Thank you Diane and Tracey, I really do feel like maybe I am at least beginning to grieve in a manner that is healing. The first few weeks between the shock and making all the arrangements, it was just plain hard to know how to feel. Thanks for your kind words!
So I woke up feeling a bit blue today. We had a nice weekend, I survived the pizza place, but skipped the movie. I had a splitting headache and realized I wasn't in the mood for a kids movie. So I had Dan drop me off at home and thought I would watch an adult movie, ALONE!!! Great idea, put in Mystic River. Bad idea, very depressing movie. I found it in my mom's things and knew aboslutely nothing about it, she had never opened it, no idea who gave it to her or when she bought it. I am glad she didn't watch it, it was very well done but again very depressing! Should have gone to the Spiderwyck Chronicles! I also ate two pieces of leftover pizza, I had only had one and a salad at the restaurant. So my food was pretty lousy (these were large pieces of pizza).
Fast forward to today and I just woke up feeling blah. Dan and I got to talking and somehow the subject of taking a trip to DL in April over the kids long weekend came up. This somehow evolved into "lets do WDW instead" for a longer trip (six nights). We have AP's, we had ff miles we have been trying to use to no avail and today was the the day because Frontier let us finally use them. The remaining two tickets came to just a tad over $400 and six nights at All Star Sports came to $572. So its a good price but when I think about how we are going for two weeks in late May into early June I have to laugh at myself! Oh well, there goes my tax return.
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I figure given what I have been through lately, what the heck? Life is short, dh has 4 weeks a year of vacation and we might as well use it because if we don't he loses it. So we now somehow have three trips to WDW planned for the next 8 months. I feel very happy about this and can't wait for all my friends to give me a hard time! Oh well, once ds starts high school in a year and half, we'll be lucky to get in one summertime trip. And the plan is to surprise the kids with this trip. I have always wanted to do that and never have. We'll see if I can keep this under wraps!
Food today was lousy! I didn't eat much all day due to my headache (have I mentioned I have had a migraine since Tuesday?) then boom, I "had" to have Taco Bell. Had three things, stayed within points but not a good choice. Oh well, it tasted good. I have done way better on veggies the last few days until today. Other than the scant amount of tomatoes and green onion on my nachos, I ate no veggies. And drank a sum total of 12 oz. of water. Not a good day, oh well, its over.
My plan tomorrow is to go to Curves at long last. Then stepdad and I are going to see his lawyer. Basically I have told him to nuke me out of his will and give everything to his sons. He wants me to go with him. Only in my family am I expected to accompany someone to cut me out of their will! All kidding aside, its only fair, his estate is very small, let the two jerks have their dad's assets, I got what I wanted from my mom which was mostly photos and knick knacks. Way more valueable than anything else. I sort of dread the process however since the last time I saw this attorney was to set up P.O.A. for my mom. Now she's gone and I dont' really relish going back there. Oh well, since stepdad is about deaf, somebody has to go and make sure he hears things properly.
So the weekend is over, I have managed to book a last minute trip I shouldn't be taking, eat pizza and Taco Bell and not exercise one minute. I am hopeful to be a bit more on point with my food and exercise this week!
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But I also drank two large glasses of water and just chilled with my friends so that was good.
for the Lawyer visit. I can relate!!
I'm glad you did what felt right for you! 
