Biggest Loser 9 Spring Challenge -- thread closing -- see new thread Part 2!

[Where'sPiglet?]

I just registered for the Disneyland Half Marathon!!! I think I mentioned on a previous post on this thread that when I planned our DLR trip for December 2009, my deal with DH was that we could buy APs if I would run the Half with him over Labor Day. Talk about motivation! So, we have the AP's, I just found out in another thread about a discount code for the race, and I went ahead and bit the bullet and signed us up.

It feels a bit early to me, mostly because I had in my head that I was going to wait and sign up when I finished my C25K program and started building endurance for the much longer 13 mile run, but in addition to the coupon code (DLTS951 - saves $21 for anyone interested), I started worrying that the race would sell out and I would lose my highly motivating event that's keeping me excited about training. Now I just need to look into where to stay. My preference will probably be for the DLH just because I'll want our room to be close after the race ends!

I want to sign up for the DLR Half also!!

Okay my answer is kind of deep and very personal and I think I really need some pushing from a Jillian to help me with this. My weight has been my protection. For whatever reason I have always had a huge dark fear of rape, I don't know why. I remember a video they showed us in 6th grade - a mom put her kids on the school bus, waved goodbye to her hubby and went back inside without locking the door and a man came in a raped her. Lovely for a 10 year old to watch right? Maybe I read way more into it, but anyway, 35 years later...when I was thin people "noticed" me. Extra pounds = invisibility. I really really need to work through this, I have tears in my eyes as I'm typing this. So I'll do what I do best and change the subject...

That is a hard thing to share. Rape is a very real fear though; maybe you can take some self defense classes to help you combat the fear. If you go the martial arts route, it can be exercise and education at the same time.

Yup, that sounds dangerous. It would be too easy to curl up with a king cake on these cold winter weekends.

The saving grace is that most of the weekends have not been really cold.

QOTD: I don't think I'm afraid of losing the weight. I don't have a huge amount to lose, and the weight gain that prompted me to really put forth an effort to get rid of it was recent. (I moved and my lifestyle changed in the process - MUCH less walking - not much mass transit here.) I just want to fit into my clothes that are about 2 sizes smaller than what I'm wearing now, as well as to complete that half marathon.

 

[50sjayne]

Morning folks! Just dropping by quickly to post the QOTD and then I am off to DD's swim meet (and I'm already running late! ).

Today's QOTD:

What are you most afraid of in regards to this weight loss journey?

I'm not generally a person with big fears or anxieties (other than something happening to my family), but I think I am most afraid that I will lose the weight and not be able to maintain. This is the furthest I have EVER come on a weight loss journey and I am truly almost AFRAID to hit maintenance. Maybe that is why I have been kind of just puttering around with these last few pounds???

I'll hop on tonight when I get back! Have a beautiful Sunday everyone!.....P

Pjlla--the cards were stacked against us last time with the Holidays...This will be much better this time, and we know now how hard it is to dump that extra 5 pounds that seem so harmless....
What I'm most afraid of right now is cleaning out my food stores. I will not waste food and I am determined to save money so donating is out but making healthy meals has been a real creativity challenge using up stuff in the cupboards and freezer. So far so good though. I made cookies last night but I have a huge carrot dangling at the end of this week-- it's possible Crazy Heart might be showing then at our art theater. If not I'm going to have to figure out some kind of monumental reward instead of that...lol.

 

[maiziezoe]

I'm so glad you went out to Japanese and enjoyed your meal! I was sad for you when you thought it would be too many points. I SO love Japanese and especially sushi/sashimi. What did you order?

I had the Steak Teppanyaki with white rice. I made sure the steak and veggies were cooked without butter and oil and I only ate half of the steak and half of the white rice. The veggies were so good! I love zucchini! My food seemed to stick to the grill a little more than the rest of my tablemates and he had to cook my stuff on a separate part of the grill, but I didn't care! I also had the Japanese Onion Soup. Yum! I skipped the ice cream dessert.

