Please, I need some help.

[ears4all!]

There is a friend of mine that has been mean to me in the past and was tonight at youth group. I had to do something about it, so I sent him a text that said

"This might seem rather sudden. I just wanted to tell you that I don't like it at all when you pick on me to make yourself look cool. It really hurts me. I don't even know or even if I can say it to you face on. I don't know how to word it but it does hurt."

He sent back

"I'm sorry. I've actually wanted to tell you for a long time that I'm jealous of you and always have been. You get ood grades, all the teachers like you, and everyone likes you. Again, sorry if I hurt you."

So I sent back

"You are my closest friend and I don't want to ruin this friendship. It was just something that has been on my heart. Everybody likes you too. It is not like you are hated by everyone. You have great friends the teachers like you and my family enjoys you. I don't want to be negative. I treasure this friendship and don't want it to end but I had to get it out. Thanks for listening and sorry if I am being too rough.

Him:

"K"

Me:

"I want to let you know that I am okay with it and I forgive you"

Him:

"Ok. Thanks"

Me:

"I feel really bad because of what I just said That is not like me"

Him:

"Its fine. I know I pick on you a lot."

Me:

"Well it is not you all the time. Even though I know [insert another friend's name here] and such are just kidding, it does hurt. I probably dumped too much on you and I am sorry,."

Him:

"It's fine."

Me:

"I don't know what to do....."


More messages are coming and going. I cried because I felt like I had been very mean. I don't mean to brag, but when I hurt others, my heart hurts.


What to do, what to do.....

 

[Cassidy]

Aw, wow.
Good for you for actually having the guts to tell him that your hurting.
I can't even do that, I'm a wimp.

It didn't really seem to me that you we're being mean, you we're just getting something off your mind that bugged you.

My PM box is always open!

 

[Tinkerbell424]

That's great that you stood up for yourself!
Try not to feel so bad though. If they picked on you, you had a right to say what you did. I did not find anything mean in those texts you sent.

I hope you feel better though.