Evening Angelrose - know it sounds strange to say but I am glad you are going through all these stages. It is just fine to be angry, lonely, feel the need to be alone, yet miss those around you so much.
Trust me, about this time last year I would never have known that I would experience it too, but God had other ideas!
I was set to retire from teaching last December and enjoy retirement with my husband. Needless to say I am on my way back for my 33rd yr, determined to make this a great year for my students, my family and myself. I am learning that life does go on, that like you and many others, I have many valuable experiences to have, and so much to offer others.
Chell has offered some great ideas to keep your mind occupied -this is truly what you need most, less time to dwell and more activities to keep you moving. You'll come to understand that as I did. Think of all the wonderful things you have to offer others!
Just wanted to stop by and say hello -thinking of you!