Any other DISers trying to concieve? Reread OP for the QOTD!

[mickeyboat]

Suzanne!

 

[helenabear]

Suzanne I wish I had the right words....

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Thank you guys, I will probably stick around and post every now and then, but I know the time is right.

Suzanne

 

[helenabear]

You are such a sweetie Suzanne! I really wish you peace and happiness in your life.

How I do wish babies could just fall from the sky (sorry you saying that made me smile... I know I shouldn't but the image....)

I do want to give you a word of hope. There is a former co-worker of mine named Jodie. She and her DH have been trying for 12 years for a baby. She was unable to adopt (won't go into why, but it wasn't just financial) and all fertility treatments were a bust. She is now, I think (keep in mind I hear about it from a friend of mine who works there so I might be off) about 7-8 weeks pregnant. It is truly a miracle. We are all collectively holding our breath for her...
I'll hush now (I need to make me some supper anyway before I go whine about food choices we had at the celebration )

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

You are such a sweetie Suzanne! I really wish you peace and happiness in your life.

How I do wish babies could just fall from the sky (sorry you saying that made me smile... I know I shouldn't but the image....)

I do want to give you a word of hope. There is a former co-worker of mine named Jodie. She and her DH have been trying for 12 years for a baby. She was unable to adopt (won't go into why, but it wasn't just financial) and all fertility treatments were a bust. She is now, I think (keep in mind I hear about it from a friend of mine who works there so I might be off) about 7-8 weeks pregnant. It is truly a miracle. We are all collectively holding our breath for her...
I'll hush now (I need to make me some supper anyway before I go whine about food choices we had at the celebration )

I always think about my grandmother talking about angels picking out babies from heaven and sending them to mothers, so I guess that is why I say that. I keep asking her to send me one. Unfortunately, or maybe not, she didn't know about my infertility. She passed away 5 months before I got married.

Suzanne

 

[Gurgi]

Very well said, Suzanne. I hope anyone who happens to come across this thread completely understands where we're coming from.

 

[LisaB]

Congrats on the twins Meredith that is awesome. Suzanne I am so sorry but I know exactly how you feel. We tried everything clomid 4 cycles of iui and then 3 cycle of injections. It was just too much. We have decided to stop for now but whenever I deliever flowers or a basket to Woman and Infants the baby hospital I think about how I want to try a cycle of IVF but it is just too expensive for us now.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Congrats on the twins Meredith that is awesome. Suzanne I am so sorry but I know exactly how you feel. We tried everything clomid 4 cycles of iui and then 3 cycle of injections. It was just too much. We have decided to stop for now but whenever I deliever flowers or a basket to Woman and Infants the baby hospital I think about how I want to try a cycle of IVF but it is just too expensive for us now.

Thank you, it really helps to have others that have been where you are. I work in a hospital and with medicaid, so you can imagine what I have seen. I try to avoid the "baby" floor as much as possible. I can't even begin to tell you what I have seen and how many times I have cried after a young child walks out of here that just found out she is pregnant, and it is hard not to be angry. We could only afford three IUI's and will never afford IVF or adoption, but so and so's 14 year old can lay down with a boy 1 time and now you have a grandchild on the way, SICK. I thought about trying for another year, but I just couldn't keep going. I will be 34 next month and even though everyone says you are still young, I don't feel young anymore (I think all of this has not only taken my modesty, but my sanity and my youth).

Thank you to everyone that has been so supportive, it really does help alot.

Suzanne

 

[7beasley]

Hi to all...

Quick post...today has been a terrible rotten horrid day -- seriously - on days like this I question why I even went to law school and why I am a lawyer at all -- sometimes I hate my job - hate the stress - hate the paperwork -- just hate hate hate it. My brain has been so foggy lately I am not my typical bulldog self and I feel like I am screwing things up on my cases...which is just leading to more stress!

Anyway ----

Meredith -- yeah yeah yeah!!! Twins --- how great is that -- I am so over the moon for you -- this is great great news!! I had a feeling it was twins given your beta numbers. You and your DH must be reeling with joy!!

Carla -- always good to hear from you -- you should check in more often - we miss you - and you are my inspiration that this is possible and that come November I am going to have a little one. Glad to hear I am not the only one with a meat aversion - course I used to love meat so I hope the aversion goes away soon.