Okay my answer is kind of deep and very personal and I think I really need some pushing from a Jillian to help me with this. My weight has been my protection. For whatever reason I have always had a huge dark fear of rape, I don't know why. I remember a video they showed us in 6th grade - a mom put her kids on the school bus, waved goodbye to her hubby and went back inside without locking the door and a man came in a raped her. Lovely for a 10 year old to watch right? Maybe I read way more into it, but anyway, 35 years later...when I was thin people "noticed" me. Extra pounds = invisibility. I really really need to work through this, I have tears in my eyes as I'm typing this. So I'll do what I do best and change the subject...

DD has a cheer competition in Ft. Wayne today, her squad is against 3 others. Go Flames!! That's a 2 hour drive, so I'm off to get ready. Have a great day everyone!

BIG HUGE HUGS, Jen!!!

Good luck to your dd at her cheer competition!

I fear myself the most. I dont have fears or anxietys normally either but I always give up on myself. I am not doing it this time. I want to have another baby but I am putting my weight loss first so if I get pregnant great but I am not stopping my plan due to that.

I am off to the parks today. Got in my C25K this morning. Hopefully that will make up for my tea at the GF today. I am treating my son for learning the whole alphabet. He is 5 and loves tea go figure. Maybe it is his European roots from his nana. So that is his treat and mine for the day. See you all later tonight. Have a great Sunday.

I've always wanted to try tea at the GF. I love tea!

 

[sahbushka]

I am afraid of getting to my goal weight and getting the mentality that "I have this beat" and gaining all the weight back. I have done that before and I need to know that I will be doing this for the rest of my life.

So far this week is going ok for me...usually the week leading up to my visit from Aunt Flo is particularly ugly but it has been ok so I am pleased with that. I am nervous though because my dl trip is in 25 days and I know the combination of being on vacation and pms is going to lead to some heavy eating on my trip. I am the coach for the week after I get back so I hope that will help get me back on track!

SarahMay

 

[maiziezoe]

My son still loves curious george, now I'll have to check and see if he's coming to boston. When he was younger, we saw dora and diego live, and they were great shows. Sounds like your japanese food went well.

Curious George was really cute. If it is in a city near you, you should check it out. Go to the Curious George Live website and get the code for half price tickets. I think the code is WINTER.... but I am not sure. I just looked on the website and now I can't find where I found the code. http://curiousgeorgelive.com/shows/curious-george-live



Today's QOTD:

What are you most afraid of in regards to this weight loss journey?


I'm afraid of slipping into the bad habits I had in the past. I was bulimic for a long time but I wasn't a typical bulimic. I never binged, I just purged. I would eat a hard boiled egg and purge. Or a tic tac. I also over exercised. I would often stay up all night working out. I was 19 and less than 90 pounds at 5"4'. Hopefully all my years of therapy won't let me slip back into that again. But, that is my biggest fear.

I'm off to work out and then grocery shop for the week.

 

[BernardandMissBianca]

Today's QOTD:

What are you most afraid of in regards to this weight loss journey?

Failure.

Okay my answer is kind of deep and very personal and I think I really need some pushing from a Jillian to help me with this. My weight has been my protection. For whatever reason I have always had a huge dark fear of rape, I don't know why. I remember a video they showed us in 6th grade - a mom put her kids on the school bus, waved goodbye to her hubby and went back inside without locking the door and a man came in a raped her. Lovely for a 10 year old to watch right? Maybe I read way more into it, but anyway, 35 years later...when I was thin people "noticed" me. Extra pounds = invisibility. I really really need to work through this, I have tears in my eyes as I'm typing this. So I'll do what I do best and change the subject...

Yeah, not a good video for a 10 year old to watch, ever!

But look at it in a different way, if you were thinner, stronger and mentally in a place that you would not be meek would you be more willing to stand up to a would be attacker. Could you fight to the death right now? Do you think you could if you were more fit?
Don't change the subject, you need to face your fears or they will hold you back forever. You need to sign up for a self defense course or a marital arts course. You can take control of this aspect of your life!!

 

[Craftydawn]

Hi all!

I can't believe I actually caught up on all of the posts. I enjoy reading them so much that I get bummed when I fall behind.


