Hi and welcome!
My grandmother couldn't stand the sight of blood, and she fainted if she saw it, so I totally understand. I am definitely better than I was years ago with my phobia...I used to be scared of having kids because of morning sickness in pregnancy and because of taking care of them when they are sick...I thought my phobia would make me a bad mother because I couldn't do everything for them. But Eric assures me that just that one thing, which isn't even an everyday thing, is not that big a deal not to be able to do easily. I did take care of cleaning up Jonathan while Eric took care of the inside of the car. Another time a couple of years ago, Jonathan got sick in the middle of the night and I gave him a bath while Eric cleaned up Jonathan's bed. So, the motherly instincts have kicked in when I am faced with it. Even though part of me wants to run, I never do...I just suck it up and take care of my kids. Of course in my mind, I am in a panic at the time, but the last thing I want is for the boys to fear it too, so I try my best not to show my phobia. It seems like such a silly thing to me, but no one seems to find it strange or nutty if I tell them about it.
Have you returned to work yet? Teachers here go back Sept. 4th and the students come back Sept. 6th. We are lucky to have a few days off in September for the Jewish holidays, and then Columbus Day in October. The Fall semester usually goes fast, after the initial 2 weeks of the school year when all the kinks are being ironed out (students' schedules constantly change during that time, and we wait to give out textbooks because many times they are programmed for the wrong class, especially the incoming 9th graders). Once that happens, I feel like things go more smoothly, and then the timne really flies so fast, it's scary...the boys are getting older (Kindergarten and 2nd grade already) and time keeps going faster and faster because the older they get, the busier we are. They both do different activites...Philip does swimming and voice lessons once a week each, and he is starting Hebrew school once a week this year; Jonathan does soccer twice a week and he is starting Breakdancing class once a week this year. So, very busy house, but all good things, which we are very lucky to have. We are always so busy on the weekends too, getting together with family, socializing with friends, or just doing nice things with the boys. Again, all good things! So, when we are at the busiest times, Eric and I remind each other that we are busy with great things, and we are very grateful for that!