String's Atkin's Journal (Please Comment)

[wilderness01]

Glad for your news. You have a great attitude.

 

[DoeWDW]

My dearest Beth,

I'm so sorry I haven't been here in your journal, but rest assured you've been in so many of my prayers over the past week. I am overjoyed to hear your happy news of a nonmalignant, very treatable pituitary tumor AND a good recovery from your surgery.

Your attitude seems very sunny and you're getting back to business - good for you!!

I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Warm

 

[Strings]

First, thank you again for your support.
Wilderness thanks for stopping by.
Doe, don't worrry about my journal. I know you have a busy week. I also know that you have been thinking about me. Thanks.
Laurie, my way of dealing with most things is to repress it until it is overwhelming and then I fall apart. I use humor as a stress relief. I am truly grateful that I do not have ovarian cancer. I am in a positive mood becuse I just found out that I have more than 6 months to live. Having said that, I will probably be very depressed in about 2 weeks.
My typical pattern is to eat myself into oblivian, so I don't have to deal with negative things. NOT THIS TIME. I am struggling not to binge. I don't want to undo what I have accomplished. So far, I have been successful. Sorry, I'm trying to be honest with myself and with you. I won't be able to maintain this way of living, unless I am honest about my patterns and triggers.

Review of my day:
I drank 3.5 liters of water 1 cup coffee, and 2 mugs decaf tea.
Blessings counted repeatedly.
I went for a walk with Katie this afternoon. Another mile. Kate was tired, so I pushed the stroller.
Meals:
Breakfast: Quiche and coffee
Lunch: grilled steak and broccoli
Dinner: LisaZ's crustless pizza and salad
I am about to have a vanilla steamer with lC milk. Then I'm headed to bed.

I'm sorry if this was a bit of a downer.

I hope everyone has a good night.
Beth

PS, I thought Latoya and Amy were good on AI tonight. The rest were just Ok. The Weasley should be voted off bacause he forgot the words, but I think it will be Jennifer.

 

[R_Judy]

Congratulations Beth! What wonderful news. So now it is time to accelerate back into life after that little speed bump in the road. Just don't try to do to much to soon. Oh - and stay out of the kitchen!

 

[lulu201]

for you, Beth. Please don't ever feel like you're "a bit of a downer". . .you have to be true to yourself--all of us want that for you. I think our journals are places where we uncover so much about ourselves, but if we can't be honest and let it all out, it's no different than making small talk, you know what I mean? You've been dealing with so much. . .and while your news that you don't have ovarian cancer is wonderful, and you recognize that, you're still left with some health issues that have to be managed and dealt with. There's a serious reality to all of that--lots of ups and downs--that can't be passed over, even if you are relieved it's not cancer, right? Maybe adjustment time is what you need. . .some quiet time to take all that has happened into yourself. . .

Peace and to you. Know you're in my prayers as you have one of those vanilla steamers.

Erin

PS Didn't have a chance to watch all of AI, but of what I saw: I thought ole Frank Sinatra boy picked probably the best song for his style. . .Jon Peter was just not himself. . .LaToya was my favorite!

 

[Strings]

Confession time... I peeked at the scale. I've been so worried that I would be packing on the pounds. I can't go to Curves until the 5th. I still weigh 226. No loss, but no further gain either. I'm relieved. Meds taken, blessings counted. 20oz water so far.
Plan for the day.
Breakfast was an egg and lc toast. Requisite french vanilla coffee.

Lunch will be turkey swiss on lc tortilla.

Dinner will probably be a burger.

Exercise, it is raining. Lynn, my fashionista, and I are surprising our girls by taking them to the indoor super fair. I will probably get a mile in walking ride to ride, but just strolling. I guess no exercise today.

I hope everyone has a good day.

Beth

 

[sharoncity]

ya know Beth, I think one of the things that lets me be honest in my journal is that we don't have to talk face to face. We can spill our guts to each other and it is somehow easier because we are not sitting across from each other. You need to get some of this stuff out and what better place than your journal. We are here to support you - good or bad or sad. So feel free to say whatever is on your mind.
Take things slow Beth. Yes, you have so much to be thankful of! But you still have some health issues that you need to face and deal with. Take it one day at a time. Recognize what you've gone through, what you will go through. And write out what ever it is you feel inside. Acknowledging your feelings, whatever they are, will help you move past them.
I hope you have a great day today Beth! Enjoy it all and take everything else one step at a time!
Good job with the maintaining! That is excellent given everything else on your plate right now! And maintaining is way better than gaining!!
TTFN-
Sharon

PS Amy was the best from last night. The rest were just so-so. I'm calling that the Hawiian girl with the raspy voice will go, although it could be Sinatrta boy too........

 

[Strings]

Hi guys,

Sharon, I don't like Camille much either.

I won't be getting on any journals for a while. My computer is completely hosed. Won is trying to fix it. Let's see..It's raining, so my DH is working from home again. I'm thinking of all of you and sending
Take care,
Beth

 

[LAinSEA]

Beth: OK, so now I know that in two weeks it will be group hug time. No falling apart on my watch...but you can have a good cry anytime you want.

You are so right in recognizing what triggers the old comforting ways of feeling and eating - and learning and exercising new coping skills that let you live a healthier life. What is even better is that you're daughter is learning from you to take life as it comes and to stay positive and to look forward. I wish I'd got the same from my folks growing up...