I have been struggling the past couple of weeks. I haven't exercised much and have tried to keep my eating under control. It has been raining so much that it is depressing. Luckily, my work schedule changes starting tomorrow so I am home an hour earlier. No excuse not to be able to work-out. So, today I am going to go into the garage and bring in my step for my Firm workouts and add that to my arsenal of workouts. I have all of the equipment needed to workout, I just need to get my butt in gear and do it. I will alternate between the Firm, Biggest Loser wii, WATP, and some other DVDs I have floating around here.


QOTD: My biggest fear or what I am afraid of most in my weight loss journey is failure. I am very good at quitting. I can make so many excuses but I have to stop. Last year, it was that my back and leg hurt (I had a herniated disc), but since having my surgery, I can't use that anymore. I don't want to use any excuses.


I am SOOOO happy! Last weekend, I booked my first trip to Disneyworld for this December!! This is what is keeping me going on my weight loss journey, why I CAN'T stop. I need to be healthy so I can walk all of those miles. We are going for 8 days so I will need a lot of stamina. Also, let's face it, I want to look good too in the photos from the trip. I usually make sure I am the one taking the photos, so I am not in them.

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

 

[sahbushka]

Sounds like a great reason to stay on track if you ask me! Congrats on booking your first trip to WDW! 8 days! Wow! That will be so great!

SarahMay

 

[lisah0711]

Wow! Busy, busy thread this week-end. So exciting to see all these new clippies!

Yesterday I reached a 40 pound total for weight loss! I plan on that getting to 50 by mid March!

That new clippie looks great on you!

If I can claim the 60 lbs clippie then you definitely NEED the 40 lb one.

Nice job on the 60 lbs clippie -- and I am also impressed at how close you are to goal on your ticker!

We're snowed in today (with 5 whole inches of snow ) and I have been SO hungry. I was bad, but not SUPER bad.

Sound like you did pretty well -- and that playing outside is good for you!

It is good I found this pair because I am heading to disneyland in 26 days and plan to do a bunch of walking...don't want to keep having to hitch up my pants!

Nice job shopping your closet!

DH and I spent 5 hours turning our basement gym into a workout studio. We added chin up bars so the 5 of us can all work out together and we added padded snap together flooring. As soon as DH's new dumbbells get here we will be all set up. The kids are so happy with it. I wish it wasn't in the basement as I have a dust allergy and no matter how clean it is, it is still a basement. I'll try to remember to take photos tomorrow.

Sounds like lots of family fun. Can you get a HEPA air filter and put it down there to help with your allergies? I saw one at Lowe's today that you just plugged in.

Between what we made and what was dropped off to the store we had about 280 to donate.

Wow! That is a lot of pillowcases! I am always impressed with all your needlework skills!

Today's QOTD:

What are you most afraid of in regards to this weight loss journey?

I'm afraid of not making it, especially because in my mind I've been like I have to do this and keep it off because I don't ever think I could do it again . . . I think that we should all have more faith in ourselves!

That being said, it's time to write out my rewards for achieving weight loss goals. I've been thinking a lot about them and trying to avoid food rewards, but I am on a budget, so I had to come up with some cheap ones. Here goes nothing.

Wow! Looks like a great and well thought out plan.

Okay my answer is kind of deep and very personal and I think I really need some pushing from a Jillian to help me with this. My weight has been my protection. For whatever reason I have always had a huge dark fear of rape, I don't know why. I remember a video they showed us in 6th grade - a mom put her kids on the school bus, waved goodbye to her hubby and went back inside without locking the door and a man came in a raped her. Lovely for a 10 year old to watch right? Maybe I read way more into it, but anyway, 35 years later...when I was thin people "noticed" me. Extra pounds = invisibility. I really really need to work through this, I have tears in my eyes as I'm typing this. So I'll do what I do best and change the subject...

, jenn. I like all the suggestions about self-defense classes.

Well, I'm on day 2, and yesterday was the first day all year that I tracked every bite. I'm off to steal the tv from michael now and do some wii fit.

