(note, my spell check isn't working. sorry for any errors, i'm sure there will be some. )
I am a deeply emotionally fragile person, but i have a tough outer exterior. I may be dieing inside, but you'll never know. I don't cry around people. I pretend to be okay, and i won't lie about that. I'm a good liar though. I lie all the time about random crap that doesn't mean anything. I make up stories. I'm too creative and my brain works too much for my own good. I think too much, and I can't really turn it off. I get attached to people, but i can't show affection in normal ways. I can't just hug and love on someone. Its hard for me. But, even though I may never meet you, I may never hug you, or kiss you, or cry with you or laugh with you, i do love you. I love so so much, and I would give anything for everyone to be happy and okay. If I had one super power, it would be to make people h appy. I do everything I can to make people happy, but its so hard sometimes. Some people don't want to be happy. Some people don't want anyone to be happy, and they only want everyone to be hurting. I'm sorry about those people. Love is the most wonderful thing in the world. I've been in love once, and I think i'm falling in love again. I don't sleep a lot, and I'm usually tired. I have such a big personality. the town i'm in is too small for me. I am magnetic. I attract others to me. But I'm an aquired taste, and I will never not be. I will never be sucessful while the previous generation is in charge, but when our generation rules the world, i will be huge. I am so confident. I'm not afraid of anything except abandonment. being ignored is the worst feeling in the world. i'm so easily inspired, and i'm easily enchanged. but i'm disenchanted more easily. i love art and music. i am nothing if not an artist. i've rambled so much in this. i believe that i, like everyone else just wants to be truely, deeply loved. i look for love in life, and i want to find someone who can love as much as i can. my boyfriend is very military and not openly affectionate, but then again, neither am i. its so easy to make me happy. simple things make me happy, like someone just saying 'good morning' to me. i detest fake people, because i'm so real. i'm pretty cocky. im smart, and i know it. i'm so thankful for everything i have, and i have no idea where i'm going in life, but i'm happy. life is so beautiful.