Boy Guys!
I loved reading about our sailaway... I WAS RIGHT THERE! I would LOVE to help with holding up the banner!
I have a request for all of you prayer warriors out there...

This Saturday I have to take a Civil Service exam. As a 12 year State of NJ employee, I've taken my share of these things, BUT this one is different. Due to falling through many cracks in the antiquated system, I must now take an exam for 2 titles down from the work I have been doing for the past 3-5 years. After managing a new project for the past 3 years, and passing the Manager test, and winning Civil Service appeals, the Dept of Personnel decided I shouldn't have been allowed to take the Manager exam. When they got to my name, they requested my name be removed from the official list... and it was. Yes, I am still doing that job, but a new PM has been brought in so the team looks balanced on paper.
I havenot programmed in 7 years, and have been told that this test is designed for programmewr/analysts. Those in the group who I've been supervising will be taking the same test along with me.
I guess the humiliation

everyday, of coming into work, with everyone knowing I've been taken off the list, and must now take an entry test after being consumed with project planning, deadlines, personnel, etc. (I've been there 12 years, and now due to reg changes, and title consolidations, I must take and pass this test)
It's just been so tough. I've been so upset over this,

I stayed home today in bed, with my heart racing like I've just run a marathon... totally wiped out. Yjese past 6 months have taken their emotional toll. I'm feelling better now, but the mountain on Saturday sure looks big to me!
Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. Poor Joe (DH) hates to see me so upset. I'd really like to quit, but with retirement and pension 6-7 years away, it's just not realistic. Thanks for letting me ramble...

and thanks for your prayers and your support!
Georgie