Two days down -- another 28 and it will be a habit!

It is a snowy day here. DH and I had a hot date at the waste transfer station this morning. We are easily entertained! Chicken and vegetable curry is in the crockpot so I can spend the afternoon puttering around the house. It is a nice way to spend a snowy afternoon. Have a great Sunday all!

 

[my3princes]

I took my youngest to his snowboard lesson today and it was sooo cold out. I walked up and down the bunny hill just to keep my blood pumping. I have an allergy to the cold. I know it sounds crazy, but when I get cold I break out in hives, therefore I spend most of the winter months indoors. If I plan ahead and dress for it I can manage. I promised him that I will ski a couple of runs with him after his lesson. I skied several times with them last year, but since middle son had brain surgery and can't snowboard this year I have not been going.


ETA: I ended up with full body hives this afternoon. They hit about an hour after we came in. I had to crawl into bed with my mattress pad turned on. I took a nap and am okay now. Man I was itchy for awhile.


Deb

 

[Craftydawn]

Sounds like a great reason to stay on track if you ask me! Congrats on booking your first trip to WDW! 8 days! Wow! That will be so great!

SarahMay

Thanks! I am really looking forward to it. Now for the fun part: PLANNING!

 

[donac]

Here is a picture of all the pillowcases we had made or donated yesterday

We ended up with over 270 for the day.


I haven't eaten the best for the last couple of days. I was at the local highschool today working on costumes for their musical and then went to a Pampered Chef party. Bought a basket to grill veggies in on the barbeque. I can't wait till it is warm enough to barbeque.


I did go shopping today and got lot of fruits and veggies. I am all set for the next couple of days. Tomorrow I won't be eating too much after school since I have a dentist appointment and the entire right side of my face will be numb for about 4 hours. Then I have to make macaroni salad for a bridal shower we are having for a dept member on Tuesday after oour last exams.

I have tto catch up with things on the thread. Hope everyone had a great weekend. Hopefully warmer weather is coming soon .

 

[my3princes]

I did the first p90x workout. OMG what a workout. Obviously I didn't keep up, but I didn't give up either. The kids did most of it too

 

[BernardandMissBianca]

ETA: I ended up with full body hives this afternoon. They hit about an hour after we came in. I had to crawl into bed with my mattress pad turned on. I took a nap and am okay now. Man I was itchy for awhile.


Deb

Deb can you ward off the hives if you take benadryl or something before you go out?

 

[jennz]

to all of you guys!! This morning was the first time I've admitted that fear to anyone except DH, and it's the first time I've admitted that being overweight = safety to me. THANK YOU for the suggestions for self-defense classes. My first thought was "Why haven't I thought of that?" Then I remembered why - too fat/out of shape and then add on busy to do it. I will definitely look into it. I've always thought that my irrational fear was not debilitating - I still go out do things, it doesn't hold me back...but I realized today that it does. By typing out that response I see that it does -keeps the weight on, which keeps me tired, not able to do everything I want to, impacts my self-image...wow! That was an eye-opener!

DD's squad won first place!! This was their best performance of the season and I'm glad the judges thought so too!!! I've never seen such an objective scoring system be as subjective as it is with all-star cheer (of course she's never done another sport so what do I know?)

my3princes...I just heard about people being allergic to the cold on a morning show...I'm so sorry you have that.

Now I get to help dd finish a project that's due guess when? Tomorrow!!

 

[BernardandMissBianca]

Way to go DD!!!!!

 

[corinnak]

Jennz - That video sounds so traumatic! It's not good that they showed that in school! I'm glad you were able to share that, though, and I hope that you are now able to find ways to disarm the fear, by looking at it from a different perspective and/or giving yourself new tools for self-defense.

Today's QOTD:
What are you most afraid of in regards to this weight loss journey?

I think I've shared this before, maybe last season, so at the risk of repeating myself: I've also been afraid of being attractive. My parents' marriage broke up over some issues of infidelity and I have subconsciously been afraid that if I looked attractive to other men, I might destroy my own marriage and cause my children the same pain I experienced. It was not rational or something I was fully conscious of, based as it was on fears that were formed in me between age 9 and 14 or so, but once I dragged it out and admitted it, I've been able to move past it.

