mykittenhatesyou
Can't wait for March 2006!
- Joined
- Aug 22, 2005
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I've been overweight as far back as I can remember. Sometimes kids in school teased me but it never stopped me from doing the things I wanted to do. As a child I was very active. I loved playing neighborhood games like kickball and hide'n'seek and took up rollerblading and bike riding and horseback riding. I always hated running though, I developed early on and hated the bouncing feeling! 
In high school and college my weight really started to bother me. I started gaining much easier now that I was sitting and studying and watching movies all the time I started gaining weight much easier. And then there was the issue of dating. All my friends were very beautiful and slender and it was very tough being the one that guys didn't want. I ended up selling myself short and settling for guys that didn't treat me well. And then I met my wonderful husband who seemed to just see right through the fat suit from day one and has always called me his beautiful wife. I lost some weight to fit into my wedding dress and then proceeded to gain it all back.
Now I'm feeling the urge to just shed it all. When I see pictures of myself I feel like they just don't look like me. I don't feel inside the way I look on the outside. I have energy and confidence and I want the outside to match. I want to wear the fashionable clothes that I can only look at in the stores and I want to maintain a healthy weight so that when we try to conceive next year I won't be a health risk. Motivation is not an issue for me, it's consistency. Right now I'm so motivated I'd shoot myself in the foot to suddenly be 125 lbs. It's the day to day discipline I lack...hopefully this journal will help me.
I joined eDiets yesterday which I feel was more of a rip-off than a helpful resource. We'll see how it pans out. I chose the glycemic impact diet because I like how it focuses on keeping blood sugar stabilized and the abundant amounts of fruit and vegetables. I feel as though I'm actually very educated about nutrition and have a good diet. A lot of whole, live foods. I occasionally however, will eat too much of one thing. If i make brownies, I'll just eat them all until they are gone. Once I allow myself to eat sugar I just want to keep eating it. Other than that, I attribute my lack of weight loss to my lack of excercise.
Thanks for reading day 1 of my journal...can't wait to write more!
In high school and college my weight really started to bother me. I started gaining much easier now that I was sitting and studying and watching movies all the time I started gaining weight much easier. And then there was the issue of dating. All my friends were very beautiful and slender and it was very tough being the one that guys didn't want. I ended up selling myself short and settling for guys that didn't treat me well. And then I met my wonderful husband who seemed to just see right through the fat suit from day one and has always called me his beautiful wife. I lost some weight to fit into my wedding dress and then proceeded to gain it all back.
Now I'm feeling the urge to just shed it all. When I see pictures of myself I feel like they just don't look like me. I don't feel inside the way I look on the outside. I have energy and confidence and I want the outside to match. I want to wear the fashionable clothes that I can only look at in the stores and I want to maintain a healthy weight so that when we try to conceive next year I won't be a health risk. Motivation is not an issue for me, it's consistency. Right now I'm so motivated I'd shoot myself in the foot to suddenly be 125 lbs. It's the day to day discipline I lack...hopefully this journal will help me.
I joined eDiets yesterday which I feel was more of a rip-off than a helpful resource. We'll see how it pans out. I chose the glycemic impact diet because I like how it focuses on keeping blood sugar stabilized and the abundant amounts of fruit and vegetables. I feel as though I'm actually very educated about nutrition and have a good diet. A lot of whole, live foods. I occasionally however, will eat too much of one thing. If i make brownies, I'll just eat them all until they are gone. Once I allow myself to eat sugar I just want to keep eating it. Other than that, I attribute my lack of weight loss to my lack of excercise.
Thanks for reading day 1 of my journal...can't wait to write more!
You will find what works for you. Sometimes you have to muddle through the things that DON'T work first. Keep writing in your journal and you will gets lots and lots of support. WELCOME!! 
