and it was a "bust".. 
While we both managed to cut down considerably on the number of cigarettes we smoked each day, I guess "cold turkey" just wasn't in the cards for us this weekend - and I honestly have to say that "the buddy system" was NOT a good idea..
DD was having some issues she was struggling with and it made for a very stressful environment for both of us.. It seemed to be one thing right after another: her sudden irrational fear of the many, many SEVERE thunderstorms we had this weekend; a surprise weekend guest from the job she's leaving (who went on and on and on about how "hard" it was going to be on DD's "girls" when she left and how there was "NO one" for the agency to replace her with; etc.); a surprise visit from DD's MIL - who immediately jumped right in her face and wanted to know WHY she was still smoking (in the nastiest of tones, I might add); a surprise visit from my sister (the one who suddenly lost her DH the end of February) who was just short of being hysterical because she was supposed to have a garage sale that weekend and she couldn't bear watching people walk away with her DH's things (so the choice was overdose on pills or come up to the lake and cry on my shoulder); the boat that my son-in-law was finally able put in at the launch during a brief period of no rain on Sunday afternoon (with DD, her friend and my granddaughter in it) that would NOT start AFTER they began to float away; and well...you get the gist.. It was the weekend from you-know-where..
So - we try again.. Only this time I'm going to do it on my own and when DD feels she's ready again, she can do it on her own as well..
If I'm able to juggle around some appointments, I plan on spending the entire week of June 7th up to the lake - from Monday (well actually late Sunday night) until the kids come back up late Friday night all alone and I think if I can get those 5 days under my belt, I'll be okay..
I'm very disappointed - but I will NOT give up.. I don't care how many times I have to try; where I have to go; or what arrangements I have to make so I can be alone.. I will do this - but it's clear from what went on this past weekend that the "buddy system" will never work for me - nor will it work for me when there are a ton of people around..
Sorry I don't have better news to report.. I feel like I let you all down after all of the great encouragement you gave me..
While we both managed to cut down considerably on the number of cigarettes we smoked each day, I guess "cold turkey" just wasn't in the cards for us this weekend - and I honestly have to say that "the buddy system" was NOT a good idea..
DD was having some issues she was struggling with and it made for a very stressful environment for both of us.. It seemed to be one thing right after another: her sudden irrational fear of the many, many SEVERE thunderstorms we had this weekend; a surprise weekend guest from the job she's leaving (who went on and on and on about how "hard" it was going to be on DD's "girls" when she left and how there was "NO one" for the agency to replace her with; etc.); a surprise visit from DD's MIL - who immediately jumped right in her face and wanted to know WHY she was still smoking (in the nastiest of tones, I might add); a surprise visit from my sister (the one who suddenly lost her DH the end of February) who was just short of being hysterical because she was supposed to have a garage sale that weekend and she couldn't bear watching people walk away with her DH's things (so the choice was overdose on pills or come up to the lake and cry on my shoulder); the boat that my son-in-law was finally able put in at the launch during a brief period of no rain on Sunday afternoon (with DD, her friend and my granddaughter in it) that would NOT start AFTER they began to float away; and well...you get the gist.. It was the weekend from you-know-where..
So - we try again.. Only this time I'm going to do it on my own and when DD feels she's ready again, she can do it on her own as well..
If I'm able to juggle around some appointments, I plan on spending the entire week of June 7th up to the lake - from Monday (well actually late Sunday night) until the kids come back up late Friday night all alone and I think if I can get those 5 days under my belt, I'll be okay..
I'm very disappointed - but I will NOT give up.. I don't care how many times I have to try; where I have to go; or what arrangements I have to make so I can be alone.. I will do this - but it's clear from what went on this past weekend that the "buddy system" will never work for me - nor will it work for me when there are a ton of people around..
Sorry I don't have better news to report.. I feel like I let you all down after all of the great encouragement you gave me..
Since then I get an occasional craving but it gets easier as time goes on.
