Tasha's Journal (UPDATE: Our baby has arrived! Pics on last page!!)

[kelscross]

I'm right there with you. Maybe we should stay off the scale. Those two weeks in a row with a disappointing scale reading really knocked the wind out of me. Like Michelle said, somehow we have to dust ourselves off and get back up.

How's your husband doing? Is he struggling as well? Just curious.

I hope you have a better day tomorrow. And I would give yourself some sunnies because you owned up to your feelings.

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

I think that Michelle and Kellee have said it all. We are there for you. Just scrap those bad days, make a plan and get through it. Of course, since I'm not working right now, I can say this...but when I go back in September..I'll know exactly where you are coming from! And it sounds like you are doing great during the day, but must be coming home exhausted and just want something good to eat (which is usually not good for us) since you've been busting your butt and being good all day. I know this is what I do. I believe you can do this! This dieting is almost like a job in itself. You need to be committed and follow a schedule to be successful.

Owning up to those feelings tells me that you still want to do this! Don't give up! You can do this!

Gail

 

[CruisingCA2005]

Tasha - I'm sorry you've had a bad day and I hope tomorrow will be a better day for you. Take care of yourself sweetie!

 

[DoeWDW]

Dear Tasha, I'm so sorry you're feeling down. I know when I've started a new job, I just feel exhausted and overwhelmed. There's a lot of internal anxiety in showing up to a new place, being with people you don't know yet and learning so many new things. That's probably the source of your exhaustion. It will pass in time as you feel more confident about what you're doing at work and more comfortable with the people you're working with.

As you adjust to your new job, please cut yourself some slack on the healthy eating, OK? It seems like you are eating healthy for 2 of your 3 meals - breakfast and lunch. Give yourself some credit for that, OK? You're still making an effort!

Please remember that this isn't an "all or nothing" deal. Do what you can and be strong in the fact that baby steps will take you where you want to go. You're still moving in the right direction!

I think a party might help to lift your spirits! I'm throwing a WISH party on the healthy living road! We've got great music and we're dancing, smiling and laughing with all our WISH friends! Come and dance away your problems and worries!!

"Celebrate good times, come on!!"

 

[Tasha+Scott]

Day 22

Thanks everyone for the support...I really need it lately. Well, I am not giving up, don't worry about that. It is just depressing to know that I have not done as well as I know I could. I think I have figured out the 3 main causes to why it seems harder for me this week.

1. Last week I was only training. This week I am actually doing stuff and it is draining me mentally. I just have to get used to it.

2. Before I started working I did not eat lunch until nearly 2 p.m. I have to take my lunch from 12-1 p.m. at work so I am eating earlier...which is making me feel hungrier at night. I guess this is probably something else I will learn to get used to as well.

3. I have been soooo tired and sleepy when I have gotten home this week. I felt pretty good Mon. But from then on, I have been exhausted. I suppose this is one more thing that will get better as I get more comfortable w/this job.

Anyway as for today, I am only giving myself b/c I still did not do great. I have not felt well today. Scott woke up w/a sore throat yesterday and I think maybe I am coming down w/it. I ate better than yesterday but not entirely OP. I also did not feel well enough to exercise. I guess I am not going to make my exercise goal this week. But I don't feel well so that's just life. I am not going to beat myself up. This has been a rough week. I imagine Sat. will start a better week for me since I will have time to rest and get back on track. I am positive I can do this. I am really grateful to all of you for your support and faith in me. I will try to do better next week just to make you smile! I hope everyone else has a good weigh in tomorrow. I may skip my weigh in, b/c I know it will just discourage me and I don't want to give up over this. If I do weigh though I will be honest about it. Good luck to all of you that have weigh ins tomorrow. I probably will not be posting in anyone's journal tonight. I feel really lousy. I will try to get to them tomorrow for sure. Oh, and btw, Scott has also eaten dinner off program w/me, but he has exercised nearly every night so he is doing better than me w/that. I hope to catch up to him in the exercise dept. next week though.

 

[kelscross]

Keep it up. I know it's hard doing WW at work especially when you get busy or if you're like me and don't get up early enough to pack a good lunch

Look up the Wendy plan online. If I had a link I'd send it to you. It is a woman who does (or did) WW and found that you should alternate your points some low days some very high days to maximize the weight loss. Check it out!

Gotta go get ready for work. Have a good day!

 

[July]

Tasha,
Hi I have just been reading through the journals and I must say I love the way you give the days sunshine #'s.
I wanted to wish you luck and congratulate you on the 5 lbs lost.
I've seen your name on the excercise challenge. I hope we all do good.

Anyways have a great day!

