Angelrose's Journey

[Minnie&Nana]

I don't know if I have ever told you how sorry I am that you lost your son One of my DH's friends in work lost his son in Afghanistan two weeks ago, he said the military funeral was almost unbearable. Hugs to you

Oh, I am so very sorry that family.Will hold them near in prayer - theirs is now a life long sorrow. It will get softer and joy will return, but life will never be the same.

Thank you so much for your kind words; I appreciate it very much.

(Btw, I love your quotes - a couple of my favorites.)

 

[snapppyd]

Oh, I am so very sorry that family.Will hold them near in prayer - theirs is now a life long sorrow. It will get softer and joy will return, but life will never be the same.

Thank you so much for your kind words; I appreciate it very much.

(Btw, I love your quotes - a couple of my favorites.)

 

[Angelrose]

Thank you Christine. I guess I needed to hear that I am normal for still crying. I do have days when I want to shout, "I want him back" and "It's not fair". But I did get through the day and night. Ron sent me a dream last night. We were laughing and hugging in the kitchen like we used to do. I was doing the dishes and he was hugging me. He said, "I told you I would help". LOL Then I turned and said, "You also said you would be here for 20 more years". He looked at me with a little smile and just shrugged his shoulders, as if to say "what can you do?" I guess God has the answers.

snappyd, I didn't get to see the grandkids this weekend. I called Chuck tonight and he sounded terrible. He has been so sick with either the stomach flu or food poisoning. I told him if it lasts more than 24 hours it's the flu. Poor kid. He said the last 24 hours have not been fun.

If it's the flu, it will go through the whole house and I don't want to be there to get it also.

Although that might help me lose weight. My last weigh in at WW I only lost .6 pound. Not great. This week I feel I haven't lost anything either. But we will see. I just hope I can keep losing steadily. I want to be a lot thinner in May.

 

[Angelrose]

Hello my friends. I had a strange occurrence with my car coming home from WW last Thursday. My brake lights wouldn't go out. I called Chuck and he told me to play with the brake pedal and see if that worked. By the time I went out the lights were out. Of course the next morning, my battery was dead. Chuck came over on Saturday with the kids and gave me a jump and put new wiper blades on. I had fun with Zoey and Jesse. He loves getting all my beanies and stuffed animals on the couch with him. They stayed for a couple of hours just visiting after Chuck finished with the car.

Sunday I tried the car and it was fine. I went grocery shopping and when I got there, I made sure the brake lights were out before I went in. Unfortunately, when I came out they were on. The battery was still fine and I made it home.

Monday I called the garage and they said it sounded like a stuck brake light switch. Well that was what it was in for before. But Chuck picked me up at the garage and then we all had dinner together. I thought that was so sweet of them to invite me for dinner. I played with Jesse for a half hour before dinner. They had made tortilla soup. It was really good. Jesse climbed up in my lap after dinner and just put his arms around my neck. I melted of course. The only way Karen could get him up to get ready for bed, was to tell him that I would read him a bedtime story before I left.

You know he picked out a book with the longest stories. LOL But I read him one and then he kissed me goodnight and his daddy and Karen put him to bed. Chuck took me home. I had a smile on my face all night.

We talked more about going to Disney next year. We will probably be going the last week in January into February. They will be renting a house instead of staying at Disney. It's much cheaper. I will have to get a car service to pick me up at the house to Disney and then back at night. It will be a wonderful time with all of us there together.

I would still rather we went at Christmas time, but I guess I will have to go when they can get off from work. I can't be picky!

Hopefully my car will be done by tomorrow.

 

[snapppyd]

Good luck with the car - what a pain!

Dreaming of a Disney trip is a great way to make the rest of the winter pass quickly

 

[Angelrose]

Thanks snappyd. Chuck took me to pick it up this evening. It was a broken brake clamp that was causing all the trouble. They only charged me $82. I think that is fair.

It was so good to get my car back. I really miss the old thing when I don't see it in my back yard.

Yes I am very excited about going to Disney again. I'll be even more excited when we get the dates fixed. Then I can set my Disney calendar to count down the days.

