Senior year

[cindys_castle2011]

When does it get fun? When does the parties and memory making begin? Because all I'm seeing now is a bunch of confusion and terrifing thoughts about AFTER high school.

My number one problem I've always had was that instead of enjoying the present I'm ALWAYS thinking about the future and how the decisions I make now will affect me in the future.

Okay, me and my boyfriend (Garrett) have been together for two years. I KNOW and have it in my heart that we will be together forever.. (no more sappy "omg, i love you's".. this is forreal now). And we had it planned since sophomore year what college we were going to and what we were majoring in.

Mine hasn't changed.. his has. Major is still the same, he just switched colleges all the sudden.

I KNOW you're not suppose to base your college decision on who you're dating but I'm very crappy at following those kind of rules. I've actually been looking at that college.. I'm beginning to fall in love with the campus and I've found that many of my friends are going.. so all good right? No. Then he comes again and is like I just don't know.. I'm debating on college #1 and college #2.

Indeed I want to be with him during college but I don't want to go JUST where he's going. I don't want my decision to be put on halt while he's waiting for which one has a better academic or baseball scholarship.

I know I have to go where I want to go. But it makes me feel bad now because he says that he only was going to college #1 because that's my dream college, and his is college #2. The only reason he'd go to mine is because of me.. so now it's like the tables are completely turned because he realized that it's HIS future and he needs what's best for him. When am I going to realize that?!

Ughhhh what to do, what to do.

 

[ya-ya]

When does it get fun? When does the parties and memory making begin? Because all I'm seeing now is a bunch of confusion and terrifing thoughts about AFTER high school.

My number one problem I've always had was that instead of enjoying the present I'm ALWAYS thinking about the future and how the decisions I make now will affect me in the future.

Okay, me and my boyfriend (Garrett) have been together for two years. I KNOW and have it in my heart that we will be together forever.. (no more sappy "omg, i love you's".. this is forreal now). And we had it planned since sophomore year what college we were going to and what we were majoring in.

Mine hasn't changed.. his has. Major is still the same, he just switched colleges all the sudden.

I KNOW you're not suppose to base your college decision on who you're dating but I'm very crappy at following those kind of rules. I've actually been looking at that college.. I'm beginning to fall in love with the campus and I've found that many of my friends are going.. so all good right? No. Then he comes again and is like I just don't know.. I'm debating on college #1 and college #2.

Indeed I want to be with him during college but I don't want to go JUST where he's going. I don't want my decision to be put on halt while he's waiting for which one has a better academic or baseball scholarship.

I know I have to go where I want to go. But it makes me feel bad now because he says that he only was going to college #1 because that's my dream college, and his is college #2. The only reason he'd go to mine is because of me.. so now it's like the tables are completely turned because he realized that it's HIS future and he needs what's best for him. When am I going to realize that?!

Ughhhh what to do, what to do.

Ugh please don't tell me that. I was hoping and planning my whole high school career that my Senior be the easiest. I am going to be a Junior this year and this one will most likely be the hardest.

 

[snowyjoey]

Oh please don't say highschool is worse then jr.high!!! My mom said I will be a lot less miserable in highschool, is she lying, or does it get better???

 

[JulielovesDisney]

When does it get fun? When does the parties and memory making begin? Because all I'm seeing now is a bunch of confusion and terrifing thoughts about AFTER high school.

My number one problem I've always had was that instead of enjoying the present I'm ALWAYS thinking about the future and how the decisions I make now will affect me in the future.

Okay, me and my boyfriend (Garrett) have been together for two years. I KNOW and have it in my heart that we will be together forever.. (no more sappy "omg, i love you's".. this is forreal now). And we had it planned since sophomore year what college we were going to and what we were majoring in.

Mine hasn't changed.. his has. Major is still the same, he just switched colleges all the sudden.

I KNOW you're not suppose to base your college decision on who you're dating but I'm very crappy at following those kind of rules. I've actually been looking at that college.. I'm beginning to fall in love with the campus and I've found that many of my friends are going.. so all good right? No. Then he comes again and is like I just don't know.. I'm debating on college #1 and college #2.

Indeed I want to be with him during college but I don't want to go JUST where he's going. I don't want my decision to be put on halt while he's waiting for which one has a better academic or baseball scholarship.

I know I have to go where I want to go. But it makes me feel bad now because he says that he only was going to college #1 because that's my dream college, and his is college #2. The only reason he'd go to mine is because of me.. so now it's like the tables are completely turned because he realized that it's HIS future and he needs what's best for him. When am I going to realize that?!

Ughhhh what to do, what to do.

How far away are the two colleges?
But Kels, you do need to figure out what is best for YOU, not what is best for the relationship. Your relationship with your BF will be strong enough to handle the distance of going to separate colleges. You two are in love, so you will work through the distance and keep your relationship strong, especially if both want the relationship to last.
Best of luck, girlie. This is one of the more difficult times in your life, but it'll all work out the way it's supposed to.

Ugh please don't tell me that. I was hoping and planning my whole high school career that my Senior be the easiest. I am going to be a Junior this year and this one will most likely be the hardest.

Junior year is hard, school work wise. But senior year is the hardest by far, especially the beginning, because you need to figure out which college to go to and what to major in, etc. Once that is all figured out, usually by late winter, then the fun starts.

Oh please don't say highschool is worse then jr.high!!! My mom said I will be a lot less miserable in highschool, is she lying, or does it get better???

High school definitely has it's ups and downs. You'll have lots of fun, but you'll be glad when it's over..haha

 

[DramaQueen]

I agree with Julie, Kels you have to make decisions for yourself. Trust me when I say I know how you feel, I was in the exact position that you're in, Derek & I had to decide on what universities we were going to, and ultimately he picked one where he was going to be away from home.
And it was haaaaard in the beginning, and sometimes I still miss him when he's gone and I don't see him for a couple of week. But I know you & Garret have a strong relationship, and if you guys are a couple of hours away I'm sure things will work out.

If you have your heart set on one college & major, don't change just for him. But if you do wind up finding something you really like at a college you both want to attend, then that is great and you're lucky! haha

As for when senior year gets fun, for me, it was VERY VERY stressful applying to universities (especially since I had to do auditions for theatre). But I made sure to make time for fun on the weekends, I made a lot of memories, and it was definitely a year I'll never forget. But I also remember the stress & anxiety of applying & being accepted.
Once you know where you're going (which may not even be until march or april, I'm not sure how it works for you guys) it'll be easier to relax & enjoy your last year. But in the meantime, make sure you make time for yourself & your friends to go out and have FUN!!

Best of luck with everything, I'm sure I'll hear updates