Thanks all,
Needless to say I am very disappointed in my race. I was on pace for my 3:10 up until Heartbreak hill. Both quads cramped up and had to walk/run/hobble the rest of the way. I just went into survival mode. My splits tell the story, but I have no idea what caused the meltdown. I have been trying to figure it out for 2 days. Did I set a goal too unrealistic? Did I go out too fast? I had shin splints I was nursing that caused me to hit only 5 runs in the last 3 weeks of training during the taper. Could that have played a factor? Did I not run enough hill workouts?
What really scares me is the thought that I may have wimped out and not tried hard enough to push through the pain. In past races I have had twinges of cramping, but have always managed to run it out. Did I go into survival mode prematurely?
My cardio felt fine. I never felt like I was pushing too hard. My shins were taped up and never bothered me. So I need to do some deep thinking. I never experienced the huge adrenaline dump that I have in past races. I missed out on the feeling of finishing strong. And worse yet, I missed the experience and joy of just being there and soaking in the massive cheering crowds. It was a very humbling experience and I hope to learn and become a better more capable runner from this.
I know, BLAH, blah blah, "dude, you just ran Boston. Quit whinning!" But I am a very competitive person and am my own worse critic. I have been just telling people to just let me sulk a bit and I'll be fine. And hopefully, grow from this experience.
I am already thinking about what race to run next. I'll be back at Boston. I just need to requalify.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Dave