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On a personal note - I could use a hug and pixie dust here.
For a long time now I've been asking for an opportunity that better suits my skill set at work (I'm a software engineer, and this job is for actuarial analysts) and have been told there is plenty of work in the team I want to move to. Over the last month I was moved in the opposite direction, I've was "temporarily loaned" to a support group to cover for vacations. The person I was covering for however quit right after returning from his vacation. I now find myself stressed by the work demands and and bullied beyond belief by the manager there with no way out.
From what my own manager tells me, everyone in this company lives in fear of this manager as she has the ear of the top dog at the company and runs to him with every issue regarding people. I asked earlier this week to be removed from this project when I realized just how bad my anxiety was getting, but as they don't have a replacement for me I'm not going to be moved until I get back from vacation at the end of the month ...
at the earliest.
After a night and morning of worry, I have decided my mental health is worth more than anything and have my resignation letter written and ready to send. Only two things are stopping me: 1) I have no alternate job lined up, and the time to find one may take months; and 2) Despite not being in the perfect role for my skills, I was doing well and had high hopes for the switch over to the team that would use my knowledge and skills properly. I thought just by writing the letter and outlining my feelings would help diffuse the situation, but I think it's made it worse... I'm very ready to press send on that email, but will give it one more work day to see if it gets any better.
The one saving factor I keep reminding myself of is that I am in control of whether I choose to stay or leave, not the bullying manager. My 16 yo son says she needs to attend anger management classes. That made my day... LOL. I love my son's way of thinking. Think I'll put a sticky on my monitor to remind me of how ridiculous she's being.