So, in the interest of self torment:
I found a breeder local to me that had a Cardigan Welsh corgi available on a co-own basis. I had no idea what this meant, so I agreed to meet with her, talk about it & meet the dog.
After meeting, his owner allowed me to take him home for the week, no money or paperwork exchanged, to see how he fit our family. I was kind of surprised by the offer & I did end up leaving with him.
I (we) fell hard. He is a beautiful, very well behaved, well mannered boy. He looked like a baby panda bear. Sweet, friendly, playful, walks perfectly on leash...he has it all.
I ended up keeping him for nearly 2 weeks & brought him back yesterday. It was a very emotional day for me. It takes a lot to get me upset & this was tough, lots of tears & I can usually keep my emotions in check, but this hit me hard.
I couldn’t wrap my head around the arrangement I would have with his owner.
Basically, I would pay a discounted price for the dog ($1000), be responsible for his everyday needs, vet bills etc & for the next 4 years, she would be able to call me to take him for dog shows (she intended to show him) & to use him to breed.
I would not be able to have him fixed for 4 years.
She would be paying any cost associated with the shows, breeding, genetic testing.
Ultimately, for me it seemed like too much could possibly go wrong over those 4 years & I had to make the choice to pass.
I am missing him very much.