I need to be healthy so I can walk all of those miles. We are going for 8 days so I will need a lot of stamina. Also, let's face it, I want to look good too in the photos from the trip. I usually make sure I am the one taking the photos, so I am not in them.
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
Holy COW! Your first trip?? LUCKY YOU!! DIsney in December is Delightful (sounds like a poem)!! And it is a GREAT motivator to get in shape and lose weight!!
It is a snowy day here. DH and I had a hot date at the waste transfer station this morning. We are easily entertained!
Chicken and vegetable curry is in the crockpot so I can spend the afternoon puttering around the house. It is a nice way to spend a snowy afternoon. Have a great Sunday all!
Silly as it sounds, I'm envious of your trip the transfer station and your puttering afternoon. With the kids activities this time of year, I RARELY get a "puttering" weekend. I am practically counting the days until the regular swim season and basketball season end!!
Could you share your crockpot recipe? I really like curry!
I took my youngest to his snowboard lesson today and it was sooo cold out. I walked up and down the bunny hill just to keep my blood pumping. I have an allergy to the cold. I know it sounds crazy, but when I get cold I break out in hives, therefore I spend most of the winter months indoors. If I plan ahead and dress for it I can manage. I promised him that I will ski a couple of runs with him after his lesson. I skied several times with them last year, but since middle son had brain surgery and can't snowboard this year I have not been going.
ETA: I ended up with full body hives this afternoon. They hit about an hour after we came in. I had to crawl into bed with my mattress pad turned on. I took a nap and am okay now. Man I was itchy for awhile.
Deb
Sorry you were feeling icky and itchy today. And actually, no, it doesn't sound that strange. DD had a friend a few years ago who is allergic to the cold. If they tried to swim in our pool before the water was really warm, she would break out in blotches. And she had to be pretty careful about dressing warmly in the winter. I know she had some sort of medication for it. Glad you were able to take care of your hives without medication.
Jenn. How brave of you to state that. How brave of you.
Listen, I've had an interesting life. My uncle was a pedophile. I say that with no fear or "what will people think" because it's just part - not all of course - of my life. And part of many women's lives. And I'm sure many on a weight thread.
It no longer steals as much from me in big and small ways. And you know Jenn I didn't completely understand what years did to me. I went with the "live your life - move on " crap that people espouse but it caught up to me not only in weight but in depression and in physical shaking and such.
And one of the most debilitating and life stealing ways was not wanting to be seen. I did everything not to be seen. (EDIT: I just read your post above. I was always out as well - but that doesn't mean I still wasn't hiding or wanting to make myself not looked at or noticed. I was) So I understand.
But I'm also here to say you must work through it (some great suggestions) - you must. It's not a full life not wanting to be seen. It's not. And I guarantee you that it is a brand new world not to let weight be a barrier/protection. I didn't want to be attractive or even worse sexually attractive. I wanted the weight. (which is really ridiculous since some overweight women are very attractive and sexually attractive)
I still struggle with it and the process wasn't fa la la la in the least. Sometimes down before you can go up but It's SO WORTH IT.
What a brave woman you are.
You are brave too! And I'm so glad that you are comfortable enough with us here to share your story with us.
I can't imagine that others would judge you based on what someone ELSE did that was out of your control.
And thanks for sharing your story to help another friend deal with her insecurities and fears. In the long run I'm sure it will help you too.
I didn't even answer the question myself. Hmmm. I used to have tons of reasons to have fear of goal. I really think they've disappated. In fact, I decided I'm at goal in November. How utterly pompous of me.
And brand new me for sure.
I don't have a lot of fear of gaining back - some for sure - because it has taken me years - I eat everything I love - and I will add food or tone down exercise when I think I can't keep it up for life. It's like I've made maintenance more important than the loss. But of course I still have some fears.
I used to have fear of always being big. My goal will be high. I look a lot lower in weight than I am. Bones of concrete I guess. But I've worked that out - FINALLY
- this year. FINALLY accepting my body type at 42!
Boy this is a positive day - LAUGHING>
- you should ask me tomorrow.
I suppose accepting your body type at 42 is better than still hating it at 52!
Well.... I'll just take a few minutes to say good evening to everyone. DD's final regular season High School swim meet was today.... she has State Championships in two weeks (she qualified in one event plus she will be on a relay team) and Regionals for her club team that same weekend (she will swim Friday/Sunday for her club team and Saturday for her HS).
Like I mentioned before, I am SO glad that swim season is winding down! I know she loves it and it is great exercise, but the driving 30 minutes each way to the Y (and twice a day on some days because of a.m. HS practice and p.m. club practice) and then driving almost every weekend to swim meets that are any where from 1 hour to 4 hours away is TIRING!!! But I just try to keep praising God that she has found a sport she loves and is very good at and that she is healthy enough to enjoy that sport.
My eating this weekend was slightly less than stellar. It was a combined problem of less than standard groceries in the house and poor planning. But tomorrow is another day!! I've got all my meats for the week defrosting in the fridge, so tomorrow I will plan what meat for what day and plan my sides, so that should make the week easier. I love it when I am organized enough and I can plan ahead enough to have a menu for the week ready, but I don't always do it.
Well... DD is requesting my help finishing up her homework and DS needs to be prompted to study his spelling words for this week. See you all in the a.m.! ......................P
You could try seltzer with some lemon or lime if you really need the bubbles. I replaced the soda with hot tea and black coffee. Now most days, I only drink water. You should put the money you're saving in a jar and get yourself something fun at the end of the month!!
