Advice???

[disneedust1429]

I feel like i whine a lot on here. /: sorry bout this. but i need advice...

so, this guy i used to date, i used to really like him. like a lot. if u will... ikinda almost sort of loved him. and i miss him so much.

problem is, i have a bf. for 4 months. and i told my bf im over my ex, but secretly im still kind of in love with him.

our breakup was really bad, and i wish we could talk and be togther, even just as friends. i miss him, and wish we hadnt ended so badly.

so, my ex has been having some problems. he started doing drugs. And i feel like i could help if i could talk to him, but im afraid of whats gonna happen. Me and him didnt end on the right foot, and lets just say last time we talked and i was trying to say sorry for everything and that i hoped we could atleast be friends, he told me to leave him alone, and since i cant put down what he said here, lets just say he said some not so nice things.

i want to make up with him, and ik we could never be tgether, but i feel like we couldve made it work. I just want to be able to talk to him andbe his friend & help him. ik it wont be like it used to be, but i want to help him again, and b thr for him again.

I feel like it may be over between us and we both partly moved on, but im still holding on to what he said last time we had a conversation, when he said he'll always love me no matter what happens, even if we both move on he'd still love me, even if we can only be friends.

i saw my friend post this && i thought of my ex... kinda made me realize somethin /: "Some people are meant to fall in love with eachother..
but not mean to be together ♥"

I just feel like he'll always be a part of me still... idk /:

thoughts??? advice??? criticism on how im a bad gf??? idk.... just need some help on this /:

 

[softball chick]

Ok first of all I really don't think you deserve any "criticism" for being a bad girlfriend. How long has it been since you last talked to your ex? Because form what you said, it sounds like what the two of you need for any chance of a friendship is time. Give the whole situation time to, for lack of a better word, "blow over" and then perhaps after you both have had time to "cool off" and think things over, then it might be time for you to reach out and try to talk to you ex.