July

 

[Tasha+Scott]

Day 23

Okay, Michelle, you will be happy to know that this morning I decided to pick myself up, dust myself off, and head over to the dreaded scale. And I could not believe it, but I actually lost a pound!!! So, Kellee, maybe you are right about that whole Wendy plan...lol. Anyway, I did not do my measurements today. I decided to do that once every two weeks. So, I will do them again next week. Last night I had wanted to go to bed early. We were just about to go to bed when Scott asked me if my fish tank filter was working. (I have a 55 gallon tank w/ a huge Oscar and 2 huge algae eaters.) I looked and listened...sure enough it wasn't. I had just replaced my old filter a few weeks before, so I figured it would be easy to fix. My other one always was. I had bought my old one at Petsmart and my new one at Wal-mart. Well, I could not fix it, and I consider myself to be a semi expert at this since I used to specialize in fish tanks. So, I had Scott run to Wal-mart to get me a new filter. I didn't want my fish to die before today. I put the filter he brought home on and we tried to go to sleep once more. Then I noticed a noise. I asked Scott what it was. We got up, and the new filter that he had purchased about 30 min. before was leaking. It was after midnight by this point. So the only thing I could do was get something to let the leak drip into. By morning the jug was overflowing onto the floor! So, we drained it, put a fresh towel down and went to work. I stopped by Petsmart on the way home to purchase one of their filters that I know are worth the money. (I will be getting my money back on the other one tomorrow.) I then went grocery shopping and to the salon to get my eyebrows waxed. When I got home around 7 p.m., my lovely little leak had drained a fourth of my fish tank and completely soaked through the towel. That was a lot of fun to clean! Anyway, the Petsmart filter is working fine. I just lost a lot of sleep in the process. And today at work went well, but one of our girls got fired which means that we have to cover what she was originally covering. The other new girl and myself have not been fully trained at all and we were informed that we will be pretty much done training since they lost an employee and they need us to cover for her. So, next week will be challenging and perhaps interesting.
As far as how I did today, today was a 5 sunny day! So, here they are, my beautiful sunnies! I managed to eat OP and even got 40 min. on the treadmill in. I had to force myself to do that though b/c I'll be honest , I am still beat! My back has also hurt again a little bit today, but I will survive. Well, I will check on everyone else's journals a little later tonight. Btw, July, the sunnies were Michelle's idea. I just liked it and decided to do it too. It seems to be a trend b/c several of us are doing it now...lol! Bye everyone! I hope you have a great cheat-free, exercise-filled weekend!

 

[myhandd]

Hey Tasha and Scott,

I didn't get a chance to read your whole post, but I noticed you were from Mississippi. My wife was born in Biloxi, reared in Batesville and she and I met in Tupelo where I moved after college in Kentucky.

Where in Mississippi are you? I used to work in the furniture industry in NE Miss.

Post your reply in my thread if you will, look forward to hearing from you!

Dax

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

WTG Tasha!:thewave: Losing that pound and getting in some exercise even though you were exhausted!! Maybe seeing that scale was what you needed...knowing that you haven't sabotaged your efforts!!! That is great!!

Sorry to hear about your fish tank problems. Anytime we would even buy fish from Walmart...they were usually diseased and end up killing the rest of the fish in our tank. My husband has really gotten out of it because he wants one of the gigantic tanks but I told him not until we buy a house!!

Keep it up!! You are doing awesome!!

Gail

 

[Princess Michelle]

TASHA!!! I'm so proud of you! Way to go getting that determination back up, losing a pound this week and having a 5 sunny day!!!!

 

[CruisingCA2005]

Congrats on the weight loss Tasha. I haven't had a chance to check the journals in the past 2 days. I've been having WISH withdrawals!

I'm sorry 'bout your fish problems. DH used to have a bunch of African cichlids in a 60 gallon tank. When he decided to switch to salt water & got tropical fish things didn't go so well. So we now have a 60 gallon tank that has been sitting in our garage for years! We also have a 40 gallon tank, a 20 gallon long tank and 2 10 gallon tanks that I use for my hermit crabs. I don't have to worry 'bout leaks but they have their own issues.

I hope you're having a good weekend!

 

[toystoryduo]

Congratulations on your weight loss Tasha! That is wonderful!! Keep up the good work!

I hope that you have a wonderful week! Take good care of you!

Tracy

P.S. Sending you a PM.....

 

[Tasha+Scott]

Days 24 and 25

Thanks everyone! And Tracy, I PMed you back in case you haven't read it yet. Okay, sorry I didn't post yesterday. I woke up sick. The other day I thought I might be catching whatever Scott had, but then I felt better. Well, apparently that was just a preview of coming attractions, b/c yesterday I woke up w/a sore throat and a fever. I managed to eat OP, but I was way too weak to even consider my exercise. But I am giving yesterday 5 anyway, since I stayed OP even though I felt terrible. Usually when I feel bad I just grab whatever I can eat fast so I don't have to worry about cooking, but yesterday was fine b/c I didn't eat breakfast, I ate a WW meal for lunch, and a WW meal for dinner. I didn't even use all of my pts. but I didn't feel well enough to.
As for today, Day 25, I am feeling a good bit better but I am still a little weak. I have stayed OP again so far but I am skipping the workout again until I regain all of my strength. Don't want to make myself feel worse. I am giving today 5 too since I stayed OP and can't help that I feel too weak to exercise. I will say that my min. for the 1000 min. of exercise challenge are not getting off to a good start. But some exercise is better than none, so I will just do the best I can.

