Hm. Sometimes I really hate being a friend.
Like I hate playing therapist. If one of my friends are crying, it's actually painfully awkward. I don't want to be near them, and I don't want to have to talk to them, mostly because it gives me a weird feeling and I wouldn't know what to say. I'm bad at being sympathetic because all I can think about is how awkward it is and how I'll never look at them without thinking about the time they were crying and how weird it was.
I hate comforting people, and I would never say I love my friends because sometimes I don't like the bond of love. Plus I don't love them a lot of the time.
Being close to someone is too awkward, so I distance myself, and if someone tries to be close to me I freak out and back away because I hate to care about somebody....I mean like most of my family I'll say I love because I do, but sometimes even saying that I don't like...it's weird.
Wow, I feel stupid. lol.