And yes, weird as it is, I have indeed noticed some attention from men other than my husband in the last few months. It surprises me every time, since for years it was a non-factor, and I am still figuring out the best ways to handle it. Fortunately, my marriage has been and continues to be rock solid.


The other great fear I have now that I'm at goal is one that has dogged me all along and led me not to tell more than a few people that I was even trying to lose any weight. It's the fear of looking foolish for trying and failing. I didn't want people to look at me and say "yeah, she was all revved up about losing weight 2 weeks ago and now look at her eating all that cake!" And now I don't want people to look at me and say "She did so great losing that weight and now look at her - back to her old size again." Which sounds so silly, in a way - imagining that anyone actually cares enough to judge my weight fluctuations like that!

This fear of regaining, though, is still with me now at goal, because I'm aware that I could gain back everything I've lost (and then some). It is not an irrational fear! I've done it before. Therefore, I keep on thinking of the reasons that things are different this time and the fact that it really is within my power and control to continue my healthy, mindful habits. I know the things that got me to my highest weight and I know how to avoid them (hint: don't ever let a cake or cookies sit out on the counter in my house - they don't last long. Also, ice cream in the kitchen freezer is not a good thing!)

So I continue on, mindfully logging my food, working out, doing the stuff that got me to where I want to be. So far, so good!

 

[lisaviolet]

Okay my answer is kind of deep and very personal and I think I really need some pushing from a Jillian to help me with this. My weight has been my protection. For whatever reason I have always had a huge dark fear of rape, I don't know why. I remember a video they showed us in 6th grade - a mom put her kids on the school bus, waved goodbye to her hubby and went back inside without locking the door and a man came in a raped her. Lovely for a 10 year old to watch right? Maybe I read way more into it, but anyway, 35 years later...when I was thin people "noticed" me. Extra pounds = invisibility. I really really need to work through this, I have tears in my eyes as I'm typing this. So I'll do what I do best and change the subject...
!

Jenn. How brave of you to state that. How brave of you.

Listen, I've had an interesting life. My uncle was a pedophile. I say that with no fear or "what will people think" because it's just part - not all of course - of my life. And part of many women's lives. And I'm sure many on a weight thread.

It no longer steals as much from me in big and small ways. And you know Jenn I didn't completely understand what years did to me. I went with the "live your life - move on " crap that people espouse but it caught up to me not only in weight but in depression and in physical shaking and such.

And one of the most debilitating and life stealing ways was not wanting to be seen. I did everything not to be seen. (EDIT: I just read your post above. I was always out as well - but that doesn't mean I still wasn't hiding or wanting to make myself not looked at or noticed. I was) So I understand. But I'm also here to say you must work through it (some great suggestions) - you must. It's not a full life not wanting to be seen. It's not. And I guarantee you that it is a brand new world not to let weight be a barrier/protection. I didn't want to be attractive or even worse sexually attractive. I wanted the weight. (which is really ridiculous since some overweight women are very attractive and sexually attractive)

I still struggle with it and the process wasn't fa la la la in the least. Sometimes down before you can go up but It's SO WORTH IT.

What a brave woman you are.

 

[lisaviolet]

DD's squad won first place!!



:

Fantastic.

 

[lisaviolet]

I didn't even answer the question myself. Hmmm. I used to have tons of reasons to have fear of goal. I really think they've disappated. In fact, I decided I'm at goal in November. How utterly pompous of me. And brand new me for sure.

I don't have a lot of fear of gaining back - some for sure - because it has taken me years - I eat everything I love - and I will add food or tone down exercise when I think I can't keep it up for life. It's like I've made maintenance more important than the loss. But of course I still have some fears.

I used to have fear of always being big. My goal will be high. I look a lot lower in weight than I am. Bones of concrete I guess. But I've worked that out - FINALLY - this year. FINALLY accepting my body type at 42!

Boy this is a positive day - LAUGHING> - you should ask me tomorrow.