Suzanne -- hugs - we are here for you! Sorry you have come to that tough decision in your life. I wish you all the peace and strength of the world!

LisaB -- thinking of you -- I know how hard it must be to be at the Women and Infants center...hugs!!

Hi to everyone else!!

I need to get out of here - it is 7pm -- I am starving -- guess what I have been dreaming about eating all day -- a can of mushroom soup mixed into white minute rice with some cheese on it -- sounds kind of gross huh - but I can't wait to go home and make it!

Hugs to all my TTC girls!

We are a brave and strong group -- those on the outside don't realize how much we struggle -- but we all know and we should be proud of each other and ourselves!

Remember -- the best advice anyone ever gave me after my POF infertility diagnosis was that we parent the children we were intended to parent. Those children are not always the children we anticpated when we were young and naive and dreaming about being moms - but they are our children none the less - -regardless of what path they take to us!

Remember that!!

Hugs,
Nicole

 

[Gurgi]

I had to share a little moment today where I actually did get a little misty eyed...but more with awe than anything.

I was walking through the health center (the office I work in, inside of the hospital I'm in) and one of the doctors called me over. He had in his hands the smallest baby that I had ever personally seen. He said that she was 19 days old and was born at 33 weeks. She was only a little bigger than his hand, but she was very alert and moving around like crazy!! I asked how much she weighed and she was only 4 pounds at birth. Can you believe it?! He weighed her and she was about 6 pounds now. Ohhh...I squealed with delight and awe. The preemie diaper she had on was even a little too big for her!!!

 

[Gurgi]

OH...btw Elaine: my doc's appointment is tomorrow. And I'm pissed at the hubs. LOL. My doctor specifically told him to be at the appointment with me tomorrow so he could talk to us together about what to expect in the future. I specifically remember reminding my husband no less than 3 times this weekend about picking me up from work and driving me over (I could walk, but with the hot weather...yuck!!). He agreed.

So, imagine how annoyed I was today when I called him to remind him *again* to pick me up at 8:30 and he asked me why. I almost popped an eye socket out from holding in my screams He is VERY forgetful lately and it's getting very very very annoying. Turns out now he can't go anyways because he has to travel to Tampa. He asked why the doc wanted to see him...and I told him to forget it Hehehe.

 

[DisneyGirl4188]

Meredith, I am SO happy for you!! Twins, that is so exciting!!!

Suzanne,

Carla, I'm sorry about your friend.

 

[skuttle]

Wow...a LOT has gone on today! LOL!

Meridith..congrats on the twins!! How exciting!

Suzanne... I know that must have been such a difficult decision for you to make. You still never know what may happen.



LOL! I didn't know I was being so brave with the grapefruit juice! I drank a bigger glass this morning. Still yucky, but not as bad as yesterday. Maybe it's an acquired taste. I didn't care for beer in college and I still drank it, probably too much of it. So I figure I can deal with the grapefruit juice!

I haven't started the baby aspirin yet. Forgot to get it at the store this weekend and haven't had a chance to stop again. I plan to on Thursday, though.

I guess I'll add my 2 cents re that other post. I pretty much agree 100% with what everyone else has already said. The hurt, pain, anger, etc I express on here is something I ONLY express on this thread. That's why I am SO thankful to have these girls to whine/ramble/complain to! My DH hears some of it, but he can't truly understand like the girls on here. Plus, my sadness upsets DH and I don't want to do that either. I haven't mentioned it to my girlfriends IRL (other than just saying we've been trying for a while) because I know they are getting to the point where they may start TTC and I don't want anyone to be afraid to announce their pregnancy because of me. I would NEVER express my sadness to someone that just announced they were pregnant...never! If/when I get to the point that I need some sort of medical intervention, then I will let my girlfriends know. But until them, I will stick to this thread and just keep on trying to skip over those posts that are insensitive.

 

[2bemarried]

Suzanne I wish I knew what to say. I think we each have a journey to take and we are the only ones that can decide how far we want to travel. I do hope that you'll visit us from time and time and remember that you can always change your mind next month or even six months down the road.

Gurgi should we come over there and whack your hubby on the head? I do understand where you're coming from. Mine has a horrible memory.

