String's Atkin's Journal (Please Comment)

[sharoncity]

Hang in there Beth!! It will all get better! Could it be the change of weather and daylight making you tired as well? I definitely find it harder to get out of bed when it is darker in the morning.

The exterminator not showing is just one more piece of grief you didn't need. To be all ready, house torn apart, and then no one shows???? I'm glad you called corporate!

Try to plan a day or two of absolutely nothing. I know you can't do it on weekends, but maybe on a Sun/Mon? Having Katie skip a dance or swim wouldn't be too bad. Maybe she's feeling a little overwhelmed as well? I know my kids never liked having something scheduled every day (still don't for that matter! ) Sometimes a day of TV vegging and quiet play is just the ticket for all of us! Just a thought for you!

Whatever you do, I hope that these feelings pass for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that you find your inner peace soon. to you dear Beth!

TTFN-
Sharon

 

[CheapMom]

Hey Beth- You are definately not pathetic or a hypochondriac. I understand what you mean about actually hoping to be diagnosed with something so that way at least you KNOW what to do about it. I would concentrate on stress reduction and then some of the other peices might fall into the right place. I really believe that stress is exhausting and inhibits weight loss.
Good luck with Katie and the trial run with limiting her sugar.
Good night,
Mary

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, I hope the extra B vitamins help perk you up! I think you're taking a great step in the right direction. All this talk of vitamins has also helped me - I have been forgetting my daily multivitamin lately. Funny how in helping others, we often help ourselves! That's how great friendships work!

Bravo for letting the exterminator company know of your inconvenience!

Take good care of you today, dear Beth!

 

[lulu201]

Hey, Beth, let me get over here and weigh in with my opinion--you're so many wonderful things: strong and brave and funny and smart and kind and compassionate. Uhh, sorry, but "pathetic" just ain't on the list!

Beth, I'm saying this as a friend who cares: cut yourself a break. Would you please tell me when you allow yourself some slack? You've had so much physical and emotional stress the past few months. . .maybe your body and your psyche are just trying to regroup and heal. Let yourself be tired. Listen to your body--and to your spirit. Nurture yourself right where you are. You'll spring back into action, but honey, you're not the Energizer Bunny! You have to recharge your battery!

for your day,
Erin

 

[Strings]

Hello friends,

Today is my unscheduled day. Katie has no activities. We will go to the Y, and I will wear my old shoes. The new ones are being stretched. Then Katie and I have decided to go to the park for a picnic, then a trip[ to the library. The only other thing is laundry. Won wants wings for dinner, so I won't even have to make dinner. I'm going to try to just enjoy the day.

I will probably be doing a few journals at a time today. I hope everyone has a great day.
Beth

 

[septbride2002]

I hope it is for you picnic with Katie! Enjoy the day!

~Amanda

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Beth!!!

Your day today sounds like bliss. Relax and enjoy! I hope you have beautiful weather and a wonderful picnic with Katie! Take good care of you!

Tracy

 

[wilderness01]

Hope you had a nice day with Katie.

 

[Strings]

Yesterday was fun, but definately off program. The scale reflects it too. 216.5. Yesterday my eating was compulsive and impulsive. I am bloated and feel yucky. Time for to start again. Planning out everything that went in my mouth worked in the beginning, but I have gotten away from doing it again. Need to do that at least for the next few days.

Plan for the day.
WATER!!! I've already had 1liter.
Y for weights and cardio.
NAP!!! PLease God!
Meals for the day...
1.) lc waffle with sf syrup. 6 carbs.
2.) salad and more water.
3.) 5pm snack- string cheese and coffee.
4.) 9pm snack- 1 oz cashews.
6.) 2AM dinner break- crustless quiche and salad.
7AM.) morning start bar.

That is a lot of food, but it will get me through the next 24 hours I hope. Obviously I work tonight. I am not sure if I will get to any journals until Sunday.

