Ugh, disgusted with myself

[dakcp2001]

We are headed to Disney soon (yay!) and in preparation for the HOT weather I started pulling out all of my summer clothes.(boo) Somehow over the last year, I have managed to gain a significant amount of weight. I know how it happened, I have a lot of excuses for the why, but the HOW is easy. I stopped eating right and I became a couch potato. I feel and look terrible. I can't believe I let it get this bad. Now I am worried about comfort and feeling comfortable on this trip. I don't even feel like anything looks presentable. I'm having a huge pity party over here. I popped into a consignment store to pick up some clothes. They didn't have much, but I just can't drop a ton on a whole new wardrobe and I don't want to be wearing it long. Im so disgusted, Im not sure I can wait until after the trip to watch what Im eating. At least Ill get a lot of walking, but when I get back, I NEED to join a gym. I NEED to find the time and energy somehow. I cannot live like this. I typically wear baggy clothes at work and they have gotten snug, not sure why it took until today to have a near nervous breakdown with the reality in the mirror. Sorry to rant, I just needed to vent.

 

[sharona]

Been there and totally understand where you're coming from. I joined weight watchers about 3 weeks before my trip after trying on my summer clothes and finding I'd gained at least 10 lbs. on top of the already 20 extra I was carrying around before that. So far I have lost about 8 lbs. even with a 10 day vacation smack in the middle of it. All the walking definitely helped. I also ate what I wanted while we were away but I didn't eat the whole thing if it was something unhealthy. Half a Main St. bakery cinnamon roll is just as delicious! Now that you've recognized that you want to get in shape, just the fact that you will be aware of what you're eating will make a difference.

Also - there are some very supportive threads in the WISH forum on eating right and exercising - not just dieting. Enjoy your vacation!!!

 

[Happy Snowman]

How soon is the trip? Can you start walking now to get ready for the trip and to lose weight? Have you had a physical lately and especially had your thyroid checked just to make sure there isn't something medically causing your fatigue and weight gain?

...says the person who was doing really well with my weight loss.....and then stalled out...I get it...

 

[dakcp2001]

We are leaving Monday. I actually just had my thyroid medicine bumped up to the next dose but I haven't filled it yet. For me the fatigue is because I work swing shift. Some overnights and some days. I tried a dayshift job for 3 months this past year and it was not a good fit for me. I missed the floor nursing and went back to my former position which is 12 hour shifts, three nights a week. For incentive pay I pick up extras which are usually weekend days. I had a knee injury last year which is when I stopped exercising completely, for no good reason really. And I never went back to it.

 

[DisneyLuver2013]

I'm sorry, hon! Been there before.

My advice is just to not worry about how you look while your on vacation! I know, easier said than done...

You're there to have fun, and that is all that matters. Everyone else is there to have fun as well and no one will care about what you're wearing. Just go and have fun!!!

 

[Happy Snowman]

We are leaving Monday. I actually just had my thyroid medicine bumped up to the next dose but I haven't filled it yet. For me the fatigue is because I work swing shift. Some overnights and some days. I tried a dayshift job for 3 months this past year and it was not a good fit for me. I missed the floor nursing and went back to my former position which is 12 hour shifts, three nights a week. For incentive pay I pick up extras which are usually weekend days. I had a knee injury last year which is when I stopped exercising completely, for no good reason really. And I never went back to it.

Ugg. Well, I guess Disney is a good place to kick start your new exercise plan. Have you looked at places like Target and Walmart for some cheep clothing for your trip? You could buy a few pieces and then donate them to a woman's shelter or something when you get back?


...I need to go take a walk now

 

[weeniecat2442]

totally feel you on this!! i have gained a ton of weight this past year and have not done much to stop it. i FINALLY signed up for weight watchers (just tracking online) 2 weeks ago and im down 5lbs. i can already feel a difference and my clothes even feel more comfortable. the first 2 weeks were TOUGH! but seeing those 5lbs were gone was great motivation.
im so tired of not fitting into my clothes- i know how you feel. Good luck with whatever plan of attack you take!!

 

[Luvchefmic]

Have you got a Kohl's store near you ? They usually have some good sales on the weekends. I would have suggested their website but it would never get there in time. A few weeks ago I got 6 tank tops 2 pairs of shorts and a skort and it was about $95. for everything. I would try there and don't beat yourself up life happens.