Nicole sorry you had a rotten day. I love that saying!! I do believe it's true in some ways.

skuttle..you're still going to get the bravery award for drinking grapefruit juice

Since we're on the subject of babies dropped from the sky I'll share something too. A scrapbooking friend of mine went through IVF several times before having twin boys. One evening a couple years ago she was having a chat with her one of her sons and they were discussing heaven. The story is a bit long, but he specifically told her that evening that he knew all about heaven and that he had been there already. He had been told by God to pick out a rainbow in the sky b/c it would deliver him to his mom. I can't tell you how many times I think about this.
I know not everyone believes in God but just to think that a little one said this without prompt is amazing.

 

[DisneyDreamer8]

Well ladies, our ultrasound revealed....TWINS!!! They look good, heartbeats in the 160's for one and 170's for the other. Both measure at 7wks, 5days and that puts my due date at Dec 25th! Twins come early though, an 36 weeks is term for them, so more realistic is beginning of Dec. This is so crazy, but I am soo releaved!

thank you guys sooo much for the support! It means the world, and I plan on sticking around too!

Meredith

Yeah double the fun!!!! So excited for you!!!!

 

[7beasley]

Since we're on the subject of babies dropped from the sky I'll share something too. A scrapbooking friend of mine went through IVF several times before having twin boys. One evening a couple years ago she was having a chat with her one of her sons and they were discussing heaven. The story is a bit long, but he specifically told her that evening that he knew all about heaven and that he had been there already. He had been told by God to pick out a rainbow in the sky b/c it would deliver him to his mom. I can't tell you how many times I think about this.
I know not everyone believes in God but just to think that a little one said this without prompt is amazing.

Wow - out of the mouths of babes -- I really do believe with all my heart that the kids we were meant to have find us -- and while it is no comfort to someone who had a miscarriage or is told they are infertile and will have to adopt or use a donor egg/sperm -- if you believe that things are meant to be - then you know that your child will find you -- you just know it!!

Well - time to go eat my mushroom soup rice!

Hugs,
Nicole

 

[DisneyDreamer8]

Rebecca...may I ask where you got your siggie infertility ribbon? I would like to find one as well.

I found it on twoweekwait.com. A lady who struggled with infertility started the whole thing. Here is a link so you can check it out...http://stirrup-queens.blogspot.com/2006/09/history-of-infertilitys-common-thread.html

Hope the rest of your day went quickly

 

[SDFgirl]

Hello all. I posted on this thread a while ago, and still lurk here now.

I just wanted to say that, although I don't post often, I silently cheer you each on as I follow your stories. I thought it was time to maybe break the silence.

I truly admire your strength, courage, and perseverence. Each of you.

Each time I see a BFP on this thread my heart leaps for joy. You all have been through so much, and I wish you so much good luck and happiness with your pregnancies.

For those who are still waiting and hoping, please realize that people you never even knew (like me) are wishing you well and praying for you. You will be wonderful moms someday, however and whenever it happens.

I also can understand feeling the ache and sadness when someone else announces their pregnancy. It's human nature. Of course you don't begrudge anyone their joy, you just want some of that same joy for yourself. I'm so glad you all have a place that you can come and vent here. This is an awesome group.

Again, good luck to all. I'm thinking of you ladies.

 

[DisneyDreamer8]

Suzanne-I'm so sorry you have had to make that decision...but if you feel right and at peace about it then it is the right choice. You never know what might happen in the future. Please come back and visit whenever you can.

Gurgi: I hope it was not something I said. If so please let me know Sorry your DH is clueless...mine gets that way too. How about a

Anywho...time to start my "happy pills" tonight. DH is getting ready to duck and cover and stocking up on tissues...let the clomid times roll

 

[Gurgi]

Suzanne-I'm so sorry you have had to make that decision...but if you feel right and at peace about it then it is the right choice. You never know what might happen in the future. Please come back and visit whenever you can.

Gurgi: I hope it was not something I said. If so please let me know Sorry your DH is clueless...mine gets that way too. How about a

Anywho...time to start my "happy pills" tonight. DH is getting ready to duck and cover and stocking up on tissues...let the clomid times roll

DisneyDreamer....not you