Hi guys!!! Thanks as always for checking in me (and us!)
First the C25K update...Week 3/Day 2:
So... WE got up at 5:10 am this morning. Did not make it outside until about5:45 though... Geez, that's early! You don't have to tell me... I LOVE to sleep! I'm one of those that can sleep til like 11 or 12n on a Saturday!!!
So...I managed through it. The first 90 sec burst was great! I was thinking wow, that was easy. That was the ONLY time I thought that during this session! Matt ran the 1st 90 sec, but did not make the 1st 3 min run. His bronchitis is still bothering him. He did manage the last 3 min though. I got through both of them. They definately weren't easy. But, I made it. I can always tell when I'm getting tired of running because my breathing changes. I start out w/ 2 breathes in, 1 on the left foot, 1 on the right and then blow out for 2 steps... Towards the last minute of the 3--especially the last 30 sec, I just start breathing however I can, huffin and puffin! I tried to stay conscious of my form. Head and chest up, back straight, breathing pattern, but the breathing did suffer! At some points, I know I'm moving, but it barely feels like it. I feel like my legs are heavy and I'm not making any progress even though I see the mailboxes go by!
I try to remember that I am supposed to be a conversational pace a 6.5-7.5 effort level, not the race pace, but it's hard to make yourself believe that's ok. I feel like I should bust it out everytime, but according to MfM book, I don't think you are.
I am not going to try to worry about that too much. My goal is just to get through the work out. I have time later, after the C25K to work on my breathing, my form, and my pace/timing. I keep reminding myself that the one and only goal is complete the 5K in January under the 45 min time frame. I'll start focusing on the other components after that.
Wow, that ended up being pretty long! Sorry!!!
Now--DH update:
Matt is doing ok. He seems to still be having problems focusing and some problems with memory retention...but the psychiatrist says that is to be expected. I was starting to worry a bit about it, but hopefully in a few weeks it will improve. She is still waiting for the EEG report and he had the MRI last night. Hopefully by week's end we'll know what' going on. I've read that people that suffer depression/OCD, maybe a few other mental illness, that sometimes and MRI will help. I don't for how long, but it's something to do with the magnetic forse? I don't know, but he did seem in better spirits after it was over. Anyway, so the psychiatrist seems to think he can possibly go back on that one med that was helping him. She just want to hear from the neurologist first. So...we're still waiting
Seems that way w/ doctors...always waiting... I'll keep you posted!
Other stuff:
I've been pretty down the past week, but I am in better spirits today too. Not sure how long it will stay that way, but it's ok. I know it will all get better over time, it's just not knowing how long it will take. I'm a pretty internally stong and indepent person, but sometimes you just get tired of dealing. You know you can't or won't give up, you know it will get better, you're just tired. You feel like you've reached your breaking point, but you don't break, you just keep going--what choice do you have??? Well, there are other choices, but none which would actually make anything better in the long run. As humans, we want things and we want them now. We want the bad stuff to be over and be over now. Being patient is not easy, it's one of the hardest things to do. I fully believe that if you can make it though the tough times, to be patient, knowing it will be get better and to not give up, that the rewards in the end will be greater than the instant gratification of passifying that inner child, that inner demon, that inner selfish person.
I guess that about wraps it up for today. I hadn't planned on it being that long... Sorry you guys!!!
Thanks again for your continued support and checking in on me!!!
Hope everyone has a great day!!!
Stacie
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5am!!!! You are THE woman!! 
