Selina -- it was out of anger...I'm not really that coldhearted. I was just in a bad mood and was fuming and saying things I didn't mean. No, I would have still rather gone to Universal, but not to be a b!tch...I didn't know my cousin...it's just like someone I read in the news paper. I'm saddened by it...but...I only feel bad b/c of how it will affect my aunt. It's the same thing as my cousins on my dad's side of the family...they didn't even come for my brother's funeral because they didn't know him that well. Not one single cousin came...out of 8. All their parents came.
And believe me, I don't want to be around the crying people...brings back horrible memories...I'll feel like I'm at a repeat of my brother's own funeral...I shudder at the thought. I don't know, it's really hard to explain Selina...it's not meant to be such a cruel statement.