7/21/05
9:50am
--1 light 'n fit cup
--1/2 cup rocks & twigs
--22 cherries
--1 soy burger patty
--1 pkt ketchup
--12 oz light juice
Again a late breakfast. I was feeling a little groggy when I got up, so I went and logged in to work, then went out and got a good walk. Now I'm back and cleaned up and ready to get on with the day.
I'll be making all of the toffee bars today. Should be interesting. I'm hoping I can just do two double batches and be done with it. It's really a pretty simple recipe.
I think there's bunco tonight, and I'm pretty sure I agreed to go. I think I've pretty much mastered getting out of there without overating, but now it's just getting tedious. At least I officially dropped from being a regular to being an alternate in both groups so I only have to go when I feel like it.
1:00pm
--1/4 portion cha cha cheeseball dip
--1 pkt South Beach crackers
--2 cups low carb juice
1:30pm
--2 low carb tortillas
--1 cup chicken breast
--2 T light ranch
--10 grape tomatoes
I think today's going to be a bit of a challenge. I'm really feeling the desire to overeat, and to be eating constantly. I'm trying to work through it with water, lots of protien/fat, staying busy, and telling myself that it will pass. I'm definitely struggling, though.
3:00pm
--1 T. semi-sweet chocolate
--3 butter pecan bars
This snack was brought to you by my cooking snafus.
I had this grand plan that I was going to melt some chocolate chips and drizzle them over the bars--just a little something to make them look nice. Well, once I got the chocolate metled it wouldn't drizzle--I think I may have overheated it but I wasn't sure. So, I thought I'd try to fix it by adding a tablespoon of milk into the chocolate. That set something off, because the chocolate instantly solidified into this grainy clump--almost like a very dry fudge. So, while playing while melting the chocolate and dealing with the clump, I probably ate about 1T of chocolate. The rest has gone into the trash, a failed cooking experiment. The bars will just have to go bare.
As for the bars, I didn't notice until I was halfway through cutting and plating the bars that the pan that was on the bottom rack had burned partially on the bottoms. The outer edges were dark, but not burnt, but the middle had burnt and carmelized a little. So, I had to test the almost-burnt to make sure they were OK

(they were fine). Then I realized I could probably scrape off most of the burn on the borderline bars, so I set to work on that, and of course I had to test those to make sure they were OK

(they were also fine). The third one I just ate because it was there. Oh well. At least I have the calories to cover it. All in all I only lost a dozen, which isn't too bad. The next round I'll have to do them one at a time. I don't want to risk losing any more of them!
6:30pm
--1/2 9" thin Thai chicken pizza
--Mesquite chicken salad
The salad sounded OK when I ordered it, but really wasn't that great when I got it. It wasn't the restaurant's fault--there was nothing really "wrong" with the salad, it just wasn't what I was expecting. I'm still trying to out maneuver the constant need to eat.
8:45pm
--1 pecan chocolate bar
--1 cup milk
I'm actually feeling pretty content right now. I hope not to eat again before bed. I got the last of the bars plated tonight. Tomorrow is lemon poppyseed mini bundt cakes, fresh blueberry muffins, and mini pineapple upside down cakes. They get delivered at about 7-7:30 Saturday morning.
I went to the driving range with DH tonight. Usually I'm not much of a joiner and don't go with him, but I figured going would be better than sitting around the house trying not to eat. He seemed really happy I went with him--maybe sometimes I underestimate how much it means to him for me to share activities with him. Something to keep in mind.