 

[cabanafrau]

That's a very tough headspace to be in right before your trip. I've put myself way down low before just shopping for new clothes, sometimes for an event, sometimes just because I needed to replace some items. You've got to shake that off pronto because that mood won't be good for your trip.

Help yourself out as much as you can by eating healthy and nutritiously right now and making sure you're getting lots of water. Even if you don't have time to drop the weight before your trip you will help your body feel better and hopefully make your trip enjoyable.

I hope you have a great time.

 

[Happy Snowman]

Have you got a Kohl's store near you ? They usually have some good sales on the weekends. I would have suggested their website but it would never get there in time. A few weeks ago I got 6 tank tops 2 pairs of shorts and a skort and it was about $95. for everything. I would try there and don't beat yourself up life happens.

Good suggestion. They have a Night Owl sale tonigh--got an email about an hour ago

 

[dakcp2001]

Thanks everyone, its good to hear some inspiration, too. My mom is a lifetime WW but she lives on the opposite coast as me. I will try to pop into Kohls, do they have plus size? Ive never been into a Kohls, although I have bought gifts from their website before. I REALLY wish I could just wear pants this trip, Id feel much more comfortable, but it is supposed to be 90s.

 

[dakcp2001]

I actually just got briefly stuck trying to get into my sports bra. Like half on can't get out stuck. Lets never speak of this again. Yikes.

 

[Jennasis]

Right there with you. Spine surgery in December ruined me. I was at my thinnest in September on our last Disney trip. I actually thought I looked good in our pics! Then I put my back out in November, had surgery in December, and put on so much weight I can't even stand to be around myself. It was the worst time to be sedentary. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years,. I have a big trip coming up to California in July and I am desperately trying to lose 10 to 15 pounds. It's not easy since my back still prevents me from doing quite a bit of exercise. I eat barely anything. It's the activity. I need more.

 

[Happy Snowman]

Thanks everyone, its good to hear some inspiration, too. My mom is a lifetime WW but she lives on the opposite coast as me. I will try to pop into Kohls, do they have plus size? Ive never been into a Kohls, although I have bought gifts from their website before. I REALLY wish I could just wear pants this trip, Id feel much more comfortable, but it is supposed to be 90s.

Yes, Kohl's has plus sizes. I'd pick up a small pedometer or get an app on your phone if you have a smart phone. It can be very motivating to track your steps each day, and see how far you really walk while you are at Disney.

 

[HeatherC]

OP...we have all been there! Don't beat yourself up...especially on your vacation. My suggestion is...drink a ton of water for a day or two before you go....you will lose some water weight, but you will "feel" thinner. Really!

Also...eat something small every two or three hours...apple..cheese stick...hard boiled egg. It will keep your metabolism humming and you won't be starving.

Think of all the exercise you will get at Disney!

Have a wonderful trip!!!

 

[dashofsunshine]

I have had a very tumultuous relationship with food my whole life - fat kid in elementary school to anorexic in high school to 323 lbs in and after college. I was in a size 24/26, prediabetic, crying every day, afraid to go out to public places, pushing my new husband away, etc. I couldn't understand how I had let it get so far...we've all been there! I'm down 100 lbs and still have about 70 to go. I'll be wearing shorts to Disney in 6 days for the first time in my life! So scary, haha. I know that you're uncomfortable and upset; I've been there and I remember it all too well my best advice is to try and use this as fuel for your determination to take control of your life and make good changes!! You can do it and in the meantime, head to Target or Kohls and pick up some capris! Enjoy your trip and try not to let the weight get you down

 

[marmalade]

I know how you feel, my only answer is comfortable clothes. Don't try to wear your clothes that are a little tight, you will be miserable the entire trip. I don't wear shorts because I have short stocky legs, but I love yoga capri pants and wear those a lot in the summer, even at Disney. They have stretch, are lightweight and I am able to move without things bulging out all over the place.

 

[22Tink]

Awww I think most of us have been there!! It's disheartening but don't let it ruin your trip!! In agreement with a PP, drink lots of water. You will feel better!! Treat yourself to a new comfy outfit or two, relax and enjoy Disney!!!!

 

[dakcp2001]

My husband said when we get there, we can buy silly Disney T shirts to wear the whole trip.

 

[aejammers]

My husband said when we get there, we can buy silly Disney T shirts to wear the whole trip.

Your husband is awesome! Have a great trip!