This is it!!! (encouragement welcome)

[CruiseBoundnKY]

Okay...I'm 33 and I've been overweight more often than not in my life. I currently weigh 216 lbs.

I've tried it all. I've even had weight loss surgery. I had the lap-band done about 4 years ago. I started at 236 and lost down to about 180. Now here I sit...again. Overweight and miserable.

I'm really getting tired of being this way. I mean elastic is NOT fashionable in any way. I hide in oversized clothes. I practically lived in my fav t-shirt all summer long.

I've watched every single season of Biggest Loser hoping that one day I'd get inspired and the whole world would hear a big "POP". That would be my head coming out of my bottom.

My weakness is that I love food and I hate veggies and working out. There just has to be a way to work through this. I'm willing to work out. I'm willing to put down the mac n cheese for...well anything but tomato's. The food part will be the hardest I'm sure.

But here is my problem. I've tried taking baby steps, I've tried expensive personal trainers, dieticians, gym memberships, workout videos, prescription weight lost drugs, etc. etc. etc. So where the heck do I start?

I'm really hoping to get some ideas from here. Right now I've got a sinus infection (aka the crud) going on right now. So, I think I need to take a few days to get back to 100%, get a game plan and then follow through.

I'm not much of a water drinker, but since I need to be pushing fluids. I'm going to start trying to warm up to water.

I think I'm gonna go get me a ticker too. Those look encouraging.

Thanks for listening, Karen

 

[momof2minnies]

Hi Karen,
Since you mentioned Biggest Loser-Yeah Michelle, Remember what Bob and Jillian say.Diet after diet doesn't work if you do not get to the bottom of what makes you eat.It is more than just liking food, Oprah talks about the same thing.So until you face that,according to them,the weight will never come off.

Keep posting that does help.Good luck!

Linda

 

[CruiseBoundnKY]

I am totally happy that Michelle beat Vickie. YAY!!!

I agree. I am working to try and put my finger on what keeps me from losing the weight.

I've been through lots of therapy in my life and I am borderline bi-polar. I've thought about did it come from my child-hood since I was overweight as a child. Or my marriage, since I really packed on the weight then. Or the loss of my sister, I tend to blame a lot on that. Maybe I just like food.

I think I just don't believe in myself. I can motivate myself enough to lose weight to a certain point, then I stop. I was raped as a teenager, but I don't think that I'm scared of being thin because of that. I was the baby of the family that always got what she wanted but for the most part got ignored. No one really cared what I did, so I ate and ate and ate.

At times in my life, like college when I really wanted to lose the weight I'd pour my heart into it. Start looking really good, then I got married. Here came the weight back. I'm happy in my marriage, I'm just not happy with myself because it seems like I have no backbone. No me. I don't make decisions for myself consciously. I just do the same ole' because it's comfortable.

Okay...sorry this was not meant to sound like a therapy session. Just trying to get to the bottom of it myself. Maybe if I type something and then read it, I'll finally put the pieces of my puzzle together.

Thanks for posting, Karen

 

[momof2minnies]

Karen,
That is a great first start, seeing it in print does help sometimes.It does seem like you have had alot on your plate.I'm sorry you have been through so much.

Now to Biggest Loser- I do believe most of the world hates Heba and Vicki- how could Phil hug them at the end, I would have told them to take a hike.


Keep posting

Linda

 

[CruiseBoundnKY]

Okay...Today has been horrible.

Not only do I feel like poop from being sick, I've also got a GI bug too and then I started. Grand...just grand!!!

I have no appetite and have eaten very little at all today. I do hope to be on the up and up very soon.

I'm supposed to be at a Christmas dinner in an hour and I sooooo would rather be in bed. This stinks!!!

Thanks for posting Linda.

When Vicki said that she had taken advice from Phillip about living in the moment, I about fell off the couch. She was such a ***** the whole season to everyone and I think, given the chance, she would've sold Heba out too.


Karen

 

[momof2minnies]

Hope you feel better soon.

I said the same thing to my husband- how could he even speak to her?I was shocked.Next season starts next month already.

Have a good one,
Linda

 

[CruiseBoundnKY]

Last night I was miserable at the dinner. I ate a roll, and a few spoons of my fav comfort foods (mac n cheese and mashed potatos). Not a good choice, but I knew that. I just had no appetite all day and thought anything was better than nothing.

Hopefully today will go better. I felt better until I had done an hour of farm work this morning. Now I can't breathe and I'm coughing/wheezing bad. I think I just need to get over this before I start exercising.

Thanks for your support!

Karen

 

[Goofydiane]

Karen,

You've made a great first step by writing things down - as Linda said, you have to get to the bottom of why you eat (so do I), and seeing it in print does help.

I use my journal as therapy at times - I type things out and tend to process when I type.

I've got some suggestions for water - try Crystal Light or something else to flavor the water. I'm a big fan of water and drink tons of it, but I know it always helps to have some flavor options around. I like the Raspberry Green Tea from Crystal Light. Nice flavor and Green Tea is a great anti-oxidant.

I love fruits and vegetables, I just hate preparing them! One other shortcut I've found is that I will pay a little bit more to buy a pineapple that has already been cored, or cantelope that is already slices and ready to eat. At times it is worth it to spend a bit more at the grocery store to get food you know you are going to eat.

Don't kick yourself over and over for setbacks, they are going to happen and we are here for you!

 

[CruiseBoundnKY]

I'm still hanging around. Unfortunately when I got sick, I got real sick. I'm still congested and having trouble sleeping. My anxiety levels are through the roof.

I am borderline bi-polar and when something is off, everything seems to be 100 times harder. BUT I am still here. Hoping to get better soon.

 

[LuvBaloo]

Hang in there! I hope you'll be uncongested soon.
Have you tried adding a bit of lemon or lime juice to your water to give it a bit of flavour? I have the green plastic lime of concentrated juice and just add a few drops to my water bottle for a bit of flavour. Other days I just drink the water plain.
Good luck to you. I hope you can find what works to motivate you. One new approach that I'm trying to when I want some junk food, DON'T tell myself, "No, you can't have it". Instead I tell myself, "I want to lose weight, I want to be healthier."
It was suggested that telling yourself that you can't do something, pre-programs you to look for reasons why you can do it. We are programmed to not accept can't and find loopholes and ways around. For example, I'll just have one, or I'll just skip exercising today.
So my new plan is to focus on what I want, and it was working for the 2 weeks I tried before Christmas, and there was only one day where I decided I wanted the Coke at work, more than being thin, but the other days I was good. Then I gave it up for Christmas, but now its time to get back to "I want to be healthier"

 

[westjones]

I have been sick this past week also, and I am hoping to start my diet on Thursday.

I would suggest that you get some good vitamins to make sure your body is getting what it needs when you are cutting back.

I have been down this path before and I HATE that I am back here again, but I know that it does take time and you do have to take baby steps and make changes bite by bite.

I am sure there will be a lot of us starting with the New Year. Hopefully we can all encourage each other.

Hang in there!
DJ