No, I am not ignoring you...

[Mskanga]

Sorry for not being here much lately , but a lot of things have happened , all at once and I just need some time to sort things out.
I have been lurking a bit , but just not posting , I think the being home 7 days a week now with the kids all day is catching up with me, I'm used to working and getting out for a couple of days, now that's gone and at times I feel like I'm drawning. I'm not dealing very well with having my 10 yr old always asking , where are you going and what took you so long ? when I'm gone for half an hour, I know she's going through the pre-teen stage, but it's driving me nuts. So the few moments I get to myself , I do NOTHING.
I spoke to my mom the other day, she's doing ok, my dad told her while I was on the phone with them the other day , that all the things that are happening to her now , is because her cholesterol is up , she doesn't know it's alzheimers and I don't think she would understand, I almost cried on the phone when I heard that.
But on the good side , although things seem to be upside down, I have not gained any weight, I have not lost anymore but I have not gained back, that's a good sign.
I know I need to get myself re-motivated, I can't tell you how bad I want school to start again , I think what I miss the most is that in the last year I got to get a couple of hours to myself without anyone when the kids were in school, I need that back and I need to get out of the house again!
But anyway , and sorry for the lengthy post, don't think I am ignoring anyone here, don't think I'm not supporting you, it's just that I feel a bit overwhealmed. I'm still with you in spirit.
{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}

 

[Beastlover]

Awww...pd for you...{{{{***}}}} I know how you feel with the kids, maybe you should have a talk with them and explain what is going onwith you. Sometimes kids don't realize we fall apart sometimes and need time to "regroup" I tell my 12 year old DD that I am in a mood and need some time alone to straighten my head out. This usually prompts her to ask me if there is anything she can do to help.
My mom didn't know either...she would ask, "when is that Alz. going to show up? I just don't get it.." well, Monday we had her in the e.r. for breathing problem, throwing up, and a fever. After SEDATING her so they could do urine test and a chest x-ray, they found she has pneunomia. They gave her an antib. and sent her home.
I find that when I am stressed, or upset, I use those feelings to push through a workout (usually a walk or bike ride) and then I feel better I did that for myself.
Be sure to take care of yourself!!!
Michelle

 

[luvindisneyworld]

Take Care of yourself.

 

[audflash]

Oh my gosh, Calgon take you away...

Life can get ahead of us so quickly. One day we feel like we're handling everything and the next all we think we can do is lay in bed. Take care of yourself!! That 10 year old little darling is mature enough to understand that you need some time to yourself. Are the kids kind of feeding off of your mood? I know mine do that a lot. They are so in tune with my emotions. Maybe you can tell them some of what's going on? Usually when we don't tell them what's up they imagine all sorts of awful things. You are, after all, the center of their universe, and what affects you affects them.

{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}

 

[mowsie dreamer]

{{{Olga}}} I'm a person who needs a little quiet time, too, so I know how stressful it can be when you have someone right there all the time-even when it's your own kids who you love! When my DD was around 3, she used to talk non-stop ALL the time! It used to drive me up the wall sometimes! I would take her and go to K Mart and just walk around so she would look at things and be quiet for a few minutes. Of course that brought on new problems when she started wanted to buy all those things she was looking at! Hang in there, school will start before you know it and you will have a little time to de-stress!

It's great that you have been able to maintain your weight. I'm sure that when things calm down a bit you will be hopping right back on the ole wagon!

 

[CathyCanada]

Hugs, Olga!! I think you need a 30-minute daily walk by yourself just to regroup!
Take good care and hang in there!
CC

 

[nativetxn]

{{{HUGS}}} sweetie. Your dealing with difficult issues with your mother and I'm so sorry to hear it.

Good for you maintaining your wait. I think it is wise of you to aim for maintaining right now while you have these emotional days to deal with.

Sounds like you need to find some extra chores for your preteen. Keep her a little busier. {{{HUGS}}} my friend. Hang in there.

I'm glad you dropped by. You know how much we miss you when you are away from WISH.

 

[Minniespal]

Olga ~

Look after yourself!!!!

 

[TigH]

Bless your heart, Olga!

You just keep taking it one day at a time! Be REALLY super good to yourself! I so enjoyed your before and after picture! Try to focus on the things you can control and not worry or stress out too much over the things beyond your control. It doesn't mean you are less caring of a person if you spend less time worrying about things. Just be the wonderful and sweet person you are. I undertand about loving your alone time. I am home most of the time during the day and I so appreciate the peace and quiet of our house. I enjoy having my cyber friends, I enjoy spending time with my friends "in real life" and also with my family, but I am really appreciative of the time I get just to myself! Hope that you can hang in there until your quiet time is back in your schedule!