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<font color="green">Volunteer Firefighter and Mom
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Mine went out this morning. It has a long way to travel, though!

LakeAriel said:Weren't the packages supposed to be out by today? To arrive by Christmas?![]()
So you're not late!!!!!!![]()


whimsey said:Last March a worrisome, small bump appeared on the belly of my 13 year old cocker spaniel, Bailey. She had been the best Christmas present ever. We had a Swedish exchange student living with us back then and the first time she saw the little black puppy frolicing in the backyard she said, "Ooooh, she looks just like a Disney dog."
Very quickly, within weeks, the bump became tennis ball size. It was breast cancer. The surgery was successful and I was beyond grateful that I had my best friend for a while longer. Bailey has had a multitude of problems. I suspect she had originally come from a puppy mill. She was a runt, very submissive, had a third eyelid that resisted several repair surgeries, over the years sprouted over 40 warts and she's been blind for over a year. She is also, loyal and loving with a humble spirit and gentle doggie soul. In spite of her blindness I always thought that she saw each of our family members' best self. After the surgery she lost weight and became downright wee again, which was a good thing because she'd gotten rather tubby.
My husband and I went on a cruise several weeks ago. Our 26 year old daughter is still living here and she kept the pets and, no doubt, celebrated having the house to herself. When we returned about 10 days ago, Bailey appeared to have gained a great deal of weight very quickly but I was confident that it was just weight gain as there were no bumps or lumps. We went to the vet on Monday. I was wrong. She has another tumor and cancer in her liver and lungs. She would not survive another surgery. The vet and our family agreed upon bringing her home as the quality of her life had not changed. We would wait until there were changes before putting her to sleep. Since coming home I see or am imagining deterioration on almost an hourly basis. I was certain I would be able to interpret her signals and demeanor. After working in an ER for 20 years, I was pretty sure I was never going to become this person. I am second guessing her panting, is she hot or in pain, her shivering, cold or pain, her lack of appetite, just not hungry or failing?
I am pretty much taking care of things only when I'm sure she's sound asleep.
I'm usually fairly efficient but I gotta admit, I'm starting to come undone.
Please don't let this upset any of you. Bailey and I had a wonderful 13 years together, she gave more than I could ever give back and I guess I feel like I'm failing her by not being confident in my observations.



whimsey.Meriweather said:whimsey.
Best wishes to your family and your furbaby.
It is always a hard decision to make.
It's been almost 5 years since we lost our 14 year old baby and I still think I hear him on the deck sometimes.

whimsey I'm so sorry to hear about Bailey

My granddaughter received her Kyla received her package today, she received 4 ornaments, notepads and candy. Thank you to whoever sent the goodies.