Maintaining is a big accomplishment. Although, I can emphasize with wanting to see the scale drop - seriously drop - real soon. But I've just got a feeling that now that you and your doc know just what the problems are that your health and weight will improve quite quickly. A little light exercise and some stretching will probably enhance your curves workout when you start it again.

Enjoy your time with your family this week.

-Laurie

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth,
Praise God! I am so glad to hear that there is not a malignancy! Thank you Lord! I know that you still have treatments ahead of you, but know that your WISH family is here for you and praying for you.

Have a wonderful day today!

Tracy

 

[Desiree]

Hope you have a great day today!

 

[Strings]

Hello,

We had fun last night. There was an indoor carnival at the Silverdome. It was geared towards the 6 and under group. We went on all the rides, and the kids never wanted to leave. We had to ride the SUPER Slide 4 times. That was 75 stairs each time. At the end of the night, Katie tripped and cut her knee. The elevator was out of order, so I had to carry her up the stairs. Yes, I know, I'm still on lifting restrictions. I carried her 40 pound little butt up 160 stairs. Believe me, I counted. I'll count that as exercise for the day.

I didn't eat at the carnival. The only thing that I could eat there was a hot dog. I wasn't in the mood. After Kate was in bed, I had a peanut butter sandwich and Strawberries with whipped cream sweetened with SF chocolate syrup. I used the leftover whipped cream in my coffee this AM.. Yum!

This morning, I went for a 2 mile walk before breakfast. Blessings counted. meds taken with 1 liter of water. Food plan for the day:

Breakfast: Morning Start bar and mocha coffee.
Lunch: Turkey swiss rollup and small salad.
Dinner: Italian chicken, green beans, and small salad.
Snacks if needed, cheese and cantalope.

Kate has swim lessons this evening. If it isn't raining I'll go for another walk. Weigh in is in the AM.


Beth

 

[vald1977]

Hi Beth,
That carnival sounds like a lot of fun . And good for you for making good food choices when I'm sure there was some tempting stuff that you could have had at the carnival ! Hope today is a great one for you .

 

[septbride2002]

I'm tired just reading about your evening! Sheesh! But good for you in avoiding the carnival like foods and for walking that many stairs.

~Amanda

 

[sharoncity]

Last night sounds like a lot of fun Beth! But please make sure you don't overdo! Take it easy on yourself today, get some relaxation in. Your weekend work schedule is just around the corner.....
Good luck with weigh in tomorrow - remember maintaining will be a.o.k. for this week! Here's some that the scale will be nice to you.
TTFN-
Sharon

PS - what did you think of AI last night? I was very surprised to see Matt go. He wasn't a top 3, but I thought he'd be around for a little while yet. I thought Kimberly Locke sounded wonderful!!

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth I'm sending for your weigh-in tomorrow. I say go ahead and visit the scale if you're feeling thin but if you're not sure, just pass it by until next week. You're still healing and I don't think you should worry about the scale yet.

Part of me is not happy that you disregarded your lifting restrictions to carry Katie up the stairs, and the other part of me knows that I would have done the exact same thing! I hope that it didn't cause you any more pain - sending a gentle your way. We Moms will do practically ANYTHING for our kids.

Time for me to get to bed. Hope tomorrow is a good day!

 

[Strings]

Well, I'm off to bed in a few minutes. I thought I'd recap the day.

I ate exactly what I had planned. No snacks were nedded. I drank 4 liters of water. I did anither 1.5 miles this evening. Katie and Mommy took an hour and a half nap this afternoon. I should have folded laundry, but I didn't feel like it.

Thanks for worrying about me guys. I don't seem to have any side affects from carrying Katie. I did take some motrin last night. If I feel bloated tomorrow, I will take Doe's advice and skip the scale. We'll see.

I hope everyone has a good eveving. I'll check in tomorrow.


Beth

 

[R_Judy]

Hi Beth. I just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy Friday.

 

[lulu201]

Beth, just wanted to stop by and sprinkle some on the scale just in case you're wanting to peek. What's your schedule looking like this weekend?

How have you been enjoying your walking? It sounds like you're getting in a lot. I'll bet Katie enjoys your strolls, too.

on your Friday,
Erin

 

[Strings]

Of course I couldn't resist getting on the scale. 225. I'm down 1 pound. I have 1.5 pounds to go for the April 1st challenge and my 45 pound clippie. It is still possible.

I won't be able to hit journals today. I've tons to do today before work, and I want to take a nap. Katie was up 3x last night. She was just wired for some reason last night. My schedule isn't bad this week. I work a 16 hour shift followed by a 2 hour boring training session on Crrt. Then it is bed, but I don't need to go in on Sat night. Sunday my family is getting together for my DBIL's bday. We're going to Outback, so I can stay op. No cake for me thank you.

I'm loving walking outside. It is raining today, so I'll walk on my lunch break tonight.

Blessings counted, meds taken, 1 liter of water so far.
Meals for the next 36 hours...
Breakfast was Morning Start bar and cup of tea.
Lunch eggs and toast.
Snack (5PM) Veggies and cheese.
Tall Vanilla latte, SF of course, on the way to work.
Dinner (1AM) Chicken salad in lc tortilla, string cheese, sf jello
Snack(5AM) Strawberries with cream cheese sweetened with splenda.
Breakfast (8AM training) Morning Start bar and coffee.

I need to pack a suitcase of food for tonight.

I hope everyone has a great weekend. I'll check in by Sunday.

Beth