I remember every summer Ron and I would talk about our Disney trip the whole time we were in the pool. It was so much fun planning and talking about the fun we had on past trips. We would pretend we were there while swimming. I would ask him where we were and he would tell me we were in the Haunted Mansion or walking around World Showcase or seeing the Osbourne lights. It was a fun way to spend the summer.

This will be the first time I will be there since we put his ashes there. I will have to say a little prayer when I get to each place. One spot is in the Magic Kingdom where we could see the fireworks every night. Another place is the Haunted Mansion and the last place is the walkway between the Polynesian and the Grand Floridian. He loved all those places, but especially the walkway. We would walk from the Poly to the GF every morning. It was so quiet and peaceful and very romantic.

 

[Angelrose]

I got to babysit the kids on Saturday for a couple of hours. Chuck and Karen wanted to do some shopping. I had a wonderful time with both. Zoey is such a calm baby. Jesse was NEVER calm. LOL She just sat in her little seat down in the basement while I played with Jesse. I would hand her toys and she would smile and put them in her mouth. She is teething and they are bothering her.

When she started o cry, I knew she was hungry. We all went upstairs and I gave her dinner bottle. She sucked it down like she hadn't eaten in a month. Then she gave me a big smile. I burped her and took her upstairs to bed. She fell asleep right away.

Jesse and I went back downstairs to play for a while. He was getting tired. He had a runny nose and a little cough. He wanted to go back upstairs and snuggle with me on the couch. Told him to go get a couple of books and I would read him some bedtime stories.

Of course he brought down the biggest books he could find. I read him two and a half stories. I knew he was fading fast. He didn't protest at all when I told him it was bedtime. He put on his jammies, went potty and then I could tuck him in and give him a hug and a kiss goodnight and then another hug and kiss goodnight. I always have to give him two.

I felt his forehead and he was a little warm. But he was fine on Sunday and this morning.

This was their first day at the new daycare. They both did very well. That is until Jesse got a 102 fever after lunch. Karen came to pick him up and he projectile vomited all over her pants, the couch and rug at daycare. He really was sick.

Chuck called me this afternoon to ask if I would babysit Jesse tomorrow. They both cannot miss work tomorrow. Chuck has meetings all day and Karen has a deadline she has to meet.

So I packed my lunch and vitamins with some extra vit c for me. Chuck will show me how to use the Tivo so Jesse can watch his shows. I hope he feels better tomorrow.

 

[snapppyd]

Good Morning Angel! I hope Jesse is doing better today and that you don't catch anything.

I love the way you describe things, I can vividly imagine you and Ron in the pool talking about Disney.

Zoey sounds like such a good girl - it's like she know Jesse needs your attention!

I bet you'll be tired tonight - give us an update when you can.

 

[Angelrose]

Good evening snappyd. I survived a whole day with Jesse! Oh myyyyy, that boy is so active even when he isn't feeling well. He was feeling better this morning but he has a bad cough and has a very runny nose. He did try and cover his mouth when he coughed, but sometimes he forgot. He was climbing all over me all day. If I don't get sick it will be a miracle. I did up my vitamin c and I used the saline nasal spray when I got home. I don't think I ever washed my hands so much in my whole life.

I think I know every line in the 5 episodes of Jake and the Neverland Pirates from the Disney channel. We watched those 5 episodes at least 4 times. I think tomorrow I will say it's not available. I gave him his Tylenol and his lunch. Just some crackers and applesauce. I tried to get him to take a nap, but that wasn't happening. And I made the tragic mistake of forgetting to tell him to go potty before his nap.

I hear him calling me upstairs. He's in the bathroom telling me he made a big mess. He had a bit of diarhea (sp) (I can never spell that right). It was in his underpants, so I had to get them off and soak them in the sink. He got himself cleaned up and put on his jammies. I tucked him in again and went downstairs to try and get a catnap.

I heard him playing around in his room, so I gave up and told him he could come back downstairs. We played down in the basement for a while and then back to Mickey Mouse Clubhouse episodes.