Everyone take care and have a great weekend,
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, that is NOT a lot of food! Please make sure you're eating enough calories, OK? I bet if you plugged all that into Fitday, you'd be surprised at how low your calories are. Sorry, sweetie - guess I slipped right into Mom-mode without even thinking! Have you figured out that I care about you??

I pray that you'll get a peaceful nap today and have an easy shift tonight.

 

[CheapMom]

That menu looks light to me also. If you don't eat enough you are going to wear yourself down to the hilt. Take care of your self.
Hoping you are at the threshold of a wonderful, peaceful, OP weekend.
Mary

 

[Strings]

Thanks for the concern guys. I should have specified that the salad at lunch was going to have chicken, bleu cheese, and bacon in addition to the regular veggies. I promise that I will eat enough. I also have lc snacks in my locker, if needed.

Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Sent you a PM.

 

[wilderness01]

Hi Beth,

Just make sure you add enough chicken into that salad because I agree with Doe that it sounds too light, especially for being up and active for so many hours.

Hope your shift is good.

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Beth, I'm sorry you have been feeling so low, hope you feel better soon. My daughter also went through something like Katie, i think talking to them helps, explaining emotions & why they feel like they do & that it is not just them & that we all have a mixture of feelings, reading stories that address the issue gives an opportunity to discuss them without making the child feel that you are concerned or that there is anything wrong with them.
I hope knowing you are not on your own in this kind of situation helps too, you are a wonderful & caring mum!!
Try to take some relaxation time for yourself now & again, hope i dont sound bossy, just concerned, take care XX

 

[AuroraluvsPhillip]

Hi Beth,

Just checking up on journals today in between my cleaning. Hope work is tolerable today. Take it easy on yourself after work. I find that at work, we have no down time, it's just go, go, go so lots of times after work, my big plans fall by the wayside because I'm too pooped. I'm trying to keep my exercising as a must-do, and of course do family stuff, but the house will just have to wait until I feel like it. Try to eat a little something every 2-3 hours to keep your blood sugar at an even keel so you won't get too hungry and fatigued. I get real grouchy if I don't eat- ask my kids!

Hope your weekend is great!
Jean

 

[toystoryduo]

Hi Beth!

Just stopping by to see how your weekend is going. Take good care of you and have a peaceful and relaxing Sunday.

Tracy

 

[Strings]

This has not been a good weekend. I have been OP except for a few onion rings. I have not exercised, but I think I need to go for a walk tonight. I need the stress release. I will have my cell and pepper spray.

I drive Won's car to work because mine is a lease. Well Won took Katie to dinner, and parked my car in the driveway out of force of habit. I got home on Sat. to find b#%$& spray painted on my car. We called the police. The agreement is that it is Won's mom, but we have no proof. No charges pressed. Of course, FIL is out of town this weekend. She denies doing it.

We just had our Association meeting. It looks like our builders didn't do a complete water seal on the houses. It is beyond statute of limitation. One house had mold in the walls. Now we need to figure out, if we move in the spring. Financially, we can't afford to move. We are barely making the bills now. I would have to go back full time to just make a lateral move. That alsm means I would have to find daycare for Katie in the afternoons this year and next. If we move, PG wouldn't know the address. The other option is to get our house checked and fixed. It would be between 10-12,000. We are going to have to paint the house next year regardless of a move. This was something we didn't need. I am really stressing. Of course, if mold is in our house, it may explain our allergies and my fatigue. If we move in the spring, we really don't want to know. We would have to disclose it. I would probably want to disclose the possibility anyways, my catholic guilt, but we would take a hit financially. I am really stressed about it.

I need to go. Dinner is ready.
Beth

 

[Princess Michelle]

Beth, I'm so sorry that you are having such a rough weekend and are going through so much stress right now.

I will keep you in my prayers. I hope the walk helped, they are usually pretty good about clearing the mind.

 

[wilderness01]

I sent you a pm.