Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks so much Kate, Amy and Tracey, I needed to hear that. It is very painful to have kids that struggle. DD has always had a hard time with school academically. But I can see that getting better with this smaller class. The curriculum is more back to basics, I think that will suit her better than the current way she is taught. Ds is very excited. He is ready to start at the new one. I had told him maybe he could take a couple of days off between gigs but he is raring to go at the new school. I can't remember the last time he felt this good about school.

And no Amy, I will not dig food out of the trash, there is too much puppy poop in there! And I have already told my family there will be a trashcan ceremony with any leftover cake. Too bad mom can't be trusted with leftover cake.

Food today, not so great AGAIN. But it was better and I drank a ton of water. I did not make WW as I had assumed I wouldn't. Didn't have enough time with the things I did with my mom. I did weigh myself and according to the scale am up two pounds. I can live with that. I am hoping to get on track this weekend. Normally not my best days to be good but I am tired of being off kilter. Enough already!

Tracey: Dh had his friend party (sounds like a little kid thing) and now Sunday is his real bday and my family is coming over. I told him he can't drink so much with my parents as he did with our friends! How come the Queen gets two bdays?

 

[traceycooper]

How come the Queen gets two bdays?

She has her 'official' one & actual private one...i think

I'm glad your DS is looking forward to going to the new school, when does he start?

I'm not good with food at the weekends either
Glad you not letting those 2 teeny lb's bother you


Hope DH has a great b/day tomorrow!
have the virtual cake its calorie free

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry for all of the stress that you have been under. Does your DS start at his new school this week? I will keep him in my thoughts and prayers.

You know what I say? Have a great time this weekend, eat what you like, and start over on Monday. I think it's great that you are keeping WW for you. So often, we do things for our families and others and forget to do things for ourselves. Good for you, Amy!

Have a wonderful weekend, WISH sis! I am praying for all of you!

 

[lovinaz]

That is awesome that DS is so excited about switching schools! And that will make DD even more excited as well. You made the right choice and your kids will be so much better off in the long run. Does this school go all the way through high school?

Weekends are rough for most people in the food department, especially with b-day parties thrown in the mix! But you CAN and you WILL get back on track. One of these days you will just have something kick on inside you and it will really jump start your motivation and hopefully keep you there for a while. I don't think you've reached that breaking point yet, but you will someday! Just keep on chugging along and don't sweat the small stuff. Remember, we are supposed to eat to live, not live to eat!

Have a wonderful celebration today and don't feel guilty about anything. You are still doing great!

 

[traceycooper]

wishing your DH a happy birthday
21 again??

 

[toystoryduo]

Hope you had a great weekend, WISH sis!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Saturday: Ate Mexican food for lunch but did not do too bad. I ordered a soft chicken taco and some rice. I did have some chips and salsa, maybe two servings worth (these chips were Tostitos I think). I drank ice tea, no margarita! Dinner was some baked chips and salsa and some veggies and lowfat dip. Did drink over 80 oz of water, two diet cokes and one ice tea. Feeling bloated again, probably because all of that food had a lot of salt in it. Hopefully it will flush out.

Today was dh's birthday, so I had the family over. I made a chicken casserole and I cut the butter from 3/4 cup to 2 TB. I also used ff sour cream so that helped out too. I served baked chips and a dip I don't much like and shrimp cocktail for snacks. I had one Coors Light and one piece of cake, with the frosting scraped off, without ice cream. The rest of the cake is going to dh's office tomorrow. I feel good that I made it through a special occasion without going overboard. I have not exercised all weekend, dh literally about broke my toe, he accidentally stepped on my foot, I cannot get a shoe on, its all bruised and the toenail is mostly ripped off. That will teach me to go barefoot when he's not! I am hoping tomorrow I can treadmill , I might just walk in my crocs or Teva's on the treadmill. He felt really bad and so did I(especially after I yelled at him but it hurt really bad), I have enough problems getting on the treadmill lately without this. I did walk on Friday. I was feeling back on track afterwards but then got my toe smashed. Anybody else feel like its always something?

I am taking ds tomorrow to meet his new teacher, he is excited. We went on Saturday and bought his uniforms, he looks pretty cute in them if I do say so. He says he wants to go to school (current school) on Tuesday to say goodbye to his teachers and clean out his stuff. I guess he'll start Wednesday, I am keeping my fingers crossed it all works out.

I am really making an effort to get to my WW meeting on Wednesday. I have some furniture I am consigning and the they are coming by to pick it up that day. I told dh fine, you set that day up, if they call and say they are coming during my WW time, plan on working from home to be here. He said fine. I also got a call from a friend wanting to take me to lunch that day to celebrate my birthday and even though I felt bad saying no, I did. We can always go another time, we've already had to cancel three times due to weather. I have to make this a priority or it will never happen. Its now or never I feel. No pressure there huh?