Karen came home a little after 3. We talked for a while and she took his temperature. He still had a fever of 100, so with that and the word that I can't spell, he can't go back to daycare tomorrow. I will be babysitting tomorrow as well. Karen told me she wanted to stop off and get some tops at Lane Bryant after work tomorrow because they are 40% off. So she won't be back here until a bit after 4. I think I will be ready for a vacation after that. LOL

She did tell me that she LOVED the pot roast that I made and to feel free to share the next time I make it. That made me feel good. Hopefully I will be able to make it next week some time.

 

[snapppyd]

Good evening snappyd. I survived a whole day with Jesse! Oh myyyyy, that boy is so active even when he isn't feeling well. He was feeling better this morning but he has a bad cough and has a very runny nose. He did try and cover his mouth when he coughed, but sometimes he forgot. He was climbing all over me all day. If I don't get sick it will be a miracle. I did up my vitamin c and I used the saline nasal spray when I got home. I don't think I ever washed my hands so much in my whole life.

I think I know every line in the 5 episodes of Jake and the Neverland Pirates from the Disney channel. We watched those 5 episodes at least 4 times. I think tomorrow I will say it's not available. I gave him his Tylenol and his lunch. Just some crackers and applesauce. I tried to get him to take a nap, but that wasn't happening. And I made the tragic mistake of forgetting to tell him to go potty before his nap.

I hear him calling me upstairs. He's in the bathroom telling me he made a big mess. He had a bit of diarhea (sp) (I can never spell that right). It was in his underpants, so I had to get them off and soak them in the sink. He got himself cleaned up and put on his jammies. I tucked him in again and went downstairs to try and get a catnap.

I heard him playing around in his room, so I gave up and told him he could come back downstairs. We played down in the basement for a while and then back to Mickey Mouse Clubhouse episodes.

Karen came home a little after 3. We talked for a while and she took his temperature. He still had a fever of 100, so with that and the word that I can't spell, he can't go back to daycare tomorrow. I will be babysitting tomorrow as well. Karen told me she wanted to stop off and get some tops at Lane Bryant after work tomorrow because they are 40% off. So she won't be back here until a bit after 4. I think I will be ready for a vacation after that. LOL

She did tell me that she LOVED the pot roast that I made and to feel free to share the next time I make it. That made me feel good. Hopefully I will be able to make it next week some time.

Oh my, you must be exhausted! Hope things stay dry tomorrow!

 

[Angelrose]

Poor kid, it wasn't his fault. I know he felt bad. He told his mom all about it when she came home.

I'm hoping he stays dry tomorrow too. I didn't mind the clean up. I did enough of them when Chuck was a baby and when I took care of Jesse. Gosh that seems so long ago. It was only 2 1/2 years ago. Ron loved holding Jesse and rocking him to sleep .

I think it bothered Jesse more than me.

I did get quite a few big smiles from Zoey when she came home from daycare. She looks straight at me and smiles. I think she is starting to focus now.

 

[snapppyd]

Poor kid, it wasn't his fault. I know he felt bad. He told his mom all about it when she came home.

I'm hoping he stays dry tomorrow too. I didn't mind the clean up. I did enough of them when Chuck was a baby and when I took care of Jesse. Gosh that seems so long ago. It was only 2 1/2 years ago. Ron loved holding Jesse and rocking him to sleep .

I think it bothered Jesse more than me.

I did get quite a few big smiles from Zoey when she came home from daycare. She looks straight at me and smiles. I think she is starting to focus now.

I think it is wonderful that you are so close to them. I never had grandparents and I missed out on so much. Poor little guy -he is probably getting old enough to be embarrassed! I hope the baby doesn't catch it - or you!

 

[Angelrose]

Thanks, but I think it's pretty inevitable that I will get it. I throw things off pretty fast, so I'm not worried. I do hope that little Zoey will not get it. Things like that can be so dangerous to infants.

While I was holding Zoey, Jesse tried to get in my lap too. He gets so jealous when I hold her. I don't think he understands that I am her grandmom too. I belong to him only. LOL It will take time, I guess.

 

[snapppyd]

Thanks, but I think it's pretty inevitable that I will get it. I throw things off pretty fast, so I'm not worried. I do hope that little Zoey will not get it. Things like that can be so dangerous to infants.

While I was holding Zoey, Jesse tried to get in my lap too. He gets so jealous when I hold her. I don't think he understands that I am her grandmom too. I belong to him only. LOL It will take time, I guess.

