It makes you someone who has given everything she has to give and more to someone who refuses to accept his own reality. It's also quite different because he's not only a man, he's a hispanic man. Genetically and culturally he's hard wired to be the strong macho provider. Showing any vulnerability is not in his make up. The harder and further away he pushes all of you, the less you'll see and, in his perception, the less you'll suffer because of his "weakness".
As a woman, my guilt is usually about things like not being able to nuture Bruce the way I'd like. It's hard to see him work 12 hour days, 7 days a week then come home to find me not feeling well so he has to cook dinner and do the laundry and the dishes. And he doesn't get too much mattress dancing anymore, usually because I'm so tired all the time. I'm hard wired to take care of hearth and home, cook up a good meal and then serve up a spicy dessertbut I'm not because I don't feel well. It's very hard not to feel guilty about that.
Ah, I see. I do feel better, believe it or not. I know what I'm doing is right, but you know, I still want to know others think well of me.![]()
Lots of good thoughts for Liam.![]()
Oh thank goodness! I thought I was losing my mind there for a bit and even decided I was bringing my laptop over to POP to show you all!![]()
OK, back to dial-up...
So, all I have to do is get one of those AOL disc thingys and then Tig or someone will help me from there?
Only if I've exercised or its really hot out...but itwas just a joke Caro.![]()
I'll be on the verge of a heart attack.
Good luck Aimee....you'll do fine!
Keeping you in my thoughts!Morning my little sweet potatoes!
Good luck Aimee. I know you will do just fine.
We have Liam's appt. today with the pediatric cardiologist. We have waited for a month so I am just hoping everything goes smoothly. I am going to try and get a trip to the gym in before we go. I desparately need the stress relief.
I'm awake today, or at least right now!Everyone is sleepy today? Everyone I have spoken to on the phone has been yawning too.![]()
Its thursday, 10-25, 2 months before Christmas and daytimedaytime ladies
i think.
not sure anymore.
i hate closing this many nights in a row.
what day is it?
is it day?
Everyone is sleepy today? Everyone I have spoken to on the phone has been yawning too.![]()
And 1 month til my birthday.Its thursday, 10-25, 2 months before Christmas and daytime![]()
Growing up I could not WAIT to be grown up so I could be free. Now I am grown up, and I don't feel at all free. I feel very trapped. Just trapped. And I've been waiting and waiting, went to college, okay when I have a job, then I'll be free, got a job, okay, when we have more money, then I'll be free, had a baby, okay when he's older, then I'll be free, okay when dh goes into remission, then I'll be free.............it just keeps going.
And I'm trapped in my head and I'm trapped out of my head. And I really get mad at myself for not getting myself unstuck.
Does anyone have a clue what I'm talking about?
Hey ladiesI just got back from taking DD to a Pumpkin Patch (School Field Trip) and in 2 short hrs I will be dragging 2 kids into the doctors office for the big S...Flu Shots...
I know, I am a mean mommy that makes the kids get shots..
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After supper tonight is trick or treat so I will try not to scare any little children..![]()
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Our new cat is finally leaving her hiding place (She was hiding under the sofa since we got her...)![]()
Have a good afternoon/night ladies![]()
Someone distract me. I'm waiting for the doctor to call me back, I've only felt the baby move once all day. When i called I hadn't felt anything at all, but since I've been waiting I felt one little kick. It's making me nervous.