Tracy: I did have a good weekend. I am ready to start anew!

Tracey: Dh is 39 today, one more year before he joins me in the 40's!

Amy: I am hoping that the thing that kickstarts my weight loss efforts happens very soon! I have been stuffing down stress and feelings for so long, I guess I have just gotten a bit too good at it. Maybe its time to excel at something else!

 

[goldcupmom]

Wow, Amy! I'm so sorry things have been so wrong for your kids! But, I'm happy it looks like there is a good option. I'll be praying that the transition & new school go smoothly and are just what is needed.

It's so hard as mom to see your kids hurt. No one who has never experienced it can understand! Hang in there!!

I'm glad you decided to stay at WW. I've missed the last 2 weeks and seldom have time to go to a meeting, but just the knowledge that I'm accountable helps. Besides, maybe if it's a hard decision to stay due to the $$ it will be motivation to hurry up & make lifetime (I keep telling myself that anyway!)

Have a great week! I'm hoping that by the time I'm back from FL your DS will be settled and there will be good news!!

 

[lovinaz]

You made some really good food choices this weekend!

It's hard to really get motivated to lose weight when you've been at it for so long. But I know you will get to your goal weight someday. It won't happen overnight, but all these small victories (no frosting on the cake, getting rid of the leftover temptation) will all add up to you winning the war!

I hope you are able to make it to your meeting this week!

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi WISH sis,

How are you doing? Is your DS at his new school yet? How does he like it?

I hope you are having a great week!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Sorry to hear about your toe!! It sounds very painful, make sure you milk DH for it

Well done for being so good with your food
Cant wait to hear about DS's first day at school

 

[Amy&Dan]

Hello Wish Friends, I am sorry I havent' been around this week, I have a yucky intestional bug and its not fun. Good news is that I can't eat anything. Bad news is that the scales shows I have gained another two pounds (on top of the two I gained in the last two weeks). How is it possible to keep no food down for two days and be up two pounds? Oh well. I am hoping to feel better tomorrow or Thursday and go weigh in officially at WW. Sometimes my scale is very wacky so who knows how much I really weigh. Ds starts school tomorrow. He is very excited. I am excited for him but nervous too because of course I am a mom so I worry! I am also really hoping neither of my kids pick up this bug, thats the last thing they need right now since neither one of them can afford to miss school.

I have not walked but since I am sick not feeling guilty. The rest of my toenail came off so that made that feel better at least. Tracey, I should be milking this with dh but I guess since I literally screamed at him (with a ton of profanity I might add) I am letting him off the hook! If his toe looked mine he' d have to be hospitalized!

I also have to share that I have been coming to terms with a hurtful thing my sister did. She has always been the thin one and has never failed to remind any and all of this. Little sister is "big sister" as far as she is concerned. Anyway, several years ago she gave me a skirt for xmas. Way too small, it was so obvious that no way would I fit into it. It was very humiliating and not very nice since she made such a big deal out of it, telling me that "its huge, what do you mean it doesn't fit?". It still doesn't fit even after losing 25-30 pounds. This was four years ago. She shows up Sunday for dh's birthday with guess what, the same skirt! She had obviously bought two, its very unique, not my style, and just as small as the other one. I was shocked she would do this again. It was very hurtful since she and I have been much closer lately, I thought she was done with this type of thing. I have been very supportive of her and her boyfriend problems that never end, I'd like the same with my never ending weight problems! She also knows what I have been going through lately with my kids. My first thought was to begin to power eat and drink but I didn't (this was Sunday). I have thought a lot about it in the last two days in between being ill and miserable and have realized that this is the sort of thing that has in some ways gotten me where I am. Allowing myself to give in to other's hurtful comments and actions. Eating my way out of sadness and hurt. I was all set to return it to her with a nasty note but have now decided to save both of them, lose weight and then give them back to her someday with a "these ugly a** skirts are too big for me, maybe you can wear them"! I realize that life is always going to have its moments when it deals you a blow or a hurt and I can't keep using this stuff to be a crutch and an excuse! So that is my little sidenote/rant. Just had to share. Dh said consider the source, stepdad said she's pathetic and needs help! I think they are right! And those skirts are ugly!

 

[lovinaz]

I applaud you for taking the high road with your sister! Having any kind of reaction will just fuel her bad behavior. That's pretty sad that she has to act that way towards anyone, let alone her own family. I bet if your mom were 100% she'd whack her one!!

Your body is probably retaining water, trying to hold onto anything it can!! The good news is that those stomach bugs only last a couple days, your body just can't handle too many days of that experience. I hope you feel better soon.

How was DS's first day at school?

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Amy.

So sorry to hear you are not feeling well. Hopfully you start to feel better soon. I am also sorry to hear of the problems that both the kids are having. But it sounds like you made the right decision with your DS. Glad to hear that he is so excited to start. That is great!!!!

