Well, today has been horrible. I don't know if some you remember a couple of months back, my "first born" dog Peanut passed away from cancer. We were devastated, but it helped knowing we had this trip to look forward to. And we still had our second dog Odie.
Unfortunately early this morning we had to have Odie put to sleep too.


We found out on Friday that he had advanced kidney disease and an enlarged heart, and that the vet could treat neither. So, she sent us on our way and told us to enjoy the time we had left. Last night my boy was coughing all night and couldn't really catch his breath. I put my hand on his chest this morning and could hear the fluid rattling around in his lungs. DH and I knew it was time. He was shaking because he was having such a hard time breathing, and we were worried he wouldn't make it through the day.
Odie went very quickly and peacefully at the emergency vet (which is where his sister Peanut died.) We are devastated. We realized when we got home that we have never been in our house without one of those dogs in it. It just feels so....empty.

I'm really not looking forward to tomorrow, when DH goes back to work, and I will be alone here for the first time.
DH and I both agree that the only good thing about this is that now we don't have to worry that Odie will pass while we're at Disney and that his mom (who is our dog sitter) would have to deal with it. And we'd be nervous the whole time wondering how he's doing and all of that.
I did realize a little bit ago, that this is also the first time we'll be on vacation and no one will be at our house. I assume my MIL won't come to our house now since she doesn't have to dog sit. Guess I'll have to arrange to stop our mail and talk to our next door neighbor to let him know so he can keep an eye on the house.
I'm hoping to resume my normal Disney excitement tomorrow. Today I'm absolutely exhausted and emotional. I really think it's going to help me take my mind off losing Odie.