QOTD-Friday, May 13th Why are you still here? What has been different this time to encourage you to stick with it?
I am still here because if I was not, I am afraid I would ballooned way up and beyond my highest weight ever. Though I haven't lost much weight in the past 2 years, the support here has been invaluable to me, to bring me back on track after a binge, or get me moving after a lazy week. A big partof my healthier than I've been in a longtime lifestyle is checking in here and offering support when I can, and knowing I am not alone in this journey. Would I love for 40 pounds to fly off in 4 months like it did when I was 25, sure, but there's so much more involved, and I am trying to look deeper into myself, and figure out why I do keep back sliding. Definitely emotional eating is a huge part of my issue. Am I afraid to be successful? I haven't been in the past, I have lost the weight, and I should be able to lose it again. I think there is a lot going on in my head, and sometimes it's easier to ignore rather than face our issues, and I think that's what I've been doing. Too much to do though mental health is so important, but I feel like there's too much in there, and if I let it out, I won't be able to deal with it. Maybe I should see a therapist. But I'm scared. There was a long, bad relationship, and I do think I hide behind my weight. I'd like to get out and date again, but again it's a big time commitment, and it's scary. For the past year, the running has been different, and a good motivator, stress reliever, though I thought it would have been a better motivator than I've let it. I know my running would be faster if I was lighter, yet there goes that bag of chips. Well, I'm rambling, and the long and short is, I love it here, and i love all you guys and the support and inspiration I see here every day is unbelievable.
For me it has been a combination of a bunch of things including the wonderful support I have received. But I think the biggest thing is that I have realized that when it comes to food/weight loss I don't have to be perfect. One bad meal, bad snack, bad day is not going to derail me. And the nice thing is, that by learning this, I am slowly starting to realize I don't have to be perfect in other parts of my life as well. I just have to do the best I can--and to keep swimming.
Thank you Dona for coaching last week,

and thank you Rose for coaching this week.
I can't believe this challenge is almost over, and again, through another challenge, I'm only down a couple pounds. Oh well, I know why, and I need to work on it. I will not buy crap, I will not buy crap, I will not buy crap. If it's not here, I can't eat it.
CC-Thanks for hh this week. I will finish this week strong, journal every bite, exercise my 20 min every day, and relax a bit every day.
Tracey-So sorry to hear about your mom's diagnosis.

My heart goes out to you all, it's so overwhelming. Sending prayers for all of you.
Pamela- So glad you had such a wonderful time. You must be exhausted. I'd love to read a trip report and live vicariously through you. we usually find some canobie coupons too. Six flags is fun, but we stay with my brother usually for a night since it's such a long drive. Some years the hospital has discount tickets too, usually less than 30$. We may try funtown/splashtown when we're in maine. Have you been?
Lindsay- we do the snack bar on game nights too. Guess more people don't want to spend an extra night at the park. We usually split into 30 min shifts, so we all get to see some of the game. Enjoy your bingo tonight. Nice job on the yoga. I only ever tried yoga when I was pregnant with my sil, and let me tell you, there were lots of laughs, not as relaxing and zen as we anticipated, all of us big pregos trying to do what the 90 pound teacher was showing us. I hear it is a great workout.
Sue- sorry about the knee clicking. Is it any better today? For my and my elderly joints and muscles, I have found that stretching makes all the diffference. If I stretch faithfully after all my runs, I don't get that stiffness, and my joints don't get as achey.
Cam- Hope the tummy is better soon. We miss your posts, but totally understand and we don't want to add stress to anyone's life. I think WISH is stress-free zone. Hope all is going well with the future graduates.
Karen- So glad your knee is ok. It's great to have a time goal to work toward for the races, and it can motivate you to train a little harder. Hope you can make your 45 min this weekend.
Shawn- hope the house hunting is going well. It's got to be so hard to have limited time here, and feel that pressure, and not have dh here to see it all too. I hope that the most perfect house shows up soon.
Guess I should get to work now. Hope everyone has a great day!!
