I have a nursey question for you...Do you know much about Infusion for RA peeps? Do you know peeps who have/are getting it? Is it working? How are they tolerating it?
I am going to "rant" for a few minutes here, so please humor me...
I was moved from a moderate to a Severe level for my RA last week. this is playing havoc with my mental health. Going through a lot of guilt right and feeling like a bit of a burden to my family. The methotrexate which I thought was doing good ended up not so good. It seems I was just having a "good week" when I thought it was working, because then it all blew up in my face. I have been having one of the worst flares that I have ever had over the past 5 weeks. I have not been able to work because my job requires typing for 8-9 hours a day and I can only do about 15-20 minutes of it and then my hands start to hurt so bad, I have to stop. When I went for my apt last week, the Doc was a bit shocked at how swollen my hands were. She said I looked like I removed the Incredible Hulks hands and replaced mine with his. Up until this last visit, always seemed like when I would go in to the doc, the swelling was pretty well controlled. This was the first they had actually seen them at their worst and what I was dealing with. They say it takes any where from 6 weeks to 3 months before Methotrexate really shows if it will work or not ( I have been on it for 7 weeks now), but when they saw what I was dealing with, they decided that they were NOT going to wait out the full 3 months. If I didn't see any improvement in a max of 2 weeks, they were going to look at Infusion. They already did blood work, chest x-ray, and TB test to prepare for Infusion and I am waiting for a call because they want to repeat MRI's on my hands and are getting approval from the insurance company. Once all that is done, I will be starting the infusions. My first apt is 10/14 for it unless something comes back on the tests that would prevent it. I have to admit it has been a VERY rough month for me. I think it may be finally sinking in that this is something that I am going to be dealing with the rest of my life. Infusion is scaring the crap out of me. I am such a hard stick for blood work let alone IVs... Those are a nightmare even with the Ultrasound machines they use now. I have been discussing doing a port-a-cath, but am afraid that I will go through all of that and then the infusion won't work either and then it will be all for null, but I keep going back to DREADING the IV's for the infusions. I also am having horrid memories of the only other experience I have had with IV drip drugs and that was my chemo and I know they are not the same, but, when I read all the material on the 3 medications they are considering,(Humira, Remicade,Rituxan) and 2 of the 3 seem to be used to treat cancer as well, my mind keeps slipping into this mad circle that it will be like chemo. Is it really worth it?
Am really trying to find people who are experiencing this or know people who are. Wanting to hear if people are having success with infusion and what quality of life,if any, it returns them to. I know no one personally who has experienced this and in truth, until they started talking to me about it, didn't even know what it was or that it was a treatment for RA. Trying to find some peace of mind that even trying it is worth the pain of the IV.