He's had you all to himself so far, but I'm sure he'll be willing to share you - he just needs a little time.

 

[snapppyd]

I'm falling asleep on my keyboard - goodnight my sweet AngelRose - I'll talk to you tomorrow. I hope Jesse feels better and your vitamin C keeps you healthy!

 

[Angelrose]

Hi again. Jesse wasn't feeling better today, darn it. His cough was worse and so was the nose. I think he still had a bit of a fever. We watched Mickey Mouse Clubhouse this morning. I told him Jake wasn't on. LOL I just couldn't face any more of that. We played and we colored and watched more Mickey.

He wouldn't eat anything more than some applesauce and a bit of orange juice.

I did give him one time out for climbing on the couch and then throwing himself at me. That hurt! So he had a timeout. When he got control of himself he told me he was ready. So I asked him what he did wrong and he told me. I said, we weren't going to do that again and he agreed. Then I told him to tell me he was sorry and he did and gave me a big hug. All was forgiven.

At nap time I told him, that he needed to take a nap today so he could start feeling better. I made him go potty before. A few minutes later I heard him calling me to tell me he had to go potty. I know he does that just to get out of bed for a few more minutes, but I let him go. I tucked him in again and he went right down. I even promised him if he took a nap I would give him a surprise and would try to find Jake.

I went downstairs and laid down on the couch. I must have fallen asleep really fast. The next thing I know, the phone is ringing and I'm standing up before my eyes were open, saying, "where am I?" LOL I was really dead asleep. I let the phone go to voice mail and laid down again.

It had been a whole half hour that I was asleep. I heard Jesse crying hard. I went upstairs and he was drenched in sweat and crying. I asked him what was wrong but he just kept crying. He wasn't sick in bed or anything, so I asked him if he had a nightmare and he said yes. I gave him a hug and told him everything was OK. I asked him if he wanted to go back to sleep and he said yes. I think he fell asleep again before I left the room.

As I was coming downstairs, Karen came home. We talked for a few minutes and I told her he wasn't any better. She called the dr and got a prescription for him. I left and went to pick up my jeans at the tailor and came home. I washed my hair and was watching tv, when I got a call from my cousin.

One of my cousin's husband died this morning. What a shock! We never knew he was ill. He didn't want anyone to know he had stomach cancer. He started to have heart failure and all his organs just shut down. It's very sad.

The viewing is Sunday night and the funeral is on Monday. I know what hell she is going through now. First comes the shock. Then later comes the real pain.

Please keep her in your prayers tonight.

 

[snapppyd]

I am so sorry, prayers for you and your cousin. I hope it won't be too hard for you to attend the viewing, those are such sad memories for you.

I'm also sorry Jesse still isn't feeling well, hopefully the prescription will knock it out. I woke to a sore throat/cold feeling starting to creep up on me - I'm going to up the vitamins today.

Are you babysitting again today?

 

[Angelrose]

Thanks for the prayers. It will be hard to see her going through what I went through. I'm always a mess at family funerals anyway. I'll bring lots of tissues.

Jesse wasn't any better today. This afternoon he coughed for about an hour. He couldn't seem to stop. He was a terror today. He had 3 time outs and one spanking. I hated to do it with him being sick, but he just cannot be allowed to push and hit me. I know he is bored out of his mind and I tried to be as patient as I could. But there is a limit. My mind is numb from watching Jake and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. I'm physically tired from going up and down the stairs.

Karen was supposed to be home around one. She called me at 3 to tell me she was on her way to pick up Zoey and come home. Her supervisor made her do a lot of other things that held her up. He is a jerk, but that is another story.

I got home just in time to run upstairs and brush my teeth and get changed. I sat down and watched a half hour of tv before it was time for my WW meeting.

I lost 1.4 for a total of 39.4. I'm almost at the 40 pounds mark. Maybe next week.

I will be glad when it's next Tuesday and I can sit down and relax all day and do absolutely nothing.

Sorry about whining. But I am just exhausted.

 

[snapppyd]

Thanks for the prayers. It will be hard to see her going through what I went through. I'm always a mess at family funerals anyway. I'll bring lots of tissues.

