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[crazee4mickey]

I am so glad you had a wonderful night with your family and it sounds like you are ready to fight a good fight with whatever is lurking...hugs and prayers to you!

 

[lucyanna girl]

It's 3:05 a.m. here - I just came in from a campfire - and I'm having a bowl of cereal as I type this.. Has my energy returned? No.. Has my appetite returned? No.. But a little girl's request has put everything in back into perspective for me..

Earlier this evening, a group of neighbors decided they were going to have a really big campfire tonight - drag out the kareoke machine - and of course, invited me to join them.. At first I wasn't going to go - I was just going to go to bed early because I have been so exhausted and so cold all day long.. But then my DGD came in - and asked if I would please try to go if "Daddy" helped me over there, "Mommy" made coffee for me and put it in a travel mug, and she carried my chair cushions and let me "borrow" her Disney Princess blanket from their travel trailer.. Well - how can a "Grandma" say "no" to that? Made up my mind right then and there that I was going to go - even if I had to crawl over there and lay down on the ground in frontof the campfire - and having "fun" with my family and neighbors was suddenly waaaay more important than going to bed early.. (Heck - whatever time I do get to sleep doesn't matter anyhow because I don't have anywhere I need to be..)

So - I put on 3 pairs of socks, 2 pair of jogging pants, a tee shirt, long sleeve flannel shirt, zip-up hoodie sweatshirt, flannel jacket, and told my DGD to go get "Mommy & Daddy".. The look on her face was worth every ounce of energy it took for me to get ready and I'm so glad I went! I really, really had fun - even took a shot at singing kareoke (poor wildlife probably moved much further up into the mountains due to my "wonderful" singing voice).. Under "normal" circumstances, kareoke is something I never would have done, but again - it was at the request of my DGD and I just couldn't say "no" to doing something with her yet again..

Now I'm sitting here thinking.. It doesn't really matter what the doctor says when she calls on Monday.. Whatever this problem is, worrying about it and being scared is not going to change a single thing.. I can't change the "situation" - but I can change my attitude.. So - I'm going on the "attack".. Push me and I'm going to push right back.. Trying to drag me down? Gonna have to catch me first! Think I'm going to be robbed of having fun? Think again!! I'm putting on the gloves and coming out fighting.. Knock me down and I'm going to get right back up again..

I learned two very important lessons tonight.. Having fun - and getting angry enough to fight back - brings out what little energy I have left - and I'm going to use both of those emotions to my fullest advantage..

I may be wiped out tomorrow, but I had a heck of a time tonight!

"Whatever" is lurking out there - go ahead and take your best shot! I'm ready!!

Thanks again for the continued thoughts, prayers, and words of encouragement.. You're a great bunch here..

This is called Making Memories at our house.

As I said before, you are one of those I most admire here. Posts like this are the reason why. My prayers are with you.



Penny

 

[Banshee]

Oh no! I will be praying for you and thinking of you and wishing hard the Dr. doesn't call and say that disgusting dirty word!!

 

[C.Ann]

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[Daxx]

I can't change the "situation" - but I can change my attitude.. So - I'm going on the "attack".. Push me and I'm going to push right back.. Trying to drag me down? Gonna have to catch me first! Think I'm going to be robbed of having fun? Think again!! I'm putting on the gloves and coming out fighting.. Knock me down and I'm going to get right back up again..

I learned two very important lessons tonight.. Having fun - and getting angry enough to fight back - brings out what little energy I have left - and I'm going to use both of those emotions to my fullest advantage..

I may be wiped out tomorrow, but I had a heck of a time tonight!

"Whatever" is lurking out there - go ahead and take your best shot! I'm ready!!

Good for you C.Ann!!!! I am happy that you're taking this new attitude!!!! You go out and fight the good fight my friend!!! Don't let ANYTHING stop you! Whoop it up and enjoy all that you can!!!!! Carpe diem!!!!!

I vote keep your DD around ... I think you need your DGD to help you feel great about things. It sounds like her sparkle is rubbing off on you now!!! It's amazing what little kids can do!!!

 

[huckster]

ask your daughter what she thinks.glad to see you had a good sleep.embrace the day

 

[Goofyzgurl]

Great attitude that you have and we'll keep you in our prayers!

 

[luvtogo12]

Great attitude...way to go!

 

[luvindisneyworld]

Glad to see the Great attitude.
I can speak from a Daughters stand point.If you were my DM I would not being going anywhere.I would wait and be with you for the test results.

