DiannaVM
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- Sep 22, 2015
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Sorry, I know I have been MIA for quite a while, but I am too excited now and after the month I have been having, I want to relish in the happiness as long as possible!
So last week was my birthday, and my family all decided to gift me with an AP to Disney. To say this was s surprise is an understatement (I live in the Bahamas, so going to Disney always means plane travel). Although I was happy at first, as the night dragged on I realized how counterproductive this gift was (btw the pass hasn't been purchased yet because we weren't sure if it activates the moment you purchase it or when you first use it). I nearly went back to them and told them to instead get me something else or give me the money to do some renovations to our condo.
I should point out that I am prone to anxiety and depression and have been having a hell of a time dealing with that for the last three weeks. It always gets to the point that I feel guilty about anything and everything because nothing is "perfect" and I get frustrated because I can't "fix" things, hence the depression. To make matters worse, a week ago I had to cough up a pretty penny on a co-pay for a week-long hospital stay (unrelated to the anxiety/depression) and then I went straight back to work and work was HELL. It was one of the most stressful weeks I have ever had, and all I could think of was "I am going to get fired" which in hindsight was a ludicrous thought, but you know, jerk brain was ruling at that point of time.
So over the weekend my sister was talking about a concert her and her friend are going to in Orlando in August. And the more we talked, the more I realized that this was the perfect excuse to use an AP. After not much deliberation I decided that all my worries about money, while I shouldn't just throw caution to the wind, is a momentary situation. My DH and I do a fairly good job at saving money, and we each have our own savings accounts as well with a decent amount. After all I have been going through, it just felt wrong to deny myself the opportunity to go. Eventhough all along I have been saving up for our Disney trip in February (I will be doing the Princess 10K), I have enough saved up that I can warrant taking a trip in August. Even if it means that I have to tighten up the purse strings by giving up buying lunch for myself during the week or passing up souvenir shopping when I get there. My main goal is to try and relax and take it easy.
So, I am going to Disney in August for five days. I will have an AP which thankfully means that I get to park hop (I never have before until last time when we purchased a park hopper for one day and it was AWESOME) and although I am technically going with my sister and her friend, they have their own plans and so I am going with the mindset that eventhough I might have to do alot by myself, it is a time to enjoy and mostly relax and de-compress. I have familiarized myself enough with the Disney property in the last two years I really don't even feel anxious about roaming the parks alone lol. And that says alot coming from me.
I can't wait!!!!
So last week was my birthday, and my family all decided to gift me with an AP to Disney. To say this was s surprise is an understatement (I live in the Bahamas, so going to Disney always means plane travel). Although I was happy at first, as the night dragged on I realized how counterproductive this gift was (btw the pass hasn't been purchased yet because we weren't sure if it activates the moment you purchase it or when you first use it). I nearly went back to them and told them to instead get me something else or give me the money to do some renovations to our condo.
I should point out that I am prone to anxiety and depression and have been having a hell of a time dealing with that for the last three weeks. It always gets to the point that I feel guilty about anything and everything because nothing is "perfect" and I get frustrated because I can't "fix" things, hence the depression. To make matters worse, a week ago I had to cough up a pretty penny on a co-pay for a week-long hospital stay (unrelated to the anxiety/depression) and then I went straight back to work and work was HELL. It was one of the most stressful weeks I have ever had, and all I could think of was "I am going to get fired" which in hindsight was a ludicrous thought, but you know, jerk brain was ruling at that point of time.
So over the weekend my sister was talking about a concert her and her friend are going to in Orlando in August. And the more we talked, the more I realized that this was the perfect excuse to use an AP. After not much deliberation I decided that all my worries about money, while I shouldn't just throw caution to the wind, is a momentary situation. My DH and I do a fairly good job at saving money, and we each have our own savings accounts as well with a decent amount. After all I have been going through, it just felt wrong to deny myself the opportunity to go. Eventhough all along I have been saving up for our Disney trip in February (I will be doing the Princess 10K), I have enough saved up that I can warrant taking a trip in August. Even if it means that I have to tighten up the purse strings by giving up buying lunch for myself during the week or passing up souvenir shopping when I get there. My main goal is to try and relax and take it easy.
So, I am going to Disney in August for five days. I will have an AP which thankfully means that I get to park hop (I never have before until last time when we purchased a park hopper for one day and it was AWESOME) and although I am technically going with my sister and her friend, they have their own plans and so I am going with the mindset that eventhough I might have to do alot by myself, it is a time to enjoy and mostly relax and de-compress. I have familiarized myself enough with the Disney property in the last two years I really don't even feel anxious about roaming the parks alone lol. And that says alot coming from me.
I can't wait!!!!
