If it makes you feel better, I am going on my WDW FIRST trip and I'm 40!! My parents took us only a handful of places growing up (like he zoo, beach, maybe 4 times total). We live in a city that used to have a six flags. We never went even though it was 30 mins away. We would visit relatives in a neighboring state, and my grandma would introduce us to kids there and say we lived, "in Houston, where Astroworld is!" and the kids would always light up and say "Oh YEAH, we've been THERE!" I HATED that and still remember how it felt. We finally went when were were teens and could drive ourselves!
My point is, your kids have already been twice. There are millions of kids who could never DREAM of going. Your kids will be fine. It may be hard for YOU though since you love it so much. Stop coming here and feeling sad you can't go, and start looking in to things you CAN do, like reading to your kids, maybe a book club, library, or whatever, or if there is a more affordable trip you can take, focus on that. I think you are torturing yourself coming here when you want to go and can't. Come back when you can start planning in reality. That's just my advice.
As I tell my kids when they whine, (not to say YOU are whining), "Hey, would you rather be in Haiti right now???" I think it is just a good reality check.
Take care

and sorry you are sad. I hope things get better so you can plan soon but it will be fine if you can't.