 

[micki7337]

Hi C.Ann. I'm sorry you are going through this but know that you can do anything if you set your mind to it. Whatever the doctor tells you will be easier to deal with then sitting and wondering what if...

As for your DD, don't ask her to leave. What could she possible get done at home waiting for your call? She needs to be with you to maintain her own sanity by making certain you are okay.

I was sitting in the your exact place 18 months ago. I know too well how hard it is waiting for that appointment. But I survived the diagnosis, all the tests and treatments, and the side effects because a few things kept me sane. Early on in my diagnosis, someone on the Dis wrote, 'Don't bleed til you've been shot.' and as silly as that sounds, it's completely true. I never made it any worse than what it was - whether it was my diagnosis, how I felt, or what lousy things I was in for. And no matter what, I tried to find humor in it all. I realized humor was my way of making it easier for those around me to deal with my treatment and somehow it made it easier for me too.

So much of your ability to heal yourself is your atttitude. I know you have tons of friends on the Dis that will stand behind you with words of wisdom and encouragement. Please feel free to include me in that group and PM me if you ever need to talk.


Margie

 

["Got Disney"]

Glad also that your spirits are up and that you were able to get a good rested sleep you have many hugs and prayers here from people that care....remember to take that to bed with you every night....

Have a great day......

 

[4nana]

Hi C.Ann. I'm sorry you are going through this but know that you can do anything if you set your mind to it. Whatever the doctor tells you will be easier to deal with then sitting and wondering what if...

As for your DD, don't ask her to leave. What could she possible get done at home waiting for your call? She needs to be with you to maintain her own sanity by making certain you are okay.

I was sitting in the your exact place 18 months ago. I know too well how hard it is waiting for that appointment. But I survived the diagnosis, all the tests and treatments, and the side effects because a few things kept me sane. Early on in my diagnosis, someone on the Dis wrote,
'Don't bleed til you've been shot.' and as silly as that sounds, it's completely true. I never made it any worse than what it was - whether it was my diagnosis, how I felt, or what lousy things I was in for. And no matter what, I tried to find humor in it all. I realized humor was my way of making it easier for those around me to deal with my treatment and somehow it made it easier for me too.

So much of your ability to heal yourself is your atttitude. I know you have tons of friends on the Dis that will stand behind you with words of wisdom and encouragement. Please feel free to include me in that group and PM me if you ever need to talk.


Margie

Excellent post Margie ! I'm glad you're a survivor and doing well.


C.Ann, good to hear you got a good night's rest....that always helps clear the mind and increases the energy level . Can't speak for your DD, but I know w/o a doubt I wanted to be there for my Mom when she got her test results call and I know my DD's would want to be there for me.

I feel there is nothing more important than being there for your loved ones in their time of need, having that shoulder to lean on and sounding board to listen. As you can well testify, lots of things get put on the back burner when you're facing a family health crisis and we simply do what we need to do. You've always been there for her, now let her return the favor.

Keep your chin up, think positive and keep the faith ^i^

 

[Rootskate]

Sending lots of prayers and good thoughts your way.

 

[minniecarousel]

Hope you're feeling OK this evening, C.Ann. I hope your DD is still there with you. I really think you'll need her tomorrow - no matter what. Stay strong.

 

[kejoda]

C.Ann I'm so sorry your going through this. Major hugs and prayers.

 

[Fairy Dust]

I do hope you are on the mend soon C.Ann. Good thoughts coming your way and a cyber !

 

[OceanAnnie]

I knew you were a fighter, C.Ann! You are amazing! I hope the call tomorrow is for the best situation it can be, with a good prognosis and easily treatable. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[HERSEY]

My vote would be to let your DD stay with you. She may need to more than you need her too. I pray tomorrow bring good news and renewed strength. I wish I could be so strong in waiting.

 

[rockin_rep]

I'm praying soo much for you!!!

Remember, it COULD be nothing! Or some 'fluke' type thing -- there are so many odd things that can happen to our bodies that DO mimic serious illness but are totally managable.

And remember too, NOTHING is impossible with GOD!!
And the amazing science / doctors he inspires!!

You are one of the dearest dissers c. ann, apparently MANY of us agree!
Hang in there, you are loved!!

 

[ptrbryant]

I know you've had plenty of these responses already, but here's another one for you. I've known you for so long from the DIS and have just recently discovered this thread. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

Karla B.