I am also sorry to hear about what your sister is doing. That is crummy and no good. I agree with Amy, it's too bad that she has to act that way towards anyone but to her own family is just terrible.

Keep your head up. I hope you start to feel better soon.

Stay warm!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Ds had a great day at school! He said all the kids were really nice. And he got a valentine from a cute girl. She was helping the teacher come up with a mid year supply list for my son the other day, I could tell she was checking him out and sure enough she presented him with a very sweet valentine welcoming him to his new school. I also got my day made when my son's p.e. teacher from the old school sent me the nicest email. Bascially saying that Matthew had been the best kid, always tried his best, always nice to everyone, inlcuding the little retarded boy many of the kids tormented. He told me that Matt would go far and how much he would miss him. It made me cry. I also got nice emails from all of his other teachers saying how much they would miss him. I received his grades up to date, all B's and a couple of A's. Even though they had fallen with the stress it was still a good report card. In a way its a shame to pull him when he was doing so well academically. He is woefully behind on math, apparently our stellar school district ain't so great after all! They don't allow him to use a calculator at the new school so that will be a change. But a good one in my book. I feel really good about things, I hope that this lasts!


Well day three of this bug and still no end in sight. I am feeling so wiped out I can barely function. But the good news is that I can't overeat. I guess something good comes of everything.

Amy: I was proud of my high road, it only took me 42 years of dealing with this kind of thing with my sister to accomplish that. And you are right, if my mom was herself she would have given my sister a tongue lashing at the very least! Dh did say she can just whistle for him to do some things around her house she wants done. He is more the passive agressive type!

Jamie: So good to see you! Nice weather again huh? It is sad when your own family treats you that way. Why it should surprise me I don't know. At my own wedding she was getting her digs in about my dress size. I feel bad that she is so unhappy.

 

[lovinaz]

Yay for DS's successful first day!!! That's nice that he got a Valentine! I already hate this "girlfriend" thing. DS10 has girls calling all the time and now he has a girlfriend he is ga-ga over. It's not going to be fun dealing with this! I just didn't think it would start until later...

That's nice that the teachers sent you those e-mails. Don't feel bad about switching schools because even though he was doing great academically, he was not doing great socially, which is just as important. He will excel at this new school too, you made the right choice!

I'm sorry to hear you still aren't feeling well. Could it be stress?

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Glad Ds's first day was a success
As for your sister - you know what they say - you can pick your friends, but your stuck with family!!!
Does she realise she had already given you the skirt?
If not i would tell her, maybe it would belittle her a bit & hit home how cruel she is being!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy!

I'm glad to hear that your DS had a great first day of school! That is wonderful news!

I'm sorry to hear that you are still not feeling well. Sending lots of get well your way. Hope you're feeling better soon!

Have a great weekend!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Still sick unfortunately. Spent Valentine's Day in the bathroom and asked dh and the kids to eat someplace far away from me. Its all about romance at this house, what can I say? I am not eating much, just trying to stay hydrated. I am really hoping this thing clears up soon and that nobody else comes down with it. I have quarantined myself from my parents since at their age with all of their health problems they don't need this. I feel bad, I know they miss me and I have let them down but it can't be helped. They understand.

Ds is still liking school very much. With only 16 kids in the whole middle school section they all apparently just hang out together. He loves wearing a uniform, go figure.

Thanks for reading and sending me good wishes to get well. If I can't lose some weight this week than something is seriously wrong!

Amy: I thought it was stress at first but now I think I either ate something that didn't agree with me or just have a whopper of a stomach bug.

Tracey: I reminded my sister she had given me that same skirt (it is the same skirt but slightly a differnt pattern). Frankly she can take her skirt and shove it as far as I am concerned. I am done cutting her slack. And again, this little stunt cost her since dh was all set to pay to have her carpet cleaned and do some other things for her. You reap what you sow. And above all she treats my mom so poorly that alone warrants very little in the way of consideration towards her when you get down to it.

Tracy: Thanks for the good wishes, I need them! I have so much to do, cancelled all kinds of appointments that need attending to. So getting well will be very nice when it happens.

 

[CACruisin']

I'm so sorry for falling behind on your journal. You have been going through so much right now It is so hard to see your kids hurting, but I'm really glad that DS likes his new school and they have been so welcoming. That will be such a relief for you to know that he is in a good place. Very sorry about the yucky stomach bug. There has been something nasty going around school here. One second grade class had 5 kids in attendance one day - 15 kids out sick! Here's that you will be feeling better soon and no one else in the family gets it. At least it is giving your toe some time to heal (looking for the silver lining here ...) As for DSis - you don't need that kind of stuff in your life right now. Maybe try and avoid interaction with her for the time being. You have enough other stuff going on without her own drama/pettiness. Know that your WISH sisters are always here for you to celebrate your successes and pick you up when you are feeling down.