And hey, Dax, if you read my journal again, just wanted to tell you that I posted my MS info. in yours but I forgot to mention that my dad lives in Batesville too. He is not from there. He just moved there, b/c his wife was offered a great job there. They live about 2 hours from me now. They aren't too far from Memphis, TN, if I am not mistaken. Your wife would probably know more about that than me.

As for my fish filter, I managed to get my money back for one of them...the one I just bought, b/c I still had the receipt. The other one I took back to the Wal-mart in Tupelo, and she would not let me do anything except exchange it b/c I couldn't find my receipt. It looked brand new and I would have been happy to have exchanged it for something else, but the lady said they couldn't. There was no reason for me to exchange it for the same filter b/c I had already bought a new one at Petsmart. So, I did not get my money back for that one. I am going to see if my mom will do it for me next week sometime. She works in the cash office at another Wal-mart and they are more lenient about stuff like that. Oh, well, live and learn, I guess. Well, I hope everyone else has had a great day. I am going to try to get to journals later tonight.

 

[Princess Michelle]

Tasha, I'm so sorry that you aren't feeling well. I hope that you are feeling back to normal tomorrow and that this doesn't linger.

I think you have done well considering you haven't felt good. Way to go!

I know how you feel about the exercise. I've hardly done anything this week! Plan on changing that though now that I'm feeling better!

I hope you have a fabulous week.

 

[KLH 1973]

Wanted to say hello for the first time...just got to your journal and finished it in about an hour. Sounds like you sure have had a crazy month, between being sick, diet and financial stress. Glad to hear you got your new job. Hope you love it, give it time to adjust to eatting at work. At least you dont have my job lol. I babysit 4kids at home and have way to many yummy good things in the house. I try to buy the cheap stuff and think I wont like it wrong lol. Well take care.

Kristin

 

[DisneyEnthusiastic]

Get better soon!!!

Have a great week!

Gail

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Tasha

I am sending you tons of healing . I hope that you are feeling much better today! Take good care of you and try and have a wonderful Monday, okay?

Tracy

 

[Tasha+Scott]

Day 26

Thanks Michelle, Gail, Tracy, and Kristin for the get well wishes. And thanks for stopping by my journal Kristin. I will try to get to yours as well soon. I am kind of behind on journals the past few days b/c I have not felt well. So, I hope you all will bear w/me.

Well, I don't have much to report as far as staying OP today. I did stay OP, but I still felt very BLAH, so exercise was out again. Actually, I woke up feeling a lot better. I still felt a little sick but not too bad, so I assumed I would feel better enough to exercise tonight. Well, I went to work, and around lunch time I started feeling even worse. And by the time I got home from work, I felt terrible. I have a terrible headache, I feel bloated, and I feel a little sick to my stomach. My sore throat is gone for now though, so that's good. I am going to bed early tonight b/c I think I need rest more than anything else. I did not sleep well last night, which probably accounts for the headache.

As far as work, I was given 4 of my own stores that I am responsible for. They did belong to the girl that got fired Friday. I could not believe how far behind she was. She was a month behind and that is going to mean a lot of extra work for me. And I am not even fully trained yet! I guess this will definitely build my experience. They gave me her old desk which was not where I originally was going to sit but it worked out great. I like it better and it is located better. Only thing was, we spent 5 hours today just trying to clean out her desk and organize her files. Nothing was where it was supposed to be and it was a mess! I could not believe how sloppy and disorganized it was. Sorry to say this, but now I realize why she was fired.

Anyway, they gave me my business cards today, set up my e-mail account, and gave me my medical insurance card. So, things are starting to seem like they are coming together nicely. Once I am really used to what I am doing, I think I may really like this job...here's hoping anyway! On one last note, Scott just took that other fish tank filter back to our local Wal-mart and they gave him his money back w/o a problem They didn't even ask for the receipt. So, at least we didn't lose $50. Well, have a great day tomorrow everybody! Hopefully I will be able to post that I am feeling better. Oh yeah, almost forgot, I am only giving today 4 sunnies. I know I could get away w/5 since it is not my fault I feel bad, but then I might get lazy. So, 4 it is.

 

[Princess Michelle]

Hey Tash, I'm so sorry that you still aren't feeling well. It sounds like things are going great at work! I know it might take a little bit to get caught up but I think that says alot about what an impression you have already made that they felt confident enough in your ability to give you this other girl's stores.

Way to go staying on plan too!

I hope you are feeling better in the morning!