Jesse wasn't any better today. This afternoon he coughed for about an hour. He couldn't seem to stop. He was a terror today. He had 3 time outs and one spanking. I hated to do it with him being sick, but he just cannot be allowed to push and hit me. I know he is bored out of his mind and I tried to be as patient as I could. But there is a limit. My mind is numb from watching Jake and Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. I'm physically tired from going up and down the stairs.

Karen was supposed to be home around one. She called me at 3 to tell me she was on her way to pick up Zoey and come home. Her supervisor made her do a lot of other things that held her up. He is a jerk, but that is another story.

I got home just in time to run upstairs and brush my teeth and get changed. I sat down and watched a half hour of tv before it was time for my WW meeting.

I lost 1.4 for a total of 39.4. I'm almost at the 40 pounds mark. Maybe next week.

I will be glad when it's next Tuesday and I can sit down and relax all day and do absolutely nothing.

Sorry about whining. But I am just exhausted.

OMG, you are not whining! I don't know how you do it - my sister has been watching her granddaughters for 7 years - my niece had to go back to work - it is exhausting.

Poor Jesse - he probably just can't understand why he doesn't feel good and is taking it out on you -not that he can be allowed to get physical, but I feel so sorry for him.

Congratulations on the weight loss - all that running up and down the stairs at least had one positive outcome.

Hang in there, next week hopefully, you will catch a little time to yourself.

 

[Angelrose]

Hello everyone. The viewing was last night. My cousin Joan drove, thank goodness. It was POURING rain. It was a closed casket and that helped me. I gave Joann a hug and told her I was there for her if she ever wanted to talk. I gave her kids a hug and told them how sorry I was. Marty was a very nice guy. Very religious and helped at the church.

After that Joan and her family, my cousin Butch and I sat around a talked and laughed as we always do. Joann's sisters came over and talked with us for a while too. It was good to catch up with everyone again despite the circumstances.

This morning I parked my car at Joan's and she drove to the church. It was a very nice mass. The priest, knew Joann and Marty because Marty was an usher and helped with the communion. He spoke directly to Joann and her family which I thought was a nice touch. I shed a few tears there.

After the mass we drove to the cemetery. There were two army soldiers standing at attention at the door. I whispered God Bless You to the one nearest me. He didn't break standing at attention but gave me the barest nod. He was so young. He looked like he should be in high school.

The priest spoke again and then the youngest soldier slowly walked up and saluted at the coffin while they played Taps. Oh my I really started to cry then. After Taps, the other solider walked won the aisle and they started to fold the flag. I was crying so hard. When the young soldier knelt in front of Joann and said "Your country thanks you for his service." I almost lost it completely. That's what they did for me at Ron's service. I guess I was crying for Ron as well as Marty.

As we were walking out, Joan's sister in law put her arms around me and asked if this was the first funeral since Ron's. I said yes and she said that is always the hardest. Her son committed suicide a few years ago, so she knows. I thought that was so sweet of her.

After that we drove to the restaurant. My cousin Butch sat at the table with Joan's family and me. Oh my, we laughed the entire time. Butch is so bad and I am not much better and Joan is even worse. We talked about our childhood and I learned things about my father that I never knew. Very funny.

The food was very good. They had a buffet with rolls, two salads, chicken parm, pasta, roasted potatoes and roasted tenderloin of beef. The beef was done medium and so tender. For dessert they had brownies and cookies.

I finally got home around 4. Got into my pj's and watched tv.

Chuck called me around 6 to ask if I would babysit Zoey tomorrow. She now has a fever, but no cough or stuffy nose. Well, there goes my day of relaxation. She will be easier to take care of than Jesse. She is a very good baby with a sunny disposition. She is always smiling. Chuck said Jesse was out of control all weekend. I think he will do better now that he is back in daycare with a structure to his every hour.

I'm going to get up a bit before 6, so I can get my pork tenderloin in the slow cooker. I'm just going to cut up some small shalots, garlic and the new barbeque sauce I bought. I will have shredded pork sandwiches for dinner.

Hopefully Zoey will get over her fever quickly. I need some days off.