Not quite sure how I feel....

[December99]

I got a call tonight that a verbal offer has been made on my mom's house. I counter-offered because it was just too low so I met in the middle of their offer and the asking price. DH said I did good (considering I've never had to do this before). The past few weeks that I have been off I have really missed my mom badly. Yesterday I came to really appreciate the work that my mom did around her house - the best that she could do. I went down to the lawyers to pay some bills so thought I'd stop by and check on the house since I hadn't been down for about 4 weeks. Walking in there - so empty really really hit me. I mean I had been in there right after it was totally empty and cleaned and it just didn't hit me. But what really hit me was the 4 hours I spent raking (with the help of my uncle and his leaf blower) and just thinking about how in the world she ever was able to keep this up. Even last fall at this time when we she was rediagnosed she was out there raking, putsing around the yard all the time while working 3 jobs just keep her head above the water.

But tonight really hit me...the end of that era is near and it's so hard to imagine that there will be a day that I won't enter into that house again, I won't rake that yard again, I won't see the beautiful plants and flowers up close again. I knew it was going to be hard - I just didn't imagine it was going to be this hard. I have cried more the past week than I have the past 3 months that she has been gone.

Sorry, but I just needed to release this. The upside to this is that her stone is on her grave and it is beautiful. I will try to get a pic of it and post it. Hopefully I'm making a quick trip down there on Sunday afternoon or tomorrow afternoon.

I just went online and here is a pic that they took of the house - it's not a great one but it'll do - this is what I grew up with - first my grandparents then my mom.

 

[Dan Murphy]

{{Hugs}}, Chris. Great memories there.

 

[RitaZ.]

Chris~ {{hugs}}

 

[browneyes]

{{hugs}} Maybe before you decide to sell the house, you can go camp out in the house and give it an official goodbye. {{hugs}}

 

[DopeyRN]

I am sorry chris...there is nothing you or anyone can do to make it better. Only time will help. Cry, remember, laugh when you can. Take care of yourself and do what you need when you need it. Love ya kid.

 

[aahmom1]

I'm sorry 99

 

[KimRaye]

Sending you a beautiful butterfly

and Loads of {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}!!

 

[helenabear]

{{hugs}} to you Chris.

 

[SuiteDisney]

I understand how you feel... we went through this last spring. (((hugs)))

 

[TinkerPixie]

((((HUGS)))) I sure hope it gets better for you.. I know it can be pretty painful.

 

[Smee]

awwww Chris,....my heart goes out to you.
I really don't know what else to say.

 

[dizneenut]

{{{{hugs}}}}

 

[PKK/MJK]

Oh, Chris, I really understand how you feel! I went through these exact emotions a few years ago when my Dad died and I had to sell his house. It was heart-wrenching!! {HUGS}

 

[catsrule]

So sorry Chris, I know how weird it feels, having lost my dad last year. I still expect him to come walking down the hall when I go over to see my mom. It feels so weird without him. Your mom will live in your heart always. {{{HUGS}}}

 

[Planogirl]

I went through something similar a few years ago. I remember how I felt like I had an empty spot inside of me like something had been torn away. {{{{Hugs}}}}

 

[Pixie Power!]

{{{Hugs}}} Chris, and there's a real hug just around the corner

Emma

 

[shortbun]

{{{{hugs}}}}

 

[Serena]

Chris, {{{hugs}}}.

 

[Tony-NJ]

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}.

 

[Mamu]

{{{HUGS}}}