David, I'm so sorry for your loss. My daughter bought a t shirt that is lime green with "CANCER SUCKS" in bright red. I so agree. My husband has lost his dad and 2 brothers to cancer since 2001. It's a monster.
Losing your Mom is so hard, I hope there are those around you bringing you comfort now. I am so sorry for your loss, and for the added sorrow of not being at the funeral.