The crew and I went out to eat tonight and had a little family conference. The boys, my wife, and I agreed that we would go on a 4 day cruise in December or January in lieu of Christmas gifts. After that, we'll re-evaluate whether we go on the April cruise as a family or whether my wife and I go on the repositioning cruise alone. We've applied deposits to both, so we have some time to make a decision.
To be clear, my guilt was around possibly breaking a promise I made - to take my boys on a cruise. Eventually, I would've taken them, but upon reflection, I don't think I can go on the PC cruise without first fulfilling my promise.
I have no guilt over going on a 2 week vacation with my wife while the children stay with extended family. As I mentioned, my wife is a stay at home mom, and she homeschools. Also, we both teach various childrens' activities at church (AWANA, Mission Friends, VBS, and sometimes Sunday school) in which our kids are involved. I'm rather peculiar over who watches the kids; we won't go out alone unless they're with someone in our real family or church family. My wife has an MBA, so we've "sacrificed" for this privelege. (Frankly, I view my wife staying at home not as a sacrifice but rather a blessing.)
I firmly believe a strong marriage leads to a strong family and that a strong marriage is readily supported by spouses taking the time to focus on one another from time to time. We also believe in leaning on our church family as individuals, as a couple, and as a family for accountability and support.
Coming full circle, the decision, I think, is fully compatible with an issue we're trying to address in our family - materialism. Last Christmas, both our boys developed an unhealthy desire for things. Though a cruise is a luxury, it is not a thing that will be broken, forgotten, or outgrown. Rather I think it will be remembered for a long time to come.
After our short cruise in December, I may decide to never cruise without the boys again. Regardless, I will always plan and look forward to 1 week away per year with my wife.
This has been a good discussion. Thanks, everyone, for your tupence.
Sam