That smile was unnerving. His features seemed indefinitely perfect in the light of the moon. His eyes stood out the most to me. They were cold, hard possibly verdant in colour and definitely strange. In someway they were almost
regretful. Along with that smile of his he was as irresistible as a model. I was unaware that boys could appeal to girls as much as he did to me right now. It was hard to tell whether I knew him; whether he knew me. He stood unnaturally still-as still a statue-or so it seemed, that strange deviating smile still fixed upon his face. He lifted a pale finger and beckoned me towards him. Why was this stranger gesturing to me? I glanced down at the short distance between the two of us, not knowing what to do. Walking, going with him was not a good idea, not while I was alone.
My feet worked my way towards him but I couldnt recall ever making the decision.
Sam come on, I stopped abruptly. Id forgotten Jess was with me. That was going to make things difficult.
You go ahead. Ill catch up, I answered glancing up at her panic-stricken face. Im fine.
If you say so. She said, her voice cracked though she was determined to seem fearless.
I turned back at the boy. He didnt seem impatient at all his eyes quite focused upon my face. I began walking again. My pace quickened. I stopped once again. This time Id reached and there was the smallest of distances between him and myself. Being this close I recognized more of those features. The smoothness of the skin, those soft, tufts of blonde hair; it was Jamie.
It was hard to think about my current problem then, with him standing there. My thoughts were pulled from my mind into the file of my unwanted memories. It raced through the days of us walking hand in hand on the beach, the wind in our hair, the sand in our shoes, the sea washing up on the shore. Past the times wed met each others families: his parents so loving and kind, my parents restricted and overly careful, of course. This wave of emotions was making me feel unstable. I didnt want these feelings to return and spoil my plan to forget our life wed had. The swift passing of these memories stopped as I relived the worst of those recollections; the time he left me.
We had started out the afternoon as normal taking our usual walk through the park on our way home. The snow was falling lightly, melting as it rested upon our faces. Hed pulled me to the nearest bench and I sat hastily beside him. This was when Id first noticed his moroseness. Hed smiled impassively and I had known that a new piece of information was inevitable; wed never had secrets.
Whats up? Id asked him forcefully, wanting to have the situation over and out of the way.
Im leaving you, He muttered. I cant stand the commitment that our relationship holds on me.
I couldnt answer him after that. I just stared at him, gaping, entirely astounded. I remember thinking what an utterly useless excuse it had been. I knew it wasnt true but even so I wasnt going to argue with him. And with that he left me. I sat there, still shocked, willing the ground to open up and swallow me whole. We hadnt spoken at all since that night. Not even acknowledging each other in the school hallways or in the streets.
I shook myself slightly, snapping out of my nightmare and returning to my current situation. I didnt want to hurt him, even when I though about how hed hurt me. But my mind had already made its decision. There was no avoiding what was to come, no avoiding the fate destined for this poor soul. I glanced up to his ashen features and averting his beautiful eyes. He opened his mouth to speak and I knew it was going to be hard.
I glanced around inconspicuously for any unwanted wanderers; this alleyway was as empty as was possible. It was perfect. Although I hated the idea of me going ahead with this, no amount of groveling on his behalf could persuade my mind to get rid of this sudden thought. I couldnt help feeling happy about me finally getting revenge. I lifted my hands and placed them lightly upon his shoulders. Quick as a flash I pushed down, hard.