Hello everyone.
**WARNING...NOVEL BELOW!**
I think I posted in this thread, or one of the older threads, a couple of years back. This is my 4th round of weight loss (3rd time with Weight Watchers) and I think I'm finally ready for it to stick. It sounds weird, but I think before I mentally wasn't in a place where I was ready to accept that this (portion control, being diligent, etc.) is just how it's going to have to be.
First round of Weight Watchers was...15 years ago, maybe? Sometime in high school. The women in my family have already been pretty focused on weight loss (calling them "obsessed" seems too strong a word

) and while I don't remember how much I weighed or how much I lost during that first round, I have to think it couldn't have been more than 10 pounds or so. But my mom went to WW and wanted me to go, so I did.
Round 2 was NOT with Weight Watchers, it was through a nutritionist at work (I work at a hospital) in early 2009. I was definitely in denial about how much I weighed but figured that it wouldn't hurt to lose a few pounds for my upcoming wedding. I'd been avoiding the scale for years, and at my first appointment I was shocked to see I was a little over 28 pounds over the maximum healthy weight for my height.

I'd thought it was more like 10 pounds! From there I followed a regiment that included lots of fruits and veggies, very few carbs, and no desserts (per the nutritionist's plan). I lost 21 pounds in about 5 months, and once the wedding and honeymoon were over, so was this new way of eating for me. Looking back, I knew I'd never stick with it - it just wasn't realistic for me to eat like that forever.
Round 3 of weight loss was with Weight Watchers At Work, which I started in early 2012. By then I'd gained back 12 of the pounds I'd lost for the wedding. Following the plan was super easy for me, and I lost 20 pounds in just under 4 months - probably should have went for Lifetime status at this point but didn't for some reason. I hit my lowest weight in September of that year (27 pounds lost from when I started Weight Watchers, almost 36 pounds lost from that first weight I saw on the scale at the nutritionist's office in 2009. I'd asked my primary care doctor - who has never told me to lose weight - for a number to shoot for and she said 8 pounds under the max weight for me height - and this was it!). But I remember not even being happy about it. All I remember is a nagging voice in the back of my head saying, "you know you won't stick with this. You know you'll gain the weight back."

Maybe that's why I hadn't gone for Lifetime status yet - I just wasn't ready.
I stayed signed up for Weight Watchers but stopped trying right after I hit that low weight. I was training for Marathon Weekend in WDW and knew I'd gain a few pounds...but I also stopped tracking. So while I was still in Weight Watchers for all of last year, I didn't try at all (a lot of that was cockiness on my part, I think - that I didn't NEED to try anymore), and slowly the weight crept back on. I was back up to what I'd been at my wedding, which was 15 pounds more than that low weight I'd briefly hit in the fall of 2012.
It sounds like some of you have great meetings, but I'd become disenchanted with mine awhile ago (part of it was the leader, I think, but I also don't agree with the mentality that you can never have dessert or "bad" foods or whatever - isn't that what makes Weight Watchers work for so many people?! - and that's what my meetings were like at work), so when the last session ended in the beginning of May I decided to sign up for 3 months of Weight Watchers Online. Hooray for work paying for it!
It's been going pretty well so far. I really like having the app a lot, and I LOVE weighing in at home. I started on Monday, May 19 and my weigh-in day is Thursday (which I'm used to from going to the meetings for 2 years).
My first two weeks were great: Thursday 5/22 was a lose of 2.6 pounds.

Thursday, 5/29 was a loss of 2.2 pounds

...
...then I went to my cousin's bachelorette party on Saturday.

Then the next day I just ate whatever I thought would cure how I felt from the bar hopping!

So on Monday morning I was definitely UP. Like, 3 pounds. It's so discouraging that one evening + one day of not great choices can set me back like that.
But the good news is, I had my little pity party and got right back on track. I've been reading through this thread - all 201 pages! - for the past week or so, and it really helped me to see some of you have a similar issue, and then just get back to it and get back to losing. So thank you for posting so honestly! I still think I'll see a gain tomorrow, but at least I know why it will be there...and I know it'll be gone soon.
I've always been really good with the exercise (currently have a few more races - Disney and non-Disney - on my calendar, plus I strength train)...it's purely portion control and having everything in moderation that have been tough for me. I'm hoping that this will be the time it finally sticks.
Sorry for writing so much!!! I guess this is what happens when I stop going to the meetings.
TL/DR; it's my 3rd go-round with Weight Watchers and hopefully my last. Looking forward to chatting with all of you!
